Hello yes I am back on here again I suppose due to current Birdsite nonsense and also I made another substack. Figured at this point it makes sense to put my meditation journal somewhere more stable.
https://seeingin.substack.com/

You ever snacking on baby carrots and most of them taste normal but then one of them is just like ???bitter/sour??? What's up with that?

Late brunch

as long as it's not too crowded one of my favourite places to meditate is on the bus. there's something about feeling the rumble of the wheels on the street and the sound of the engine and other vehicles that's just ideal. I close my eyes and I'm in the zone in no time.

when i am trying to think of what to poast i only think about what posts are and what poasting is like. but i don't want to post about that. but here i am. one more example of a problem you can't solve by attempting to "solve" the "problem".

what's worse about it? i don't log in enough to keep track

lol this already feels like a lot of posting for one day

Make your own judgements but personally, I don't think it's wise to use passing mental phenomena largely outside your control as a basis for worthiness.

Often people feel guilty about a thing because they intuit that feeling guilty is the toll they have to pay to be a good person while still doing the thing.

"What does this being need right now to realize itself?"

Furthermore, seeing the conversation as it is, in this way, allows you to interpret individual contributions as expressions of that egregore, and to contribute to it in the most productive way.

HEY. Conversations are egregores. Get a bunch of people in a room talking to eachother, and they are actually engaging moreso with their co-constructed mental concept of the discussion than they are with eachother.

if a train is passing, it is occupying a different point in space at each measured time. if time is passing, it is occupying a different point in ? at each measured ??

It's draftsposting Sunday but I don't have drafts (does this site have drafts yet?? I don't have any on the birdsite either) so I'm going to reskeet some old tweets here instead

it is far easier to work for money and believe that will magically become happiness than it is to take a leap and start living it

new face who dis

1 Meditate so I can appreciate the present moment again
2 Major success, am now suddenly much more productive as well??
3 Leverage productivity to Accomplish Things
4 Always looking forward to the next thing to accomplish, not appreciating present moment anymore

wait

Man object-level thoughts are really so much more vulnerable than meta-level thoughts. No wonder I'm constantly trying to take things meta holy cow

dante's inferno but it's all hellsites

I have a toaster oven that has a teeny tiny little grill on top and also an even teenier coffeemaker on the side

Like this seems like it would be a LOT of work to do if it weren't so automatic

It's wild noticing it because like, damn, my attention is apparently WAY better when I'm falling asleep then at like, any other time lol. No wonder people with attention problems have trouble sleeping.

K so when you fall asleep there's two points where your brain really inclines into the state: 1. brain starts telling a story (you'll notice rapid, often nonsensical thoughts). 2. brain makes an agreement with itself to pay close attention to and believe the story, to adhere to it.

The thing about being in a public leadership position is that part of your job is to be the person people get mad at. That's why people psychically immune to criticism keep ending up in those jobs.

Meditation retreat!!

I feel like it's a lot

Thank you!!

I was able to casually drop the word "devops" in a conversation with a stranger today, thank u tech friends

And yeah! I'd like to be able to read the suttas, and ideally commentaries and Abhidhamma stuff too. Would like to really get into the nuts and bolts of what these folks were talking about.

Studying on my own, but using a free "course" here: https://buddhistuniversity.net/courses/pali-primer . There's recorded lectures by Bikkhu Bodhi but I've got some background in languages so I'm mostly only using the associated De Silva text plus Anki flashcards.