- shoulder.] Plus I think she’s crushing using that board. Maybe if we play something that requires her to use it but it’s fun. She’ll do it more often.

- can tell none of this situation has been easy on her. I know Gracie has to adjust to it, but I also don’t want Melody to feel like she’s an issue. She may not be able to communicate that, but I’ve been in certain situations where I can relate to that and I hate it. [I rested my head on his -

[I smiled, leaning into him as he washed my back because it helped relax those tight muscles. I was almost sure, even with my tattoos he could feel the scars back there.] I want to think of something that they could all do that doesn’t make her disability stand out. She’s such a sweet kid and I

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- up with something that everyone can do and I’m not sure what she can do

- melody play? I’m asking because I really don’t know what she can do and what she can’t. I want to do something with the kids tomorrow, but I wanna make sure she’s included and that she’ll enjoy it too because I remember being the one who was left out of things. I’m sure you do too. I want to -

[The more I heard about this bishop guy the more I had a bad taste in my mouth. I like that because it’s helping my back lot. I didn’t realize how much I was tensing with all the people in the house. most of the time I don’t feel it until it’s beyond uncomfortable. This might sound dumb, but does -

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I will definitely reply here once I’ve eaten, but for now I’m going to leave my man with some deliciousness to miss me with well I’m gone. I love you, baby. @rivenruffian.bsky.social

- help all of us.

- but she was adjusting to the situation. Still, the bigger part of me worried for Melody because of the fact that we could not be sure exactly what she needed.] I know she’s a good kid. I have no doubt in my mind about that but we’re all adjusting. I think with all the extra people gone that will -

[I didn’t want to get out of this tub. I was so comfortable.] I know, baby I just worry about Melody. None of this has to be easy for her and the fact that she can’t really communicate how she feels must be scary. [I honestly didn’t know how to handle that part because yes, Gracie was very spoiled -

- do it for herself.] I don’t think Gracie realizes how much help Melody needs. I feel bad for that little girl because she’s in a new environment and the people she knows are torn in many directions. Hearing Vinny sound like a dad was hilarious to me though.] he had a dad voice out so fast.

- for melody. So please try to give him the benefit of doubt. [I didn’t say anything else because I knew Gracie was very spoiled. This was going to be an adjustment for her whether she liked it or not. it was also an adjustment for E. The one I will always advocate for is the one who can’t -

[I smiled, leaning into his chest.] baby, try to give Abel some credit. He wasn’t wrong. You have to remember also that he is her big brother. if Gracie was out of lime with Melody, I’m sure that’s why he spoke up. I think and I can’t be sure but I think he feels what you feel when it comes to me -

- more about general worry for Mom and her own triggers popping up tonight.]

- in and I smiled.] I know that tone. I’m glad it’s not at me. [I then heard Vinny speak up and I looked at E.] whatever she did she won’t do it again not if he got loud. [I rested my head on his shoulder, trying to calm my own nerves. It had nothing to do with what was going on downstairs, but -

- a bitch. [I kissed the bottom of his chin, smiling softly. I was about to say something else when I heard Abel yelling.] That does not sound good. Sounds like Gracie is having a hard time sharing out there. I’m proud of him though. He’s not hitting her from what I can tell. [I heard Nettie step -

[I hated feeling like there was no justice for Mom in this situation.] is he the weird one there was this one guy around when I was a kid that I never liked very much but I don’t know his name or anything. [My back popped in protest of my movements.] Ow. That helped but it still hurt like a son of -

- handled quickly because as someone who has been through things like that, I can’t even imagine her fear right now. [I tipped my head up long enough to kiss his chin.] thank you for being my superhero. I hope that fucker burns for what he did. I just don’t understand why there was no charges filed.

[I kept my voice out a whisperer because I wasn’t sure if everyone in this house knew about the incident I was referring to.] I know and I agree with you but when I read about it, I literally couldn’t breathe for a minute. It explains a lot about why she is so quiet. I just hope that man is -

-about.] baby please tell me that the asshole that hurt her like that is then because if not, you better be quickly before I do it for her.

[I lean back into him closing my eyes and speaking softly.] I know, baby, but I know there are things she doesn’t talk about. I know you know about one of them, but what scares me is that pop doesn’t. If he did, we would all know it. [tears rolled down my face as I thought about what I was talking -

- out of her own. I don’t know maybe I’m just overthinking it but I know mom she won’t expect to be triggered. She’ll get triggered and then he’ll get confused.

- so I was thinking of it the way it’s easy to get triggered and not realize you’re triggered until you react. I don’t know. I don’t wanna like put a damper on their anniversary, but I’m just worried that’s all. I know he was having anxiety so she brought him to his safe space but took herself -

[I closed my eyes at the kisses and then smiled when he said he understood what I was getting at.] I mean, I wasn’t going to tell her she couldn’t go because he’s with her but I’m also afraid she’s gonna get triggered and by something he’s not used to. I know she hasn’t been away from you or Vinny -

- understand that despite how strange it might seem.] is it weird that I miss mom and pop already?

[I relaxed into E closing my eyes for a minute.] I have a cell request and you can laugh at me if you want. Would you help me wash off? [I wasn’t sure if he would do it, but I thought I would ask just in case. I just didn’t have the effort in me. It would take to wash off. I knew he would probably -

I’m going to eat, and then I will work on the rest of my replies 💜

- crazy and I don’t mean to. I just have a lot of unanswered questions that she or Nettie might have the answers to.