tried very hard in pole today and ignored bad brain about my image and had a good time 💪💪 i've cracked it

(body image)
me looking at my pole self-records: oh my god my thighs are fucking huge-- (remembers the true reason I work out so much) --one leg could feed my wife for days, should we be stranded

I'll find out rates, maybe we plan for Aug/September :3

the studio I use has chains, loads of poles, hoop and silks! we could book it for a few hours and then everyone can get some nice videos in cosplay too or just hang out and practice together! maybe ahead of Hotaru, if anyone has routines they want to practice in the costume

@robotjellyfish.bsky.social what if....... we hired out a studio w a bunch of other aerial arts cosplayers...

it was rly interesting to view mine and bestie's different skills. as a dancer they have a good knowledge of shapes and poses and flow, but i have upper body strength, grip strength and pain tolerance, so they make gorgeous routines on silks whereas all i can do is get up there LOL

back to gym after 2 week break bc of holibobs 💪 the pole jam really was a good workout tho

last leg day before holiday, gotta make it count

starting my sunday w my sibling having s**cidal ideation 😭😭😭💔💔💔 i'll be supporting them more closely...

me actually

I DID THE POLE HIRE i was feeling nerves like when i first started going to the gym then I remembered to do my gym stuff that makes me feel comfortable! plan and follow a workout/practice plan, track my progress, listen to my music (gym playlist), take breaks!!

oh my god it's so hard to not feel uggo when all the ppl at pole hire are like a third my size and 10 times more skilled than me 💀

pole hire today! i feel anxious about being by myself somehow

omg wow I worked out for 40 minutes and i feel better than i have all day. wild how that works lmao

we got locked out of the office where i'd left my stuff and we had to go pick up a key from a staff member who lived nearby, and overall i just felt a bit useless... i was hoping to have a smooth trip since last time i was here, rembrandt was in his last days ;; i got my stuff now so it's okay

fr why is m*nchester lowkey traumatising every time i visit

ooaarrgh i got overcaffeinated and anxious all alone in a different city so im working out in my hotel room to burn off the brainworms before i go out for dinner

testament to my personal growth that i don't feel all panicky after confronting him but god it would be easier just to throw the dumbell at his head lol

wishing an incredibly Die to man who threw his dumbell on the ground after every set, and when i asked him not to (bc i'm nearby) he just stared at me then went back to talking to his friend. i hope he loses all his toes and someone takes him to court

booked an appt to talk to doctor about gender things hahahahaha what a way to end my workweek

i almost burst into tears at the yoga class i did bc the teacher was knowledgeable and considerate of hypermobility and i'm still not used to it 🥹

knee hurts but i gotta do my hip physio before my legs fall off

my thighs hurt sooooo bad

considering if i need to graduate from Intro class and look at the others...

booked onto a yoga class tomorrow that i can do while friends are at another class, yay

omg a second day to gym after work 😭🙏

weekday gym!!! finally!! I left work early so had time for it

as Todrick Hall would say, you can do both
I think I would not recover from your Leon 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

lately i haven't been able to make time for gym in the week, i think bc i am prioritising fun, social times, mealtimes. i don't rly wanna cut back on any of those but maybe i should batch up more meals in advance...

leg day!!! after 2 weeks 😭