Difficult part of my life and my transition for sure

Good morning i suppose

Just feels a bit ironic I haven't really gotten much enjoyment out of the model yet. Hopefully I can test it again real soon

I'm not really worried about the doggy model or whatever. People will have problems with it but reactions have been more positive lately

I signed myself up for busting my ass until FWA, so I'm just reaping what I'm sewing. I'll be okay. I just had to give my entire April up lmfao

I honestly sat around and just thought about stuff a lot today. My life is just on pause until this model is completed. Everything just kinda feels cruel lately

My head is filled to the brim with mean thoughts about myself this evening

😑

Could use a W soon

I was a lil moody this morning 😳

I turned a corner and saw a giant dead rat on the sidewalk and I was like nahhh and turned the other direction like I changed my mind lol

Flissy being like Midna over me while I'm Doggy tbh (idk never played it)

Like saying this while also p much in agreement with your post still. like I just see GenAI as one of many bullshit things in life

Well the fraud and plagiarism GenAI enables literally pulls millions of dollars from the music industry alone, who knows what it's like for visual art but it's quantifiable how much it is used for cheating and grifting commissioners in those spaces. It exists to devalue art and ppl should hate it

Omfg true

Before I was imagining Doggy as some sort of robot thing but it definitely is just werewolf Faith, some time later they will get a less plasticy looking body... But faith herself is nothing but goop in a fursuit

Felt like putting an album on, I was like heh maybe I'll get emotional to some Bjork. 3 tracks in and I start bawling lmfao

hiiiiii :33

Funny how like last summer I might have had trouble or been like oh that's Ceejay, Stain and Cocoa (or like a couch or something) but now it is Faith Ceejay and Orion/Doggy clearly lol

Ever since I read a furry essay that defined pornographic art so well it just like rewired my brain. It's been hard to unsee it... Something about how porn is templates for people to project themselves and their desires onto. It extended to me the artist... I was never me, I was a template

me and the boys on the USS Abraham Lincoln eating boiled boot leather and sharing stories about the most Realistic Pussy we've ever seen

I love transitioning but all of my kinks disappearing for 90% of the day has been a little sad especially cause that's the only way I was interacting with people online 😔

Because I'd have to talk like Orion if I posted this on @foothands.pet, I am def in all kinds of kink moods I never expected but it's just. Nowhere near the level of obsessed I was previously. My imagination is still really overactive tho. It's so much more fun to be stuck as something playful...

Orion is not going to stay a pooltoy forever, if anything she is a werewolf of Faith. I was gonna have her be an offshoot of Ceejay but I am glad I waited. There is something so, so appealing about being a dominant monster now. Not being in full control of myself and also being soooo dangerous

I'm so sorry to hear!! ;w; Hope you're doing ok!

After a few days of struggle I finally got the head shape figured out lol, I'm just trying not to be as shy about showing people the less flattering early versions of my avatars

This is sort of what you sign up for as a full time freelancer I think, but ironically I was already signed up for it before and my Day Job is why I got so behind all along cause it kept throwing me off an art routine whoops

Just. Glad I am here now, walking the tightrope and feeling confident...

I swear I am not posting this like I am being all humblebrag/on my high horse just like, I am literally forcing myself to play games rn cause I have just been Grinding (or spending time with gf)

Also I just have to have fun somehow lmao I work day in and day out atm. What the hell am I gonna do, draw? RP?

Orion is all the things I wanted out of having my guy costume. But just more fun. And affirming, connecting me with my gf more... Helping me with social anxiety even. I feel way more like a furry again being her, simply put