I dont know how to tell the people in my life that im drowning. I dont know how to beg someone else for help without my mind trying to tell me that im just attention seeking or that no one cares.
It feels like no one cares. Ive been so strong for so long, clearly I can handle myself right?

I cant.

- fair to those that love me, those that count on me. People need me. I need them, but I can never bring myself to ask for help.
I need help. I need someone to hold me for a while, tell me it'll be okay. That everything's scary but that they've got me. That im not alone.

I dont know what im doing.

-fear and the hopelessness will go away but they never do. Im stumbling around in a nightmare of an existence, constantly drowning, with no life raft in view. I have fought my entire life to stay above water, but im tired of fighting. I want the waves to carry me away. But I cant. That wouldnt be-

-ask them to reassure and comfort me when theyre going through so much themselves. But im being eaten alive by my own mind and soul. I hate myself so much it hurts, every day. Every day I wake up and pray to whatevers listening that it stops. That the weight in my chest will vanish. That the-

Just need to put this somewhere so my brain stops screaming at me.
The feelings and emotions I have raging inside of me are tearing a hole through my very existence. I feel so alone it fucking burns. I cant reach out to any of my friends. They're all going through so much, it feels wholly unfair to-

Completely understandable, thank you! I was worried Patreon was giving you a similar issue YouTube was ^^' Super excited for future content, and ofc be sure to rest when you can ♡

So unbelievable excited for this!!! Also, off topic: Im not sure if I just missed an announcement or something but did you take down your Patreon? I went to go check it and it won't load/when I look up your tag your account doesn't appear
Just curious is all, much love 🪳🖤

Actually going feral

GOING FERAL OVER THIS

Crying this is so beautiful

This is fucking beautiful

Arcane Jinx sketch

Good morning

Agreed

The background of space is black. Thousands of galaxies appear all across the view. Their shapes and colors vary. Some are various shades of orange, others are white. Most stars appear blue, and are sometimes as large as more distant galaxies that appear next to them. A very bright star is just above and left of center. It has eight bright blue, long diffraction spikes. Between 4 o’clock and 6 o’clock in its spikes are several very bright galaxies. A group of three are in the middle, and two are closer to 4 o’clock. These galaxies are part of the galaxy cluster SMACS 0723, and they are warping the appearances of galaxies seen around them. Long orange arcs appear at left and right toward the center.

A massive cloud of gas and dust is seen in dark, dusty red, with its outer portions a translucent, ethereal gray. Several stars and distant galaxies are scattered throughout the image.

A circular-shaped nebula with a complex structure. On the circle’s exterior, particularly on the left side of the image, are curtains of material glowing orange like fire. Interior to this outer shell is a ring of mottled filaments in bright pink, studded with clumps and knots. A greenish loop extends from the upper right of the ring into the central cavity. Translucent wisps of blue, green, and red appear throughout the image.

The star cluster Pismis 24 lies within the much larger emission nebula called NGC 6357, located about 8,000 light-years from Earth. The cluster is seen here above a small portion of the nebula. The gas below the stars glows through ionization caused by intense ultraviolet radiation from the massive young stars within the cluster. The strong radiation and stellar winds from from these blazing, blue-white stars also pushes the nebular material outward, creating one of many low-density bubbles within NGC 6357.

once again thinking about the fact that this is all just OUT THERE and we can only see it through the eyes of telescopes

Bilbo sits upright on the living room floor, looking happily into the camera with his massive face. His eyes lit by the sun outside, he says "I am sitting politely"

i am sittign polite