"I'm sorry I made it so hard for you"

Yes I'm sure you are.

#wavewalker

Thinking of you today.

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Still waiting. Read the first week of email exchanges in 2014. Looked at the many photos that were sent. Rembered the feelings. Tried to convince myself I wasn't being used.

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Wavewalker, The Betrayal.

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"Who shall we get to play you in the movie?"

The love bombing stage.
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"After a few days she said "I love you". Such an easy thing to say, but the effect on me was profound. I asked her to say it again just to hear it. I was flooded with a huge wave of relief, of coming home, finally. What I don't know was that this was the love bombing stage. "

#wavewalker #BPD

Wondering about what sort of person would think it's ok to take the provident fund promised to workers of a certain Opera company and brush it of as "there are always winners and losers".

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"I told him I would eventually want my freedom."

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Missing you today, wherever you are.
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Thinking about the fist kiss in Oxford and how overwhelmed and thrilled I was. It is second only to Paris 2014, which remains the highlight of my life.

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"A part coming to terms with my past has meant reconnecting with ........Now we are back in touch I doubt we will ever lose contact again, we have been through too much together."
"I started trying to find a reason for the extremes I was subject to, and after a time I found a clue."
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" "Who should play you in our movie?"

I was so totally used and manipulated. "

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"There are always winners and losers"

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"The return of Us was such a relief, we fell back into our easy rapport and it was heavenly. I missed the companionship and loved those moments. Every now and then however something wasn't right. "The guy in North London.." was one of those moments. I felt awful and couldn't forget it"

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"I'm sorry I made it so hard for you"
Paris, July 2014

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"She called it "our book" because at its heart it was a love story, a story so speciaI I came to believe that the universe brought us back together before it was too late. My entire life was influenced by our special bond."
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"In the back of my mind I realised that something was wrong when it was so right. After 3 decades we took up Us right where we left off. We knew a huge mistake had been made but who blocks contact with their other half, a person that was so essentially "home", their one true love?
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" I have to find out if what I remember is the same as what he remembers and I need to find out if he is all right. I don't even know if he is alive although I somehow think I would know if he was dead. I don't know why but I am sure he is out there somewhere."

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"I'm sorry I made it so hard for you"

"I knew I was hurting you but I couldn't stop"

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"When we get to the barrier at departures, He puts his arms around me, rests
his forehead against mine and we both begin to cry. “Thank you for making me
so happy,” he says.
I look at him, tears running down my face, impossible to stop, and burst into
laughter.

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"I woke up once again, after a dream where my mind tried to work out the past...we were holding hands walking though the art gallery in Madrid, with her explaining the paintings. No one to catch us there, just our bubble of love again after 30 years. So happy to be home."
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"Those trips to London, were joyous, I loved the "welcome home" texts when I got off the plane. The time we spent together was precious, it left a pit in my stomach; the pain of what was lost for 3 decades and the feeling of coming home..."

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"I also have a missing person in my life, someone who has been missing for far longer than I ever knew him. He is an essential part of my past as well so I have to find him too. So I have also been on a quest to find ....."

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"when we are together, talking in our room, standing beside each other on the tube or sitting in the sun on our favourite step in Covent Garden, I feel the way I did sitting on a beach gazing out at Wavewalker"

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"It hit me out of the blue. After decades of being stonewalled it was her that contacted me. All the times I almost did but didn't, and here she was. I could come home, finally.
What I didn't know was how vulnerable I was and how I was going to be used"
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"A part coming to terms with my past has meant reconnecting with ___, the
crew member from the boat who was my first love. Writing this book has brought us back together. Now we are back in touch I doubt we will ever lose contact again, we have been through too much together."

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