I'm assuming this is about what we would do if we suddenly had money. The original post is gone. But I would be in the same bucket. Some kind of community enrichment project for my local larp community.
Yeah we had tarps with holes punched through them reinforced with duct tape attached via clips to the rope grid. These days we also utilize clamps to attach things to beams and other structures. Huge layout flexibility. We've also begun using guitar straps to carry tools and tape around
"isildur cast it into the fire, you fuck"
I think I'm tougher as a result but also I'm losing my fucking mind.
I need everything to chill for a few months.
It's weird to think that the previous low point was the convergence of three expensive canine health catastrophes, a very lonely winter and a party nobody showed up to and it's been completely blown away in the second half.
I guess I'm pretty healthy, physically, and I'm in decent shape now so that's something. And my dog didn't lose her eye in spite of a close call or two this spring.
Basically every aspect of my life is circling the drain. I've never had so many things going wrong simultaneously. The only happy corner I have had to hide in is LARP, but the fall season is over which is forcing me to deal with the rest of it.
That's because the first phase is about providing value to users and the second is about providing value to shareholders. Unfortunately even an app that once provided great value can become worthless this way but it doesn't mean social media is worthless. Just that a given app no longer has value.
I think social media is great when it shows me things i opted into seeing by liking or following them or by a friend sharing them (bsky) rather than an endless stream of ads and clickbait (Facebook). Social media is great in the "accumulation of users" phase and terrible in the "monetization" phase
We've done a really shit job safeguarding the national institutions that made this a worthwhile place to live that's for sure. Lots of hard work to do to get it back on track.
What I really want is for only people who give a shit whether I live or die to be in control of the healthcare but we are a long way from the national government looking anything like that.
I hate private insurance as a concept but I also hate that putting healthcare exclusively in the hands of the government gives power over every person's healthcare needs and decisions to a potentially hostile national government. Not a lot of good choices. Greed kills us one way or another.
Isn't that like the opposite? Pro landlord is such a moderate take
Those of my followers with impeccable senses of humor will see that what I've done here is that for comedic effect I have pretended my struggle results from the chosen metaphor rather than that the metaphor was chosen to better illustrate my anxieties within the context
I am no longer immensely lonely but now I find myself juggling a lot of plates in pursuit of long term happiness and it's very stressful because I am very clumsy. If only I'd chosen a metaphor more suitable for such an uncoordinated person!
Belonging and community does that.
We have this whole thing about "no cookie for imperfect allies" but the cookie is literally how we recruit, not the bullying and extreme moralization. The moral high ground isn't going to get people to get out and vote when it's rainy and they're sick and strange new worlds is on the telly.
An imperfect ally who votes correctly on 70% of the issues is still a win and all you get from screaming at them about the other 30% is less engagement and participation. Which means fewer opportunities to change their mind, less voting, etc.
It's really frustrating because what happens is you get locked into this place where you can't win. It's impossible to ever have perfect consensus and uniformity. Someone is always going to think one of your stances is evil, and they are going to treat you like that. And it harms participation.
With the understanding that this guy is controversial these days he was right about this one: both forms of extremism are basically bullies looking for valid targets to pick on as if screaming at someone who disagrees with you only slightly will save the world
That's supposed to be a reveal later on not right out the gate and it screws up the pacing. It was fine it just was only almost halo
I think they screwed up by starting too early, killing off characters before they got to do their big lines, and making the humans the bad guys right out the gate rather than focusing on the covenant and their reckless devotion. Like clearly the humans are doing bad things all along but still
It helps to know what's happening. I'm less anxious knowing why I'm having this weird experience.
I've learned a lot of skills that let me cope with either for a few weeks before everything catches up with me
On the meds it's late nights and hyperfixation. Off the meds it's scatterbrained clumsy behavior, chasing dopamine and struggling to follow through
The problem is I'm juggling now. On or off the meds for too long creates an entirely new set of problems and habits that need to be managed. Ugh it's exhausting
I don't feel this way when I don't take the meds and i know this because i haven't taken them for weeks and I felt pretty fantastic, in terms of coping with isolation. There's a dropoff at night but i just go to sleep, you know?
My ADHD meds are contributing to my loneliness and here's how: even if I take them early in the morning, I end up staying up very late. At this time of night, nobody else is up and when the activity online dies off I start feeling isolated and I have to sit with it for hours instead of sleeping
I'm telling you if i ever find a way to get everything i need from the people around me in my physical community the Internet is never going to see me again, it's such a mess to be online these days
I really need to unplug from social media forever what a train wreck