of course you’re not actually working on yourself and instead hitting up the exact people you should be staying away from. lmfao honestly thank god, just makes it that much easier for me to move on knowing you won’t ever change your unhealthy patterns

honestly? what a coward

officially all moved back into my childhood bedroom. i could vomit

you abandoned me at my lowest and that’s the thing i don’t think i can ever forgive

“it couldn’t be fixed” “there was nothing we could’ve done” and how do you know that if you didn’t even try? if you kept it all to yourself? if you didn’t even let me know you already came to that conclusion after 5-6 years?

i don’t think you ever truly wanted us to work out. you wanted ease

what’s the best platform to stream on? twitch? youtube? i’m new to this but i think i’d be fun live lol

i’ve now peeped her viewing my story in the middle of the night on more than one occasion. alexa play silver springs by fleetwood mac

it’s actually wild how many signs i missed. tiny changes in everyday behavior. taking the phone everywhere for their “games,” hardly interacting with me over the phone anymore, “i love you” being said out of habit and not truth. it’s gonna be a while before i trust anyone else like that again fr

why did my first ever ex from like 9th grade view my storyyyy lmao i think he’s like married w a baby omg

i don’t think i could ever watch shameless because every clip i’ve seen of fiona just gives me this visceral reaction that makes me feel like i’m suddenly reliving my childhood

half of me hates this and feels confused but the other half is like…well at least i know they won’t be able to totally forget about me, everything she does/they do together is gonna remind them of me. and that does bring me some twisted comfort

yeah sure you’re not a homewrecker, you just love entertaining taken people in your messages/comments 🙄 like at least make sure you don’t leave evidence of your messiness…got whole ass married men in your replies and you like every comment they leave you. just gross

love being cheated on & left for a whiter knock-off version of me. not even just looks, personality too. shit is lowkey giving me an identity crisis like what do you mean that’s really my replacement

how much of a cruel year can you call my fault?

i hate going to sleep these days. i hate having nightmares every night

i’m writing music again that’s how i know i’m fucked up lol but maybe it’ll help

what about me is so hard to love that everyone leaves

you’re gonna make me hate you by the time you’re done with me aren’t you. the carelessness and callousness just keeps getting worse and worse and worse

the way they’ve been listening to upbeat/pop music while i’ve been listening music that makes me want to die. lmfao i’m such an idiot, they’re so much happier without me

i grew up in an abusive home. my whole life i would pray and pray and pray and pray for it to stop and never heard back, but i was still expected to “honor they mother and father” etc. i stopped believing in high school.

i literally cannot stop going through old texts/messages/photos/memories. being impaled would probably hurt less than this

i want to go to literally any kind of nerd con so, so bad

just started looking into engagement rings the last couple months too. they changed their mind so abruptly

DROP THAT MEME AGAIN BABYY

so many things i didn’t get to do because you weren’t interested. but i always tried your hobbies and whatever else you were interested in

and they don’t care and they haven’t and they won’t and they’ll forget about me like everyone does after leaving me

i still can’t believe any of this is real like is this all really happening? or rather, not happening…? i can’t even begin to process the loss of that future after building it for the past six years

it feels so wrong not saying “i love you” like i have to physically stop myself from saying it

i just have this overwhelming feeling of loss and like i’ve wasted so much time

reading back through some oooold texts between my last ex and i and wow maybe this current heartbreak is just my karma lmao like he was just as desperate back then as i am now