Even if I must unapologetically scream to protect someone (or just into the void so no one feels truly alone), then so be it.

I'm sorry to anyone for seeing an irrational side of me that I'd much rather keep locked away. It's so hard. Just SO hard after all the shock and grief we have endured...

Yes, I am the aforementioned sibling. I am out of the hospital, and I am fine for now. I just need to take care of myself...

I can only wish that this never has the room to happen again, and even that feels woefully helpless on my part.

But standing up for those I love is no waste of breath.

Honestly, I harbor an extra vile venom for those who would go THIS far just to hurt someone. One that suggests that if they really wanna find their next target, they better go find a mirror, fast, for their next BIGGEST clue...

People like this should not exist, period. Not worth saving.

When it'll end? I have no clue. Hopefully before this month ends. We'll see. XP

Sorry for any inconvenience. ^^;;;

Hot dang, I think I might have to take a hiatus before I'm spoiled silly on a certain fox's "guest appearance". I'm lucky I generally know how to scroll fast, but eventually, that won't be enough to save me. Big yikes!! QwQ;;

Woe, to be super busy at a time like this to go see it personally. <|,D;;

Guess what stayed up for an entire year! X,D

Happy 33rd, StarFox!!!
Here's hoping it's your turn to shine again, soon... ~<3

I believe, truly, that day WILL come...

Update. My hands have once more cramped up fighting the Queen, as usual.

'Twas a good fight, that's for sure! >8,D

Hope to replicate that in my long-awaited beating of Gold Difficulty that's been tried every year since 2017... HERE I COME, YOU EVIL SPACE HA--

*AOSFisforciblyremovedfromthisthread*

Also, Happy 21st, StarFox: Assault!! You're unforgettable, continue to mean the world to me, inspire me, and help me continue to press forward past all of my darkest moments, even in little, loose, and subtle ways. QwQ

Here's looking forward to StarFox's overall 33rd a week from now, as well! X,3

for the imagination to roam. Its message of resilience is clear, has often carried me through dark times, and now more than ever, I want to carry exactly that with me wherever I go.

Here's hoping... ~<3

Dang, thinking about Missions 9 and 10 so intricately like this is making me sob, so dang much, and once again, I've reminded myself one of the many reasons as to why I love StarFox: Assault so, SO much right now.

Though short, so much love and thought was put into it, and it leaves so much room

I can't tell if I had a needless panic attack earlier, but I want to assure everyone that I am doing fine now.

I'll try to keep myself more together next time, no matter what it takes.

Yeah, it's back. I did this to myself.

I hate today. I need to stay in my dang LANE... Q~Q

Problem is that the duration of postdrome feels more unpredictable than the attacks themselves. I'll never know for the life of me if I'm "fully and completely here" before doing something so reckless, just because I finally feel "just fine," if not exhausted to varying degrees. X~X;;

As another side note, maybe It's best I don't catch up on stuff until AFTER migraine postdrome. I'm not fully functional then, as it's the brain's time to recover from such debilitating attacks....

The panic I experienced even threatened to bring the migraine BACK... Like, please DON'T kthxbai

...Those I truly, and deeply care about.

After all, such meaningful bonds were not built upon these delicate and nerve-wracking matters.

It was never my place to speak up, nor to investigate matters further on either end. And it never should be, for the rest of time.

I am sorry.

I guess, what I'm trying to say, is that I wanted to gain a further understanding of the issue in more depth before making a final judgement, but in trying for that, I may have gravely messed up.

I'm sincerely hoping with every thread of my being that this won't mess anything up between me and...

I hate panic responses. I did something so stupid elsewhere that I can't even begin to describe it.

I just hope no one sees ill of me after this. I swear I'm trying to fight for the right things....

I'm... trying.... </3

Game was released shortly before I turned two, I think, but I never actually heard of it or got to play it until I was roughly six.

I recall getting past Corneria okay, but the next stage was... not nice to me as a kiddo. X,D

Yessssss!

Thanks so much!! It means a lot! X,3 🎶

Yeah, that's a thing, now, apparently! XD

SAAAAME, HONESTLY! Turbo, Winged, and Jet Stars are my top three; with exactly the Arwing look being why Winged is among them! ^^

Here's hoping! I'd love to be able to play together sometime, should you ever get your hands on 'em one day! X,3

A Kirby Air Riders Screenshot of three redecorated Air Ride Machines lined up in a colorful plaza area on the floating island of Skyah. Machines pictured are: Winged Star (with a lowkey Arwing motif), Wagon Star (dressed as an ice cream truck), and a Wheelie Scooter (painted to match the not-pictured Turbo Star in aestetic).

A Kirby Air Riders Screenshot of three redecorated Air Ride Machines lined up in a colorful plaza area on the floating island of Skyah. Machines pictured are: Winged Star (with a lowkey Arwing motif), Wagon Star (dressed as an ice cream truck), and a Wheelie Scooter (painted to match the not-pictured Turbo Star in aestetic).

An overhead screenshot of the customized Winged Star, lined up carefully with some road lines, to make it appear as though it's speeding through a sky of its own. Red Kirby wearing a fluffy marigold flower stands not far behind.

A close-up shot of the customized Wagon Star, showing a glimpse of a friendly Waddle Dee waving out its window, next to a flavor menu of two different ice-cream cones. A rail station that reads "City" can be seen somewhat further into the background.

AR'WINGED STAR - MBMWJ68Q
ICE CREAM WAGON - MQ3YP2CJ
TURBO-WHEELIE SCOOTER - MR4JVC07

Also have more screenies because I insist!

Dressed up some Air Ride Machines, and have them up on MM because why not? (Worry not: Dropping the numbers shortly! >;D)

Again, I will be okay.
I fight for this every waking moment of my life.
To not have to be anyone's worry, or anything that will drag others down with every fall that I take.

I need to be strong for the people I love and care about.

No matter what.

Left the most important ones up. The other stuff was just... so awkwardly put and not articulated well enough to stay. Perhaps I can find another moment in a better headspace for something like this, but in gen., I do want to keep this space vent-free, if that makes any sense.

Sorry for all that.

Ngl, it's grounds for potential deletion if this keeps up and I was about to be complacent with just... leaving it be. XwX;;

Some tell me it's okay to be open like thatonce every while, but there's a time and place for everything, and I (re-)realize that. >FD;;

(...I'm still lazy rn though.<|,D;;)

Can't even figure out if it's the mention of "people I care about" or my plight in not being seen or treated like a child anymore (in poorly chosen words) that's doing it.

Some feeds really need to just not function by specific words on their lonesome like that. SMH,,

tfw you possibly choose the wrong words, so randos keep finding ONE post out of a whole thread and w/o context just tossing that specific post in their likes.

Like, buddy, can we not?

It reeks of BOT, even if you AREN'T. Have AT LEAST the curiosity to check what the thread's about, first. SMH.

Since I wasn't in a proper proofeeading environment nor headspace, it's possible I may delete this after a time if I deem this too vulnerable for a space like here.

I told myself I wouldn't do this ever again and yet, here we are.

Being this open comes with a great many drawbacks, after all...

Call this a pre-New Year reflection, if you will. XP

TL;DR- I sincerely hope people can be more patient with my lack of energy and social hiccups, and see me for who I really am. Because at this point, I'm just... Exhausted, I guess.

Point being, I wish to try harder to be clear what my intentions are, and to reassure others that I won't be or become a burden to them. That they absolutely can set boundaries, and I will faithfully adhere to them.

Yeah yeah, "who hurt me," I KNOW. >|,D;;

I'll be okay. I gotta be. I will be.