I never wanted a future to start with and I really wish I could trade w someone that did it want a future and can't have it!!! I wish trades like this could exists lmao

This sounds extremely privileged and evil and tone deaf or whatever but the best news ever I could get it's that I'm dying in a year or something. I could actually enjoy the time left alive and without any pressure put on me and my future because said future does not exist

Can SOMETHING just kill me already or leave me hospitalized I need a break from having to exist

I keep going from the most extreme of hating myself from the most extreme of hating my parents like a ball being thrown at full force right and back

Olay whatever you say wife says something it's true 🫡🫡I listen

Dark haired brunette ppl are so good at victimizing themselves they wouldn't last a single day being actually ugly and off putting I'm crine

I swear to good people whose biggest insecurity it's eye color/hair color pmo to no end holy privilege

Why do you have to piss yourself when you die bruh that's humiliating as fuck man like actually

No matte how much I improve and try the opposite superficially I feel like deep down my hate towards myself just grows deeper and deeper with the years past and it just becomes unbearable. Shallowing any feeling I have towards anyone or even anything. Being only left with envy and jealously

My ex online bf (that was more of a person hyperfix than anything else probably) when breaking up w me told me that I couldn't love someone if I didn't love myself first. I think about it so often because it's true

I wouldn't have even believed you if in the past you told me someone dumped her boyfriend for me. And yet here I am. And I feel nothing. And I logically feel like I should be guilty for not feeling anything at all but I don't feel that either

Someone loves me romantically and someone loves how I look and how I am irl and yet I don't care. And I feel so strange because maybe at some point that's all what I needed. It could have changed everything. Now it feels like it came too late and I'm beyond caring about that

I need to die so bad

Just woke up 10 minutes ago and im already feeling like the most useless nuisance ever that should disappear

I think what I hate the most about myself is how much I don't want to be helped. I really really wish I wanted help and improvement but I really deep down don't. The mere thought of it makes me so uncomfortable

I have been procrastinating dying for two months now bro why can't I just suddenly die

Who am I

It makes me feel so insanely guilty. I'm in such a privileged position bodily and economically and for what. I don't even wish to be worse just to feel valid to myself I just want to trade and give someone the opportunities I have and don't take

I hate how there are people out there people with dreams and ambitions dying or affected by fatal illnesses while I don't wanna do anything and yet my life remains considerably healthy and uneventful. I wish I could trade my life with someone that actually deserves it

There are two forces inside of me that is my hate for people vs my hate towards myself and both are too strong to bare

Ppl using x fills me w so much rage ohmygod you people don't care about ANYTHING I hope I could jst delete ppls accounts with a click

Looking back at this now that we are friends again and talking every day omg never back down never what

twiter next update will make everyone who uses it have diarrhea and people will still be like "uuuhhh but my funny timeline 🥺"

Kotone shiomi persona 3

Bleh

I'm such a bad friend oh my god bruh

They will never understand what it is to be actually ugly and weird looking and i hate it I hate it so much and he's I'm jealous very very jealous and it eats me alive

Pretty girls that always whine about pretty oppression and how being pretty is worse than being ugly or whatever never EVER actually try to be ugly and even enhance their beauty with makeup and stuff how curious

Eueueueueueee I love joker sm it hurts

Uyhhhhhhhhhhh

Reviving this alt and making it go back to its origins. Posting wips