i am like on the verge of anxiety attack today so i will be ignoring everyone

what i bring to the table is my ability to listen to yappers. i got the listening autism where i'd much rather not talk and just listen to yap yap yap yap

most of my social anxiety is that i'm simply just not interesting enough. i'm kinda mid and boring??

hi im winter and i have crippling anxietythat makes it impossible to exist

Cute sketch💕

#cynonari #cynari

I do like my new home, I just need the income to support it

minecraft tech packs my beloved !!!

and maybe figure out python and shit

this is my formal announcement that i will be trying to learn c++ and c# outside of game dev environments lmfao

i keep trying to learn coding languages through the lens of game dev, but tbh i think i need to go back to basic with some low level shit.

i've been jerked off by Unity for too long and haven't written a shitty console program in like 10 years

i don't really know why i'm writing this.

i guess i've just been through a decade long journey of discovery and arrived at nothing. i've reached the gender singularity and all i know is that i am myself

i started using neopronouns last year as a way to distance myself from anything that could have a steoretype. i find nonbinary representation in media to be terrible and leans towards afab masc-leaning-androgynous.
so rather than force myself into another shape again, i changed to xe/xir pronouns

i tried transitioning - i took estrogen for a while, but i'm not a girl (even though i oft try to present as such). it just didn't feel right, so i gave up with it really.

the only thing i really do is laser on my face as beards are yucky, and make it harder to be ""androgynous"" (neutral)

i've reached an apex where i simply am myself and that is all. there is no one like me, i've never met anyone like me and i think that's kinda awesome.

i don't confine myself to limits on clothing or presentation or how i talk. i'm just winter. i don't really need to explain it i guess?

i kinda missed the deadline for trans day of visiblity but idk i'm gonna write some stuff. i've been moving homes all weekend so brain hasn't been entirely there.

gender is a fuck. i have a shit history with figuring it out and i'm really bad at knowing what i am.

i neeed to redye my hair

yeah I'll have a sausage supper

*holds sausage with my pinky out*

ive never felt so english going into a scottish chippy and ordering

there's so many rooms and i am just a little fella

move complete.. i am so tired

moving day

seeing my entire existence boiled down to a pile of boxes is odd

meh

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a whole day of being misgendered.. waow

rabbit steel update..

moving home agaain on monday

fearmonger <3

i swear the next page is half done i'm just creatively burnt atm

there's no version of events where i come out on top