lax is looking more and more tempting 😭

two cats are sitting next to each other in a bedroom looking at the camera ALT: two cats are sitting next to each other in a bedroom looking at the camera

had pizza last night now I’m up 2 pounds AND I have 5am clinical today

gm bloomfies 😁 in a much better mood today. back at clinic and the doctor complimented my exam 😛

had absolutely no appetite today after my procedure which made restricting easier, but I snapped at my mom when she told me I need to eat something :/ not even an ed thing I was just feeling so so shitty all day and didn’t want to move my body

cute 😗

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endoscopy tomorrow morning. sooo excited for propofol and to sleep all day after

updated stats for march ☘️

hw: 169
lw: 104
cw: 158
march gw: 145
gw by september: 115

first day of march brought me back to life. walked outside. 70 degrees. birds chirping. calorie deficit.

Feeling so gross and disgusting 😁

so so tired all the time

I need to get so real in March. Only 7 lbs down for the whole year so far and I need to lose 45 more by September 😠

Why is wearing scrubs so triggering. I am busting out of my scrubs on a daily basis. How are they baggy and tight at the same time

got bribed with $30 to pick up a closing shift tonight and I’m getting up at 5 tomorrow for my clinical 🫩 and my bf bought me a big ass lunch 🫩

all I have tomorrow is my morning lecture, no work no clinical. planning on catching up on sleep all day and hopefully not eating everything in my apartment

bm finally after 2 days the scale better drop at least a pound tomorrow

Save yourself I’ll hold them back is an underrated banger

Trying to be active again after a year 😗 new hw that I’m too embarrassed to share atm

Waiting for my program to start in June and they r saying I might have to start paying my student loans early bc I’m technically not enrolled atm 😐 what if I kms

Bad bad binge day. I’m just doomed to be fat forever. I’m so close to being back at my hw and I still can’t seem to actually starve. It used to be so easy why am I so bad at it now

April 2
weigh in: 133.8 lbs
total: 2440 😐
no pics. was doing good for most of the day and then had pizza

Poor kitty I hope he has a speedy recovery!

Canvas jumpscare

Describe your music taste in six artists

1. Pierce the veil
2. My chemical romance
3. Megan thee stallion
4. Korn
5. Deftones
6. Slipknot

1) any low calorie ice cream pint (halo top, nicks etc)
2) any veggie but esp cucumbers
3) zero sugar chobani yogurts
4) soup
5) the individual bags of baked lays, only 140 cals and satisfies my chip cravings

Incredibly valid

scale dropped 2 lbs overnight. they were right about drinking water 😞

April 1
weigh in: 135.6 lbs
total: 1315. went a little over but still in a decent deficit for today so I’m counting that as a win

Rules/goals:
- twomad + one snack under 200 cals
- close all rings
- 10k steps every day
- cal max of 1200
- take pics of everything eaten

Stats
sw: 135.6 lbs
gw: 120.0 lbs

I’m seeing ptv in may and I really don’t want to be fat, but I’m being more lenient with my food rules this month bc that’s what I think made me binge so bad in march

April accountability 🤍