(🧵/end)Anyway, I'm gonna go to sleep & maybe see about getting my shit together tomorrow, it can't be that scary, right? 🫪🤣

(🧵4/5) But, in the words of Paris Paloma; "The world's the world and I'm a person in a tiny body".

I don't want to let this fear stop me anymore, but I'm dealing with so much & I feel so small.

So a late night rambling post about my woes is apparently the answer? 😅

(🧵3/5)I already knew people could lie to me/about me but now they could do it from such an anonymous, imposing place & I couldn't even read their body language to protect myself.

I want to be here, meet people, find folx who understand me & don't assume I'm talking in riddles or "overreacting"

(🧵2/5) Before him I was bullied (abused because that's what it was) by 100% of the peers I met. I never knew why. I felt alone most of the time & never learned how to authentically cope with social situations. I masked & I masked hard, so when the online world opened up it felt even more terrifying.

(🧵1/5)

🚨late night ramble incoming🚨

I really want to be the kind of person who can be comfortable in online social spaces but I truly am not 😅

I grew up as an undiagnosed auDHDer, so I didn't have a great start to my social life, to put it mildly. I had one friend until I was 18 & went to uni.

I love my Sunday morning’s playing D&D with my buds, this morning Trillie (my moon circle Druid) has obtained a haunted doll, jar of bees and serious burns! Hurray! 😂💜

#dnd5e #dndsky #ttrpgsky

Full colour digital painting made with Procreate. A single full page landscape picture depicts a fantastical world floating in a cosmos of blues and purples, littered with stars. The central focus is this world, it is not spherical but more like an enormous island. A vast ocean supports several landmasses with clouds overhead, while enormous stalagmites line the ocean ‘floor’, seeming to hang from where the ocean stops. Four celestial bodies orbit the ‘island’ like moons, in close proximity to what appears to be an atmospheric ‘bubble’ encasing the ‘island and its environment. A small green skinned, fuzzy haired chibi style goblin floats beside the world, smiling they are clearly presenting the world. Several speech bubbles encircle the scene, with Gobby’s words: This is Alagrestia! A high fantasy, high sci-fi, TTRPG/Lit setting. Created by a Jewish, disabled, queer enby. It’s got all the good stuff… Queernormativity. Neurodiversity. Accessibility. Diverse peoples respectfully inspired by real world cultures. Sentient Mountains. Tree Dwelling, lumberjack Orcs. Mercenary Burlesque Troupes. Magically tricked out mobility tools. Plane hopping travel journalists. And so much more! If that sounds like your kind of vibe, stick around! I’ve got loads more to share. There is also another much smaller speech bubble, coming from the island, Alagrestia itself, which just reads: Yo.

New pinned post 😊

#queersky #audhdsky #autismsky #neurodivergentcreator #ttrpgcommunity #ttrpgsky #ttrpgsetting #ttrpgsystem #disabledcreator #sff #writesky #writingcommunity #amwriting #worldbuilding #promosky

🧵3/3 I simply don't have the energy or capacity to do what so many others seem to be able to do; post regularly. So if you're still following me, thank you so much. I promise I'm trying my best to get my shit together. It's hard out here a little goblin but I'm not giving up 💜

🧵2/3 I won't lie, this is incredibly demoralizing and just one more hit I don't have the capacity to take.

It took a lot for me to set it up, it takes even more to post anywhere, yes including a private server.

I'm still here though, still chugging along and still working.

🧵1/3 After several messages and attempts to get back into it, it seems like I can no longer access my discord account. I've made another one but I'm really worried I've lost the gobbo grotto server entirely.

If it's still there I'm about to do a lot of copy-pasting 🤣

so funny when people get all upset about genres that other people DARE to enjoy. these big think pieces about ROMANTASY or COZY HORROR or DARK ACADEMIA and how dang upset they make the writer of the article. bud who cares what other people like youll be fine. let people read their books oh my god

A4 portrait format, digital art made with Procreate A dark blue, black and purple vista of deep space, with faint celestial purpleblue clouds drifting throughout. Pink, blue and purple stars litter the scene, giving depth. In the foreground a sweeping helix of golden light streaks across the cosmos, strands of light peel off, connecting to glowing text, floating over it all. The helix stretches off into the distance behind, hinting at an infinite nature. The text reads: "I'd like to throw you in at the deep end..." "... Don't worry, it'll be fun." "But you'll have to trust me."

A4 portrait format digital artwork made in procreate. The same cosmic vista as page 1, with a closer view of the golden helix, clouds and stars. The glowing text hovering above it reads: "You're doing great, just keep reading." "Alright, are you ready?..."

A4 portrait format digital artwork made with Procreate. The background is a deep blue and purple starry sky, littered with faintly glowing stars and distant galaxies. In the foreground are several larger golden glowing stars, with one word glowing a similar hue in the centre. Text reads: "Existence..."

Alright I've been really struggling with the ol' menty health, but I've been doing things too.

These are the first drafts of what will be the first three pages of Tales of Alagrestia: Volume 1.

Not sure how much this will change but I'm fairly happy with these for now.

#ttrpgsky #artsky

🧵(/end) I am blessed to know some really cool people, so you might even make a new online bud. Also you will see much more of my cat, Jeffy, soooo keep an eye out for my next post ☺️

#audhdcreator #ttrpgsky #indieartist #indiettrpg #worldbuilding #scififantasy #fantasy #scifi #neurodivergent

🧵(2/3)

Instead of struggle to do more here, I'll just give folx access there. There's probably lots you've seen before, but it's a lovely bunch of people already & a very chill place to visit, instead of doom scrolling 💕

I'll post the link in the next 48hrs or so.

