lol! i'm glad you forgot! it's worth forgetting!

someone once told me smiling is communication - i'd be more approachable if i smiled more. ptsd means i don't smile unless i'm really happ. that person is gone from my life & i left that world behind. so glad.

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ok who remembers patch the pirate & his songs/stories that touted a works salvation? psalty was too liberal/too rock musicky for our church, so we listened to patch. think veggie tales, but WORSE.

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were you allowed to watch it as a kid? i wasn't. i'm enjoying catching up on pop culture now.

i had firsthand experience w this movement. i think any movement based on harming children shdn't be allowed airtime. but alas, they have it. we shd expose them for who they are.

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memories suck. ptsd sucks. the ones who gave me them suck even worse. jokes on them. n helped me report him. he's in the database now. so there.

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i've removed world, w its too large words and weigthed silences. i've sun peering into my hideout, a delicate tracery of shadow and light. thorns are pressing into my back and into my face - guardians against discovery. i'm hiding again.

ch 1 unmasking god, where i hide outside all day rather than find food inside. he made it not safe to be there.

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we need more of this. i was pulled from school at 4 bc they didn't like the letter they sent home w me. life became a nightmare.

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had a local friend-lot of the isms & i felt like it was my job 2 open her mind. when i quit trying she didn't reach out. she finally did, i sent a selfie of me in 2S paint. she didn't like. ghosted me-this's y i'm not out here.

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i get that it's easy to poke fun at trump's weight or his hands or iq, but those are low hanging fruit. try poking at his policies, instead of being one of the isms.

Clarence Thomas Can’t Get American History Right In his recent broadside against the twentieth century, the justice is as ill informed as he is mean-spirited.

clarence thomas may be a bad justice, but since he's the main one they pick on (and sotomeyer), i think it's racism and not justice they're after.

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which is why i use google, bc then i can learn *how* to use the code. coding is abt learning, not abt regurgitating. learn, not repeat what you see. maintenance is so important.

we always used to say that our exparents read the same books/listened to the same people - now there's proof that it had far reaching consequences. it's coming home to roost.

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ever notice how the 10 commandments that maga wants to put in the schools doesn't say anything abt peace & love (besides god and parents)? i asked questions & got in trouble. glad i left.

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if left means good, who is good enough? who gets to decide? i'm probly not going to make the cut. i'm not into purity tests. i left that behind when i left the church. fundamentalism rears its ugly head everywhere.

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see also calling someone a monster. it removes the chance that they too cd possibly do something heinous. it also removes responsibility to do something abt it - it's just so far outside human experience.

also it removes the likelihood that they'd ever do the same. bc we're not like other humans. also when they say someone is a monster.

oh gosh that sounds terrible <3 <3 i'm so sorry. i hate those kinds of interactions.

i think when they made him pope, people thought they'd be able to control him? there's a lot wrong w the church, but sometimes they get it right.

being reminded today that youth group taught that sin is like addiction. it will eat you up inside and that the only solution is god's dubious love. it's so good to leave that behind. most sins aren't even bad anyway.

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i don't even want to speculate on percentages in that world.

i cd name names in the old world. they got away w so much. i have an exfather for a reason.

i fail to see how *teen* births dropping is a bad thing? let alone the rest of it?

enough abt the kids - they're fantastic. i have learned a lot being a parent. like that god is abusive. & i refused hell. & spankings. i broke cycles. i got out. & they got out even faster. i'm proud of them.

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but it's not my story to tell. just opened my eyes that in the old world, they never talked abt race. just abt evils of rock, or welfare queens. it was subtle. oh, & how heaven was not for those cursed by ham.

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working on my sequel, & i'm realizing that no one taught me to talk to the kids abt race. i just was so used to being the target, & suddenly had mixed kids that were more priv than i was. what an eye opener

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I think all of that ask ourselves "what if it all goes wrong" (in terms of things we have control over) also need to start immediately following that up with "what if it all goes right?"

We owe ourselves the honest comparison, rather than limit ourselves to fearful perspective.

i think we also were taught growing up to fear the future by the way they preached. all doom and gloom and hell. it's time to leave that behind and think abt hope. i'm working on that too.

i tried telling as a kid, but no one in the fundamentalist religious community i was in listened or believed. fun fact. they were christian, and they were the ones doing it. i have an exfam for a reason.

i had to take a break from reading and watching news clips. his face and voice and words are so triggering. they remind me of the exfather and preachers. that old world is intruding a lot.

even thinking abt my book is a lot.

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