MIDAS✦
If I ever do RP on this account anymore, all relationships to Solis ( sans Lunus ) is getting retconned entirely.
Every ship, interaction, platonic / romantic / etc. thing are entirely noncanon, and will be disregarded. Every. Single. One.
Lore will be reworked at a later date.
Minor update.
A lot more stable, but I have no will to return to this account currently. Light banter to be expected on others, but activity is likely to be sporadic.
For some elaboration and clarity : I've been in this black and white thought pattern months prior to this occuring, and it worsened to its lowest extremes. Yesterday, the day prior ?
I don't know. I'm not sleeping. I'm barely existing.
Just leave me alone. That's all I want.
I don't know if I will come back. I genuinely don't. I'm still thinking black and white.
I like to feel good about myself. I like to try and be kind to myself, especially with an ego as shot as mine and difficulties trusting anyone or anything already. I'm not ok, and this has already made a prior 3 years of violent physical stress reactions implode, and I am quite literally crumbling.
The only context I had was aspects of both sides, not the full story. That's it.
I backed out due to my health. I'm severely unwell right now. I'm not eating out of stress, I'm not drinking, I'm not doing anything beyond sleeping.
I'm at extreme lows, given I'm very about appearances IRL.
I'm not engaging with anyone in regards to this, I literally am sp/li/tti/ng so badly I don't know who to trust anymore.
I've been sick enough to actually vomit from the stress from this + IRL reasons. That is dangerous. That is extremely dangerous.
Just leave me alone and don't mention me.
This will be my only statement, as I got mentioned.
I wanted nothing to do with this, I only wanted to figure out both sides and have everyone fuck off to their own corners and never engage again. I knew both sides to various degrees, but maybe that was just me being.. optimistic.
I don't know.
I don't even want to look at Solis anymore.
I don't know when I'll be back here, if at all.
Commissions will be worked on, but I don't know anymore. I genuinely don't.
. . .
I can't tell if you're a bad liar, or awkward.
✦【 A reel back, intensity gone as swift as it came. A quiet huff, an answer given, ever blunt, 】
You don't look capable of much, if I had to be honest.
✦【 A lean in. It's very intense. Three gems upon his visor are boring into her. 】
𝗕𝗲𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝗳𝗹𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿, 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗲𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱𝘀.
The Fox, swift and ever the trickster, snatches the cheese and eats it, walking away without another word.
The Crow is left alone. Hungry, and made to face the concequences.
You speak as if though the Fox, yet you lack the tact . . Yet, this is a fable, they come with lessons.
Flattered, the crow puffs her chest. Wishing to hear more, she shows hee feathers.
The Fox continues, ` I am certain you have a lovely voice too. Would you sing a song for me ? `
And so, the Crow's beak opens, letting loose a ragged caw — all while the cheese falls from his grasp.
Gladly.
A Crow finds a large piece of cheese, and high and mighty, she perches himself upon the branches of a tree to feast.
A Fox walks across, and sees the Crow.
` Dear Crow, you are so pretty, and your feathers shine ! I have never seen such a beautiful bird before, ` the Fox speaks.
. . . How flattering.
Pray tell, have you ever heard of the fabel, The Fox and the Crow ? Or will you humour me for a moment ?
MIDAS✦
Teehee
. . . I'm having an odd sense of déjà vu. Though, that would require thinking about how we met, which I'd rather avoid.
. . . You're staring. A bit too intensely., actually.
What do . . .
Really ? A photographer ?
Take a photo of me and hang it on a wall, engage with that instead ; while it would not speak back, you'd have the same level of enthusiasm I have with this conversation.
💭 ( gotta say, this is the fastest anyone's ever called me autistic before. )
Someone is a fan of alliteration, it seems ; have you thought of writing a book ?
You speak in such a mellifluous manner, but unfortunately, your pitch is off and my audials hurt.
Solis you can't just be calling people autisti [ got rewinded ]
. . . You're staring. A bit too intensely., actually.
What do you want.
MIDAS✦
IM SOBNING ON CALL
Shame, isn't it ?
Are you perhaps autistic ? It would explain the awkward pauses and stumbling words.
✦【 WHAT DID SHE DO TO YOU SOLIS. 】
. . .
Are we done here ? Or will we continue to waste time with small talk ? I'm only staying out of sheer social etiquette.
Thanks, albeit, such a sentiment is not shared.
✦【 He is so RUDE. 】
✦【 @butterfly-affected.bsky.social 】
Only returning for this ( for now )