It’s time to let go of what's already gone and focus on what's ahead. God, I'm asking for your strength to help me move on and let go of the things I can't hold onto anymore. I'm ready to build the life I've been longing for, one that I deserve.

I think I've reached the point where I can finally say this, I deserve better. After everything I've been through, I owe it to myself to step out of this and start moving forward. It's not going to be easy, but I know it's what I need to do.

Even I feel so fucked up at this hour, all I expect is a notification from him

Happy 6th failed mensiversary.

To love you is to touch a piece of heaven, to experience a happiness that surpasses anything else. And though I fear the passage of time and the changes it may bring, I know that your worth and my love for you will never fade.

If I could capture everything you mean to me, I would weave it into a tapestry, a grand display of all the colors and shades of my love for you. Youre the rarest gem, beyond any treasure, whose purity ignites my soul and leaves me in awe.

To me, no other joy compares to the simple act of loving you and cherishing every moment we share, however brief or far between.

You're the moon that lights my path when all else feels uncertain, a constant guide who keeps my fears at bay. Your beauty is more than just physical; it shines in every kind act, in the bravery you show, and in the gentle grace that feels almost divine.

Your voice soothes me like a cherished song, and your laughter banishes my worries, bringing a peace that nothing else can.

You're the light that breaks through my darkness, the warmth that fills my coldest moments. Even when you're far away, your presence lingers in my heart, lifting me up and reminding me that you're the source of my greatest joy, at that time.

In "Ode to Thee, My Beloved" I pour out the depth of my feelings for him, expressing how he mean more to me than words can capture.

Im afraid that all my devotion and hope will amount to nothing. Still, I keep waiting, unable to break free from this love that’s both my anchor and my torment.

The waiting is agonizing, and I feel foolish for holding on, but I can't let go. Loving you is all I know, even if it means enduring this silent suffering. I tell myself that living well is the way to show you how much I still care, but I'm falling apart inside.

I can't shake off the questions that haunt me, the regrets that gnaw at my heart, even as I struggle to keep my feelings hidden behind a mask of calmness.

I try to carry on, pretending that I'm fine, that your absence doesn't weigh me down. But deep inside, I'm overwhelmed by uncertainty, fearing that you've already found someone else, or that your love for me has simply faded away.

We vowed to endure every trial together, to stand firm through thick and thin, but now I'm left wondering if those words meant anything at all. You're out of reach, while I'm still here, desperately clinging to the hope that you might come back, even as the days pass and the silence grows.

In "Amidst Fading Promises," I find myself trapped in the pain of loving someone who has drifted far away, despite the promises we once made to always be there for each other.

I long to hear your voice, your laugh, your sigh, but all that's left are echoes in the sky. I cannot reach you, though I try in vain, the distance grows, as does the pain.

My soul is steeped in rueful, bitter pain, for not perceiving love's unspoken strain. Had I but known, I'd ne’er have let thee go, and bathed in love's eternal, gentle glow.

But time hath torn thee from my side so dear, no longer can I whisper in thine ear. No longer can I stand beside thee near, nor wipe away thy softly fallen tear.

Thy visage lingers, shadowed in my mind, with every glance, thy memory I find. O, would that I could hear thy voice once more, To know thy thoughts, as in the days of yore.

Upon the winds of night doth sorrow ride, for once thou wert my star, my heart's true guide. In thine embrace through tempests I did stand, yet now I walk alone in barren land.

You fell first, with gentle grace, I fell harder, lost in your trace. Now all that's left is this aching heart, wishing we had never been apart.

Regret seeps in, a bitter taste, for not seeing your love in haste. If only I'd known, I'd have held you tight, spent every moment in your light.

I can no longer stand by your side, our paths diverged, as oceans wide. I wasn't there to catch your fall, now I'm the one who's lost it all.

Your shadow lingers, haunts my mind, every new love, your face I find. How I wish I could know you still, but time has taken you, against my will.

In the quiet of night, memories stir, of times when you were near, when love was sure. You stood beside me through thick and thin, now all that's left is what might have been.

It's beyond hurt