For the people who have been tagging me in appeals, I’m not ignoring you, I will get back to you when I return to this site and will be working through appeals from the earliest made to the most recent, so it may take a while to get through them all.

Merry Christmas everyone,

Just popping in to say I’m extending my break into the new year, I’m kinda just not enjoying social media rn and there’s a lot happening in my life all at once that needs to settle before I feel in the headspace again.

Hope you all have a wonderful new year!

Bad time to post this bestie bsky.app/profile/o7ri...

Not coming back yet.

But I did wanna ask, how about now?

Oh, and its description as “the best health service in the world” while dentistry was not included as free has always been a headcase’s assessment btw.

Nye Bevan is now turning in his grave so intensely he could be used as a renewable energy source.

That’s a pretty bad habit I’ve developed ngl 😭 the weather’s also really shitty here so it doesn’t exactly encourage me outside.

Honestly why I’m so grateful for the friends I’ve made online in the last few weeks, I can talk any time and there’s no risk of them getting pissy bc I haven’t seen them

True I guess…

The brain being mean to me is well-documented lol

It feels like the embodiment of the snake eating itself tbh

Doesn’t help that pretty much everyone in a position of power to ever help me has declined that, but I don’t mean to individually dump shit on you, so I’ll leave it there

Average “the NHS is not fit for purpose” moment btw.

My actual position is that it needs drastic funding increases and the nurse bursary to return, but i
also needs fundamental patient care reform, particularly mental health and trans care (red tape cut)

But I hate the NHS in its current state.

The things I said on voice earlier disgust me to even think about because I feel like being vulnerable with others and sharing my pain with people already feeling pain is wrong.

They may say it’s ok. But it feels inherently bad of me to do, and that’s probably a huge barrier for my mental health.

Too many times, I have been accused of trauma dumping by people who have done the same unto me, and because the thing I want to do least in life is trouble others who don’t deserve it I always keep a lid on things until it explodes into rant spirals like I’m doing rn. And even now I’m censoring.

I can’t talk about how I truly feel because I both don’t have the words to describe it sometimes, and even when I do, my internal voice is so pessimistic and negative when it all comes crashing down that I feel like it’s honestly triggering to share the reality of with others.

My brain is so fucked too bc even talking about it with my friends makes me feel guilty.

Like we’re all transfem lesbians and ik by virtue of our existence in a cishet reactionary world that their lives are hard too.

So it feels like I’m just piling shit on top of their shit, and it’s sad.

Tysm <33

I know there shouldn’t be, I’ve just a lot of insecurities regarding that kind of stuff picked up from people who I wasted my time trying to impress.

I also imagine people who are worse off than I am (despite the likelihood) giving me money and it makes me feel real guilt for asking :(

I just wanna put myself and my sanity first this time, because it’s been an unhealthy habit of mine to put everyone else’s needs before my own throughout my life.

My fam’s in pretending to be someone I am not, my ex-gf in genuinely countless ways, and friends who did not genuinely care for me.

My family is poor (and abusive) I am in 60k of student debt (with no degree) and at one point I had so little money I was starving most of the day bc I didn’t want to pay for food to be honest.

I have no savings, and am trapped in an abusive family situation in a place with no opportunity to grow

So yeah. Apologies if I’m gone a while.

When I feel like this it can last days, weeks, months, so I’m not putting a date on when I’ll be back.

I won’t be gone for months. But I could see a week.

It’ll probably be a day, 2, maybe 3.

But I’m sorry.

I’m currently living off universal credit and have been in and out of couch surfing and different houses for the past 2 years, all while doing the self-discovery journey which made me realise I was trans.

I need help in a time state support is being stripped away from all aspects of my life.

I’m not trying to guilt trip anyone, I just want it to be clear that I haven’t just “opened appeals” and then just fucked off when I actually start getting them.

I wish I’d the mental headspace to just do them now, but I’d not be fully assessing them and I owe it to everyone to do better than that.

I’ve tried this year to get some diagnostic help with these issues, but I’ve been refused any further investigation until I’m diagnosed for autism, which is a 52 month (I am not joking) waiting list.

Frankly, I would not be shocked if I was dead before being diagnosed.

My friends are suggesting I fundraise bc I live in the middle of nowhere and there’s not really any training opportunities for work I would be able to do with the volatility of my mental health, but I think I would feel awful taking other people’s money.

I’ve been depressed today.

Sorry for any pending appeals. I will deal with them when I feel better.

Irl is tbh, not great!

Genuinely not trying to fuck anyone around here, I’ve tried to surround myself with my friends today, but living situation is really ass.

Sorry.

Also, only fucking weirdos call it X

@fra9k7.bsky.social casually misgendering me whilst calling me hateful for a moderation list.

Oh I’m hateful??

Care to explain what this shit is then you cowardly ratfuck? @fra9k7.bsky.social

Trans women built this website. You are the one who should fuck off back to Twitter.

If your ego is that hurt from a list where it’s clear appeals are encouraged, YOU are the problem.

Fucking freak

that number.

Apologies you were added in the first place, I know it's an imperfect method but it's the best I can do with the tools provided and the over-extension is why I've now made it clear in the title that I encourage appeals.

The list is made through Blockenheimer and I add all followers of accounts from the list description (a majority of the followers being conservatives) I have never seen you account or what you post, I just want to cast as wide a net with that list as I can, bc there's 60000 accounts and I can't vet

Removal's been done

Appreciate you trying to clear the air though

It's more intended as a list to shield the marginalised and left-wing people from having to deal with the type of conservatives usually found following these accounts. We moved from Twitter for a reason and they're insufferable to deal with and see and that's even before the harassment.

Removal has been finished!