alle so WHEEEE p0laris!!!!
ich so 🧍‍♂️

I just feel so drained of ideas, motivation and energy and at this point I'm wondering if any of it will actually come back at all.
it sucks but I'm too stubborn to give up.

I've been actually drawing the tiniest bit every day for over a month now, often forcing myself to at least scribble something at all. so far it hasn't really helped bringing anything and I kind of feel like an imposter of my old self. which sucks. but I'll keep on pushing.

you know it’s gonna be a good day, when you find one of your favourite vintage mugs for 1€ at the flea market and it’s a warhol design you didn’t have yet ✨

last time I made that was like 10 years ago and I completely forgot how really freaking delicious it is. and I made two small pies so I can freeze one. hehe. smart.

it’s a wee bit late bc I‘m a little behind with my Sunday schedule due to a sudden nap and a spontaneous walkie with a friend BUT I HAVE A COTTAGE PIE IN THE OVEN!!!

got a very cute marimekko rug for my tiny bathroom, it’s the little things in life

I just remembered I can make shepherds pie!!!!!!! heck yeah

what if soulmates don’t exist?

einfach zu leicht das zu übergehen. mich zusammen zu reißen. das zu ignorieren und symptome nicht so richtig zu spüren, obwohl sie da sind.
und obwohl ich weiß, dass es sinnvoll wäre, fühlt es sich falsch an über einen GdB nachzudenken.

manchmal fühlt es sich immer noch so komisch an, wenn ich daran denke, dass ich einfach eine chronische krankheit habe. irgendwie unreal. aber gleichzeitig wurde genau das 15 jahre lang behauptet. also auch wieder kein wunder, dass ich mir das selber manchmal nicht zugestehen kann.

still manifesting my very own orange 3-tier componibili that I don’t have to spend 150€ on pls

and we're probably ordering from my favourite pizza place, gonna be a FUN night!!!

anyway, I'm building the trashiest powerpoint and can't wait to use all the niche knowledge I have about this bc I like pulling random facts nobody cares about out of my ass. and I can finally make some stupid hidden ad for all the ridiculous shit people sell to save themselves from whatever

we're doing conspiracy theory night at work this week and holy shit some things would actually be funny until you remind yourself there's people out there who wholeheartedly belief in this nonsense.

took me way longer than I wanted to re-do all the cables but it’s finally done and it works and I‘m really proud i managed that on my own.

was afraid to use my record player in the old flat bc there was something VERY wrong with the electricity during my last year of being there (and mind you, my player & tuner are ~60 years old, not gonna risk damaging these gems). and in the new flat my speaker cables were too short for the set-up.

I can finally put records on again!!!! this makes me SO happy!!!

funny, isn’t it?

I get it 😂
aber immerhin verpasst man am hintern auch nicht viel!

das ist dieses „neuland“ hinter der neuenlander str, irgendwo im nirgendwo

oh gott ja fiebertraum jedes Mal wenn ich nach der Arbeit nochmal mit dem Rad zu diesem Hornbach muss…

Einfach keinen Bock mehr auf Männer. Wenn selbst die nach außen hin „guten“, „ordentlichen“ in schicker Kleidung einfach nur dumme Macker sind, die einem nichtmal im Alltag ein Fünkchen Respekt gegenüber bringen können. Nicht alle Männer bla bla bla. Aber IMMER Männer. Es sind immer fucking Männer.

honestly perks of working at an agency that also shoots food occasionally - all that food need to go somewhere at the end and we usually get to take it home hehe

spent 12 hours at work today. 🫩
but I got free falafel wraps for dinner!!!! and a whole box of strawberries!!!

I should really answer messages but I can barely manage my days atm aaaahhhhhh I swear I‘m not ignoring anyone on purpose _(:3」∠)_

Manchmal vermisse ich einfach den Geruch vom Wandschrank meiner Oma. Holz, Zwieback, Kakao, Kaffee, Wachstuchdecke und irgendwas ganz unbeschreibliches.
Ich weiß noch ganz genau wie er sich beim umdrehen des Schlüssels angehört hat.

naaaah they won’t get me out of there so soon hehe

back in last year haha - not gonna move again so soon!! i just still have some stuff at my mom‘s that I didn’t bother to bring over yet

so stoked about that scarf tho! that’s always been kind of a dream for me to find one and now it became true ✨
not that I‘m such a sucker for Hermés, I‘m more of a treasure hunter in that sense