also i mean...what an opening chapter to be like

"dont worry sis, ill tolerate being straight so you can be a happy lesbian."

what an instant sell

hrmmmmm......MARRIAGETOXIN.
its not bad.
idk if its just me not reading more manga that are written by good writers, but it really hits for me when its a story about relationships thats like actually about creating import on the quality versus the fanservice.
that or im just the target audience lol

platypus mascot being drawn by platypus mascot, who's feeling more somber and stressed as she's drawing the same platypus mascot she always has from the same pov she always has

one of the worst realities as an artist is your accruing need for money for your ever terrible life, in relation to not having clear proof in whether your skill is improving or not despite the years you've poured in

have i been this bad for years? should i have made ppl give me money for this?

idk maybe im just pissed cuz of the pain but..i was just getting real skeptical that it was startin to be moneygrubbing
cuz they kept talkin about a lot of irrelevant shit, like me using my cpap and "ballparking what i want to spend"
and i just....idk it was so stressful which didnt help either

ive never been so pissed leaving the dentist

i know my dental hygiene hasnt always been spectacular but bich stuck two knuckles in my mouth and said "see you cant even keep your mouth open this wide, youre clenched, give us 640$"

maam, tension headaches tend to make it hard to suck cock shockingly

platypus mascot has fallen into a puddle, but is looking up and smiling with a thumbs up, saying, "I'm devastated!"

I am!

platypus mascot cracking her knuckles and saying, "..alright. lets see if i remember how to do this."

alrighty..just gonna warm up some

my goal rn is that i want to be done with my commissions by June
this summer i just wanna kick back and relax, attend Furality, and take a second to re-assess my life and career with art and what i wanna do next

i feel so raw..
every time i try to do anything, it feels like when your pen's ink wont flow, and youre scrawling as hard and as depserately as you can at the paper, leaving those deep indentations with no results otherwise
it just doesnt come out the way it used to, i guess
my will to live

remember when they made Animal of the Muppets say he liked Malenia from Elden Ring

Maka from Soul Eater, standing on her scythe with a crazed smile whilst placing her hand above her eyes to look into the distance

its been so long since i watched soul eater....aaaaa look at her....the bluepriiinntttt ;3; <3

deleted all my reaction posts to summarize my feelings on Kill Blue

...ehhh.....6/10

i dont hate that the author was having fun, but that middle part onwards really started to stumble a lot, and also it seemed like the kind of story where the funny idea just didnt have a lot of gas or planning

ooh today is a fucking good day
the headaches arent gone but
i tried out Grim Dawn, and that was fun
I tried out Divinity Original Sin 2, and that was fun
I got back to trying FF15 and that was fun
and the writer of Kuroko no Basuke has a new manga and ITS fun
the worlds getting brighter my dawg

platypus mascot laying in bed with a canine lady snuggled up on her chest, raining outside of a window theyre in bed next to, both of them sleeping peacefully

think its time to start blowing the dust off the drawing hands..my tension headaches/shoulders havent healed in the least but there's not much i can do about them unless i go get a 100buck deep tissue massage

ill take it slow, just relax and remember how to draw the best i can, but i gotta work

its a crying shame cuz i think for what it is, it has a lot of cool ideas and there's a lot of fun to be had in it and creativity to builds and playstyles for a soulslike
it just..trips at the finish, a bit too hard and too much

and yes, if youre asking if the bug happens every time
i played through this game twice to the same point and it happened both times
id almost say its intentional but there's literally an item for rebirthing in the area before the last boss
why give you that if youre gonna...and there's my migraine-

and whats that? youre asking why dont you just change stats before the last boss?

the person who you need to talk to to re-stat....activates the state in which you go to the last boss, the SECOND you talk to them whatsoever

and that state starts when you beat the penultimate boss so ohhhh well

cuz yeah, in this game the item that you use to farm souls is stat-locked, wont work for you if your hips arent THIS big
and its a double whammy cuz there are two souls farming items that you need to make sure your waist can can fit

lol also it might not be helping my migraines that i finally sat down and decided to play and finish Enotria: The Last Song recently
..only to find out that the rebirth option is broken when you reach the last boss
no re-statting, which is necessary to wear proper grinding clothes

tbh this was what i was raising the money for before, to go the convention cuz fuck me ive been socially holding my breath
i need to be among my peers like at least once, please god
my body is literally in pain over this shit

i gotta figure that out once the queue is done

just saw my doctor about it annnnddd...it was a tension headache
and also im holding a lot of serious tension in my back and shoulders

diagnosis is im fucking stressed out

..im only half joking when i say someone should sponsor a vacation for me, im medically in need of one

platypus mascot snapping a finger as if she's having a small problem, entirely ignoring the throbbing swollen growth in the back of her head as if its not the main thing going wrong in her life

this is basically how ive been for a while now
im gonna see a doctor to see what i can do about these headaches but god
dealing with it this whole time has been ass

my life has been in a unique situation lately
which is to say its been absolute ass in a way where i feel like breathing is a sin and a waste considering how i havent used that breathe to do anything at all productive properly for like months now

