was weak an nauseous. was throwing up so much the sink got full and also clogged. had to remove the bile manually. with a small shampoo bottle. now even more nauseous after all that. also showered. kinda. passed out twice in the shower. didn't get much done. hater mosquito still loose. everything su

with every passing day it feels more and more like the world does not want to see us alive

you know things're bad when even parapet gives up

things are Bad again

whatdoYOU think i'm doing

×1 winner of Blocked By Main award

see this is the reason we're trying to kill ourselves can you just please stop talking

your words are being read but not fully parsed right now sorry

then can you please take your words back & let me be miserable

well can YOU do something about it?

the place will soon be overtaken

totally blew my chance when i was at the seven story building with no safeguards in place. it's all downhill from here

can one put oneself down like a dog. is that posssible
like
safely & really quickly
that would be cool

if i ever hurt myself remember that it is often
- rather insignificant
- blown out of proportion
- only done for attention & pity
- occasionally a positive

water droplet emoji

this is happening oddly frequently

i wish biting yourself didn't leave massive obvious visible marks that last so long

maybe not fictional but then again i'm too much of a pussy to repeatedly slam my head against a rounded marble corner until i die

hi sorry i'm busy bawling my eyes out at a fictional scenario where i take my own life & then friends & family find out & oh god the aftermath is horrible sorry

i,,,,, don’t know what to do anymore,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

we now return to your regular programming (crying)

yeah no i’d be better off gone

nope here comes the fourth

oi fuck you

cried thrice in a day. new record i guess

overly sensitive until further notice; sorry
like. anything can make me cry right now

yes

i’ll try to sleep through it i guess

doing permanent decisions to escape my temporary hell is NOT a great idea but it’s really convincing me to

help my brain is doing the “you are not enough and are actively a burden” thing again