#ttrpgsky #ndsky #worldbuilding

🧵(1/2)

I think I only have the bandwidth for one form of "posting", I need to limit myself to an #accessible platform, I think that's #discord for my brain, but I do enjoy my time here!

So I'm not buggering off, just admitting I can't do regular posting here with my #audhd 😅

So!

Festive season was super busy! I'm still gonna be pretty swamped until end of Feb too, so things will still be drip fed here for a while 😅

BUT! I've got loads to share, including my first merch & plans for a one shot/quick start zine, so I'm gonna get back to it! 😊

#ttrpgsky #worldbuilding

Teen Goblin just got their first 6th form placement offer 🥰 so freakin' proud.

No one holds a grudge like a dumped narcissist.

Satire is dead and so is my patience.

Watching Tales from Woodcreek, feels like a cosy dark fantasy Crystal Maze, with Woll as the Maze Master.

Bloody brilliant 😍

#actualplay #talesfromwoodcreek

Giving myself a break at the moment, still working but from now til Jan, I'm dialling it back to allow for the cognitive load of the festive season (including 3 b'days 😂) & alleviate #burnout.

I'll still be posting just even slower lol

#writesky #ttrpgsky #neurodivergentsky #disabledcreator

Full-colour gouache painting titled Magob Monarch. Depicts a large molten creature resembling a mound of cooling lava, patterned with black crust and glowing orange fissures. A single yellow eye peers near the top beneath a golden crown. The background glows with reds and oranges, giving a radiant heat effect.

Digital graphic with a deep red background and light beige text. Text reads: The Magob Monarch While the Magobs are a welcome addition to the citizens of the Vermillion Kingdom, their origins remain shrouded in mystery. Vermillious folx tell stories of the Magob Monarch — an enormous Magob wearing a crown of gleaming liquid gold, said to dwell within the heart of the Esse. They say she spawns the Magobs from her royal chamber, sending them into the world to help those who work with flame and forge.

Alagrestia Holiday Prompts

Day 8: ❤️‍🔥📜Folklore of the Vermillion Kingdom📜❤️‍🔥

#ttrpgsky #ttrpgsetting #worldbuilding #amwriting #writincommunity #concepart #artsky

Full colour digital painting, made within Procreate. A sentient humanoid tree branch stands upright against a mottled green-to-purple background. Their body is made of twisting wood covered in patches of moss and lichen that form a robe-like shape. Pale green lichen creates full eyebrows, a moustache, and a beard, giving them an expressive face. In one hand, they hold a large fern frond like a quill pen, lifted as if ready to write. Their other hand holds a long parchment scroll that unfurls down to the ground. The character is the Lichen Scribe, who records anything the deity Impotsutrix requires.

Redesigning this guy in the hopes of making a little figure out of cuttings, to keep me company at the stall 😂

#originalart #procreate #orignalcharacter #artsky #craftsky

Hm I need a trading name.

I am 100% stumped. Better stew on this for a while 😂🤣

#soletrader #overthinking

Next steps, insurance & stall ideas. But that can wait until next year, I've got two campaigns on the go right now, they're the priority 🥰 🧵(/end)

Time to pivot wildly into a "one shot zine" based in Alagrestia & get painting! I've already got the story idea & characters, so I can spend some time painting them while my brain percolates on the narrative 🥴🤣 🧵(2/3)

Oh wow so it's been a great day over here & I'm weirdly happily overwhelmed? 😅 Just got myself on the path to running a stall at a future event 🥰 🧵(1/3)

#indiettrpg #artstall #oneshot #conceptart #ttrpg #indieartist

Full colour minifig, made in Heroforge A elderly, greying, gorilla-like Apefolk woman stands facing the viewer, dressed in layered green and purple garments: a rustic green shawl drapes over her shoulders and a similarly coloured shirt, with bell sleeves. Her split overskirt in the same hues hangs over a pair of woven leaf shorts. She wears a wide-brimmed green hat topped with a wreath of rainbow-coloured roses. One hand holds a woven basket filled with produce and herbs; the other holds a single purple flower. Her skin/feet are rough and dark, like bark or stone. Behind her is a bright field with scattered trees, blue sky, and white clouds. This character is Panora Haze, Keeper of Dewplume Crossing.

Text reads: Panora Haze Keeper of Dewplume Crossing. After much travel across Alagrestia, Panora, a veteran herbologist, alchemist & gardener, settled at Dewplume Crossing. Seeing the potential for a restorative haven for weary travellers, Panora set to the business of cultivation & agriculture. She tends the Crossing, growing rare herbs & potent magical plants, in careful patterns, hybridising strange yet powerful new flora. Dewplume Crossing has become her home & while she is welcoming, she will guard it fiercely from the greedy or disrespectful.

Alagrestia Holiday Prompts

Day 7: 🍃🧙‍♀️Equinosian Chracter🧙‍♀️🍃

Panora Haze, Keeper of Dewplume Crossing.

#ttrpgsky #ttrpgsetting #worldbuilding #amwriting #writincommunity #concepart #artsky

Ahhhhh makes sense, hope you're right! ! I've been able to load up a couple of them, some still refuse to load but if it's an outage I'm far more optimistic 😂

a cartoon dog is sitting at a table with a cup of coffee surrounded by fire . Alt: a cartoon dog is sitting at a table with a cup of coffee surrounded by fire, the shot closes in as the dog says; "This is fine." As they pick up a coffee mug on the table.

Loaded up inkarnate to work on maps today, none of them will load.

Emailed support, currently just trying to figure out what I do if I've lost 5 years worth of WIP maps.

So how's everyone else's Monday? 😅🤣

#worldbuilding #ttrpg #mondays #fml