they quote germaine greer four paragraphs in, so i should have known this is where we were headed.

Wheeler never quite gets to the bottom of Morris's sex life, a topic Morris mostly avoided in print. "I have boxed the sexual compass," she wrote, but it's unclear what she meant by that. Her libidinous fantasies were vague, she once said, "concerned more with caress than copulation." She apparently never cared much for penetrative sex and wrote, "I certainly did not feel myself to be homosexual." Achieving orgasm was still possible after her surgery, she wrote, "because the erotic zones retained their sensitivity."

the NYT just cannot be normal to trans women.

molly in a leopard print swimsuit at sunset

it's lesbian librarian week! it's national library week of lesbian visibility! it's national week of hot tall gay library women! it's my week! lesbian. library. (check me out?).

I'd like to announce that I'm pivoting from unemployment to, um, AI. Venmo me or something.

molly in a gold tank top

love you

molly behind a drum kit leaning against her hihats

thank god for music

The anti-trans side has spent years building up propaganda claiming this doesn't happen and I need you all to know they are lying.

Big Molly, Kim, and Stolie at Awaysis. 4pm Wednesday April 1.

Today I'm playing rad covers with my friends Kim and Stolie. 4pm at Awaysis in Zona Romantica. No fooling.

Molly standing next to portrait of Molly

Here's my portrait. I think I like it? My hair was shorter when this photo was taken and between that and the lighting, I look severe but also powerful. And hot.

living in the bay area i often looked forward to trans march friday - yesterday felt similar in that i seemed to run into every queer and trans person i know here over the course of the day. these days feel like little glimpses of how the world could be.

yesterday i went to a clothing-optional trans pool party and then a trans march and then a photo exhibition of trans folks from my town (that i was featured in!) and it was good for my heart.

Drowning hand meme, another hand reaches out, not to save them but to high five them with the Democrats statement of "we honor the resilience of transgender and nonbinary Americans and celebrate their incredible courage."

Facing the third international attempt to wipe out trans people with the "most pro-trans rights party" as our allies

i wish this world was better.

that's all gone now. i'm still lucky. i have a master's degree and a partner in academia. but i've lost so much and it's not clear i'm ever getting it back. i'm underemployed and i'm not far from that edge of real material precarity. and i'm in better shape than so many people i love.

trans life, especially for the girls, has always been something of an impossibility. i learned abjection and punk rock and sex and sobriety and community as survival strategies, and was lucky to be one of the (non-tech) girlies eking out a tenuous middle class-ish existence in the bay area.

i'm glad to be alive. i'm glad to be out of the united states. and it's been a rough fucking time. i had to leave a job i loved, a career i had built for myself by surviving in places that couldn't see me and didn't want me, except as an inspirational token of their own liberal goodness.

image with pictures from the “fucking trans women” zine. captions surround the image: Did you know?? "buy a trans woman a pizza day" is in honor of zine author mira bellwether otherwise known as "trans day of visibility" (sure, i guess) celebrate by being the freak (complimentary) you are: go make a zine of your own read something that makes you feel weird get a bunch of people and have an orgy

tdov is fine and all, but i prefer buying trans women pizza. celebrate today by being a weird freak. push the bounds of what is possible and build the world you want in the present.
make that zine, go have that messy hookup. being visible is boring, be more

trans people, today u deserve to go rest and take care of urself. do self care. you dont need to earn it, but god damn if you havent earned it.

cis people, the best way to support trans people is by giving us money. majority of us are dirt broke.

go donate to trans ppl

my dad tried to get me to do conversation therapy when i came out as trans. i remember being (painfully) thankful that i was an adult, no longer under his control, and that i hadn't come out decades before - i'm not sure i would have survived it. i barely survived at all.

fuck the supreme court.

i posted a thirsty picture of myself to instagram and my friend responded "bitch that waist"

allyship

venmo @MollyRoquet

The trap was always for us. Letting us name ourselves, it was just to make us think we could show our faces, just to make us think we could be accepted, before we realised too late that they did it to traumatise us for their entertainment and all we did was irrevocably mark ourselves as targets.

They used to call us "traps" and I get that. I get that now. More than they do I think because the trap was never for them. Ten thousand years ago they took what we are and turned it into a steel vice closing on your ankle on a dark night in the forest.

the rage.

"mike?"

bsky.app/profile/bigm...

starbucks cup with mike written on it

mike? really?

it made my tits bigger, which i guess is the one thing AI is good at

... and had made some really questionable tattoo choices

this is maybe me if i was 50, cis, and had never stopped drinking or smoking