Somehow I will figure it out.

So, I am on the path of healing and trying to open my heart to someone else. But I don't know how.

I came back for someone, spoke to him many times to resolve, got reported twice for no reason, seen him get married, have a child, and endure his games, and in the end get thrown away like I was nothing all in the space of 7 years. I loved him truly, but he didn't.

So, I have decided to distance myself from him. Hopefully God will give me someone better and I never meet someone like him ever again.

So, I went home cried my eyes out some more. Then I thought enough is enough. I've tried so hard to make it work or even not waste what we had because at some point our feelings were good. I accepted that he can never change.

He now has a 3 month child, and he has told people I once spoke with to ignore me. He never apologised for how he treated me. Then last week on a call in the office he bragged about his solicitor wife. Infront of me. Then proceeded to have lunch with a female colleague. I heard he flirts with her...

This has been on off for 7 years. I chased someone that seemed to have just used me. I tried to talk to him to make things right but he never saw me that way. I've cried more for him than my own father sometimes. Because of the grief he has given me.

I saw him get married. He then came on to me, professing his love for me etc. So I stayed but I did try to move away. I tried to many times speak to him and find closure. But each time I tried he either ignored me or reported me without speaking to me.

He then reported me and made me look like the bad person. He avoided me and made me leave the company. 7 months later I managed to come back in a different team. Still the arrogance was there, and he continued to manipulate and play games.

This is my sad story. I was a temporary worker in his team. He was the same age as me and mentored me. We became close, but then my dad passed away I was very close to him. My whole family who abused us left us, I didn't get any help so I became disturbed...

I will be ok remain neutral and focused. Be my kind self.

I think about this a lot as I'm panicking in my shower.

Out of sight out of mind.

It's better if I sit far away, I can feel awkwardness and if he is playing games indirectly it's to protect myself.

I feel he does this intentionally to hurt me. It's a form of abuse. I will distance myself.

How do I not get angry

They seemed to have moved on so quickly. That's why I think work is work.

Sad how I worked with the same people for 5 years, then as soon as I go on assignment in another team, they more or less forget about me. I'm talking about 1-2 people who are supposed to be my close friends.

I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and move forward.

Should have made Gohan the main character after cell saga.

Dragonball Daima is boring. Even the original Dragonball is better.. sorry, I just feel like the pace is too slow. Animations beautiful though, better than super for sure.

I'm so envious that college students actually get an app, when searching for uni courses. I just had a long winded website and no real advice. I still turned out alright but I feel it's easier now.

It's too cold to go outside now, I wish I could just hibernate.

My first attempt at painting a cookie jar.

My cat snowy sitting like a large fluffy cloud.

It's so interesting to me that Pokemon TCG Pocket's aesthetic seems to be "Wii Interface" instead of something more grounded in traditional Pokemon stuff. It works! It contrasts with Pokemon Go (which I've stumbled into playing a lot of recently) really nicely.

I have this small bite and it still itches and it's been more than a month...

My collection so far #pokemon