A digital drawing of Az, a white anthropomorphic pegasus-fellow with sky-blue hair, looking excitedly at his own outfit while saying, "Don't even gotta change to be beach-ready! let's get some damn SAND in these joints!!" This is due to the fact that Az is an inorganic, mechanical entity that resembles a toy horse. He's got a black sleeveless top on, and, ironically enough, shirtless blue sleeves that resemble hooves, and a matching shawl. The man's got hips, with one mechanical hip joint exposed. There's also another little drawing in the top left of Az making a kind of cheeky, determined expression. I don't really know how to describe it otherwise.

Same image as before, but zoomed out, better showing off the green-tinted beach background, and an extra full-body of Az-- jesus christ those are some thighs. Alright uh, there's another shot of him standing on the beach. He's got heels on, and is standing at an angle that shows off his thighs more. I don't really know what the person who designed this character was thinking. Az is holding a beach umbrella, though he kind of dwarfs it.

Az, in more of a 4-legged "pony" form, confronts a bank robber, while declaring, "I am a 50- or 60-year old air force veteran-turned-immortal-inhuman-entity due to bizarre circumstances in my line of work, and I do not need this. I will yell loudly if you do not stop"

you can lead a horse to water but only It can Serve

i nearly actually shat myself over remembering a nirvanna the band the show bit just now and i think thats a good place to be in life..the runs suck tho, ugh

also god i watched the nirvanna the band the show the movie this past Monday and god
im emotionally in pieces, genuinely
OBAMNA

good news: i dont think im sick
or if i was sick, it wasnt anything too serious

bad news: i dont know where my headaches are coming from and there are several culprits, which are either
a. my neck's fked
b. allergies
c. reaction to my medication

and idk how to differentiate

omgyes....and the players have to eat spaghetti to withstand him.....

who thinks straight when they got a log up they ass
youre fiiinneeeeee <3

oh i hadnt said anything here did i

im fuckin sick, bro

im nauseous, ive got pounding headaches, sore throat, the works, and it is the fucking pits

there's in fact more going on badly in my life besides that but god, the sickness is going to compound everything real badly..

I Work Very Hard, And I Would Like To Try Cake By A Horse Hello. I am a horse. I work very hard at my job of being a horse. When humans say move the heavy thing, I move the heavy thing. When humans sit on top of me and pull on my head, I carry them where they want to go. The main food the humans give me is hay and oats. But I am thinking it would be nice to have a different food. I am thinking I would like to try cake. Yes, yes. Cake. I know all about it. When humans eat cake, it is in glad times. It is the food for a celebration, such as when a woman becomes 47. I have seen cake on the Fourth of July. When humans have a cake, they stand around it and clap hands and smile and say happy birthday at each other. Sometimes there are beautiful markings on a cake, such as balloons or a pink shape. Sometimes the top of a cake is on fire and a boy must blow on the fire with mouth wind. This is the scariest cake. I do not want this kind. But I will eat any other cake. Any cake that is not the fire cake that tries to kill the boy. Please understand: I do not get money for doing work. I do not get to go inside the house. All I am either doing my horse job or standing in my pen or eating food off the floor. I always do these things. But I have never once gotten cake and I would like it very much. I have noticed that human children get to eat cake. But I am bigger than the children. I am more helpful to the farm. Children do not move the heavy things like me or let anyone ride on them. And yet they get cake. Maybe the humans will realize this. Maybe they will say, "You know who deserves cake? That horse. That horse whose back we are always on." Every day I dream about what it will be like if I get to eat cake. Here is what will happen. First, I will walk to the cake and putt my nose at it like hrrfff to make and stomping my hooves to make sure it is not a snake. Then I will trot in a circle to show that I am a horse and I am large. After that, I will nuzzle the cake to …

The horse op-ed is an instant classic. I can't tell you how much joy this piece gives me.

It should be taught in every introductory writing class in no small part because the horse arguments are so compelling. "I have noticed that human children get to eat cake. But I am bigger than the children."