i still have “dr. haflan will invent anything, won’t he?” drilled into my head

so who the fuck is dr. haflan?! 😤

not me waking up from a panic attack mid dream over worries that i wouldn’t remember my three lines in a stage production of some hybrid of annie and monsters inc

truly. i think we have a male, and those don’t burrow down as far, and tend to make dens by structures, so when we see it’s left we’re going to block off the entrance and put some animal repellent out

well the groundhog i had on the front porch is back, and has made a burrow underneath our side porch 🫠🫠🫠 time to add another thing to research to the list

new raye in march, new jessie ware in april, new muna in may

soooo safe to say the music world is being kind to me specifically

i always feel bad because he wants to help, but because it’s all my mess, he doesn’t know what to do. like yesterday i had him basically just sit and hand me things so i would stay focused. but i did a LOT on my own today so im happy about that

not to mention, going up and down the stairs so much after we cleaned the whole house yesterday practically killed me so i took a break and banged out my next drag race design sketch an she’s so cunty

having josh around to help me stay focused while cleaning the basement and organizing my drag and art stuff makes such a difference. the adhd decision paralysis is horrible

the way i’m getting rid of SO much of my drag closet. it’s mostly all fast fashion stuff but i think having an empty closet will force me to do one of two things:

1) sit down and learn how to sew
2) follow the path of my transcestors and just be a body girl

Surprise surprise, she’s weeks behind!

But there’s just one more original design to do, and a piece of s18's newly crowned queen, and I’ll be on to my next project!

RPDR s18 ep13: From Wholesome to Folsom

like mr valentine makes me wish i was a dancing diva

oh miss jessie ware knows EXACTLY how to get me together

sasha belle’s drag race is back and it’s SO fun watching my friends thrive 🥰

well, doesn’t look like i’m finishing this painting today BUT it should be done the next day i work on it!

so excited to finish it and hang it in the office!

and that would not have been possible if i didn’t have a partner as supportive as josh is, who lets me explore those examinations, and is in a position where he can support us while i do my own thing and figure out what’s next

hitting the existential point of “who i am if i quit doing everything i am?” may have been the best thing for me

it really forced me to look at everything i do, why, and reevaluate my relationship with all of it

i feel like a skipping record whenever i say that i’m having fun making art, but the last few weeks??

probably the most collective fun with my work that i’ve had in a long time

same, diva

lol of course i get no sleep last night because of a huge storm, and now as i’m trying to get some our neighbors are getting new siding so it’s just a ton of noise today

the real question is do we want to make some new emotes, orrrrrrrrrr do a drawsplay

i have a MUCH better way to work on digital art on stream again, and am working on a better setup for traditional! hopefully we'll start tipping back into the creative shenanigans in the next couple weeks!

i’m sure it seems so minimal, but i have maybe 10 go-to safe foods and they’re all relatively plain or bland. so something simple like this feels like a big deal, at least to me, because i chose to try it on a whim, on my own, with no pressure or encouragement from someone else—and that’s exciting

one of my big goals for this year was work on that, and while i’ve learned that i don’t like salmon, adding black pepper to popcorn is SO good omg

with my arfid, trying to expand my palette or add to/enhance something i already like is incredibly hard, and it’s rare to find a new food experience that i like

i haven’t slept fully through the night for over 2 weeks now, and while i’m very tired (teehee) of it

it’s certainly made me extremely productive

idk but if that’s the case i feel so seen

the new hellfire gala skins all look so good tooooo omg 😭

honestly i would also just cosplay her. i’ve wanted to do a black cat look for YEARS

i fear i have another drawsplay to do

it’d be so nice to have one day this year where i’m not painfully coughing

this pneumonia cough is just reeeeal comfortable apparently