I hate it here

Wish I could call off work today for crippling depression, but I can't. If I had the extra PTO saved up, I'd probably just take the day. I have to save what I have for a couple of upcoming scheduled days off. My FMLA also doesn't cover depression, so there's that. Off to work it is, I suppose

Can't explain why I got kicked out of Blue Sky, but here we are. Back in now, obviously

Been going through a diverticulitis flare up and had a out 2 and a half hours of sleep last night collectively. Not the deep, REM kind, but the light kind where you're aware of everything. To state I am exhausted now is a severe understatement

This migraine that started about an hour ago can go kick rocks

I don't even know why I keep this app. I get ignored here, but not on the other social media apps. On the other hand, because no one pays attention to me here, I kinda can say whatever I want without censoring myself. So there's that. Maybe that's why I stay here

My Dad gave me a bag of " special gummies " that help him to sleep. He bought an extra bag ( because he forgot he already had one ) and gave it to me. Like him. I can have trouble shutting my brain up when it's time to sleep. One gummy before bed and I am out like a light. Yeyy?

I agree that I don't think he's with us anymore... But I'm also wondering why no one is coming after the Cheeto for this. It is the most direct violation of our constitution. How has he not been removed from office? It's so sickening

Ever get to the age where you laugh and simultaneously a fart rockets out of you, proving you may no longer have physical control over your own asshole? No? Just me? Ok then.

Rewatching She-Hulk just for the fun of it and I still can't stop shaking my head at the hatred it got from all the Dude-Bro Fanboys. This show was hilarious and completely on brand with how Jen Walters is in the comics

Sat down to a nice early dinner I fixed myself and promptly spilled some of it down the front of my shirt on my first bite.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of my Mom's death. I miss her all the time - But random moments like, seeing a hilarious meme and her being the first person I want to share it with, and then remembering she isn't there to get it. Or not hearing her infectious laugh for 3 years. It's the little things

My intention is still to sell this at some point. Right now I'm using it as my own box on my bedside table to at least hold my glasses in their case at night, safe from my cat's night time shenanigans. See? Just one example of use beyond display! 😂

Was sad to have to jump off the Discord server so abruptly during @leveluplight.bsky.social 's live. Had to take a phone call

I literally just dove into my bathroom, cartoon like, to use the bathroom because after getting off the phone with a client ( while having to go the entire time ) and wrapping the call up, my body DID NOT want to wait! Good thing I'm working from home and the bathroom is across the hall!

This stupid IBS/Diverticulitis flare up can kick rocks. Ugh. Causing me so much pain from the cramps that makes you feel like you're being stabbed repeatedly and the bloating doesn't help either. Sucks

And look at that, I am not a bot!

I am so sick today and I want to be in bed. Yet it's only 6pm and I am afraid to take my dog out this early because this means we'll be up at 3am tomorrow and that's way too early. I may be overthinking this and should just go to bed

Rewatching " The Old Guard " before the sequel comes out this Summer on Netflix. Almost forgot how good this movie really is

I am 0% surprised but so deeply furious at every single person who got on the stage at the Oscars for Emilia Perez

You're telling me you won for that piece of shit and couldn't even give the most perfunctory "hey, trans people are under attack" nod in your speech? Fucking cowards. Absolute slugs.

Not too long after my first post, I forced myself out of bed, showered, and did the things I wanted to get done today. Do I feel accomplished? Somewhat. I just want to snuggle my dog and cat and relax. I'm mentally and physically exhausted

Bad brain today. I need to get out of bed. I need to shower and get a couple of things done today. I am still in bed with no energy or will to get out of it. I live with depression. Just a part of me, I suppose. But it's getting bad

Living in Iowa as a transman, watching, literally, in real time as the state legislators discuss stripping our rights from us ( people like me ) and how quickly they can do it. I'm appalled, angry, heartbroken, etc.

Off to Spark deliver today for a few hours. Do I need the extra money? Not this time around. I just want to get out of the house for a few hours and I'd like to add to my savings fund for moving to a new place. It's been my goal for a while, and it may take another year, but I am serious about it!

Also, before any naysayers decide to say something rude, I fully plan to change my name legally. Sadly, I've never had the funds that I could allocate to it because they had to go elsewhere. However, we have recently bonused at work, and my gift to myself is a legal name change.

This starts February 24th. I had scheduled myself to dash this weekend. So, I have decided I will no longer drive for DoorDash. Instead, I will use the spark delivery app while it lets me use my preferred name, and make extra money that way. If that changes, I won't do that either.

Just got an email from DoorDash which states that it will no longer allow drivers to use their preferred names. We must use our legal names and that this is what will pop up when delivering. Obviously, I look different than my legal name. So, yet another company bending the knee to the orange regime

I just, straight up, do not want to be at work today. Not because we are in office this week, or that I have anything in particular to do. I just don't want to be here, or have it in me today. Time for me to put on my best fake member support voice and pretend I care, I suppose!

When you rip a fart in the bathroom ( at least I'm in the appropriate place ) and it's so stanky you nearly smoke yourself out. Damn! What the hell is stored up inside of me to cause that rankness? I'd apologize for the TMI, but since I don't get a lot of engagement here, I kinda just say whatever

Ope ... Callie's got a point. Also, I don't care that she's batshit crazy, I love Lottie #yellowjackets