man, finding love in the middle of writing a horror story really blows. Sure, you regain the will to live and actually want to wake up in the morning again, but it also makes it really hard to work up the angst necessary to really stick it to the characters. So.
Hehe wow, thats so fun <3
oh. my. god. YEEESSSSS
woaow (based)
do you... ever have the kind of luck that feels wrong?
Like... fate was dealing your hand and slipped, losing an ace from the deck? Not even a shifting of the tides, but a fair breeze to make it all worth it.
HAHAHA ok this got me a lil' bit lmao
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woaow 🥺
It's giving me so much anxiety, we're at this place where we genuinely GENUINELY have NO IDEA what could happen and i LOVE IT (but it also makes my mind explode a little bit)
You know what i realized back in my Jangst haze a while back? Jangst is essentially the same as Signalis, which is probably why it affected me so much.
Ugh, that's insane... i'm so sorry it's an issue for you. for me, i would probably just post it some other day when i feel like i can handle it a bit better, and honestly i would probably even mute my YT notifs for the first day if it's bad enough. you do good work, and i'm sorry it's a problem...<3
WHAAAAT??? THAT WAS REEAAAALLL???
youtu.be/nRgyggAsta4?...
eh sounds like some new age cringe to me, idk
Respectfully. You should be in a creative slump more often lol
“Oh, I am deadly real. As real as EK’s Solver, as real as the wolves in the night… As real as the fear behind your core. I am very real, and you are very stuck with me. I’m not going anywhere, and you know what’s really delicious? You can’t eat me… But I can eat You.” It was as silent as shadow as it crossed the room, passing through the sunlight without breaking it, until it was looming over me; Over ZG. “And I will. The only choice you have… Is whether I do so sooner, or later. Whether I let you come along our merry Hunt… Or if you become the Prey.” I shut my eyes tight and bury my face into ZG’s chest. “She can’t save you. Nobody can.” “Ah wove yew, See-jee…” Her hands warm my cold core as they rub my back. “I love you too, KC,” She replies. "That's like so fucking gay, dude. Like, I'm literally a demon and that shit's making me sick that's literally so gay."
dear god... being a demon is one thing, but being homophobic?? now that's a bridge too far.
#writingouttakes #writing #MDOC #technicallyWIP
i can already tell this post is gonna live in my brain forever
i literally cannot overstate just how funny it is to write ZG in first person... bc she's just so. SO. DENSE. the only thing thicker than her thighs is her brain, and it genuinely makes it hard to write her LMAO. i wanna write good words but her brain is so smooth you could ice skate on it 😭
if i were in J's position, i... i don't like to think about being in J's position.
too much hurt, not enough hope. none, really, which feels a bit too real for my tastes.
i think imma go for a drive. a pacific drive, lol.
most yearning comes with the hope and the desire for reunion, but Jangst doesn't have that hope. there's just loss. tessa's gone, taken away forever. and that's... it. it's already done.
it's singularly depressing in a way that stings a bit too much for even my own liking, or enrichment.
but the hope laces the loss with a counter to the pain that can bring you to life far more effectively than just about anything else i know.
Jangst has yearning, but the hope is overwhelmed by the loss in such a deep way that it becomes so much sharper for the despair it's mired in.
i don't deal with loss very well at all, and yearning is connected to loss the way a spider is connected to her web. yearning weaponizes loss tinged with hope and lust in an incredibly effective alloy that can cut through you like a biting wind...
i was genuinely getting ready to write, but while staring into the abyss that is Jangst, i lost myself in those eyes a bit too much... and i don't think i have the stomach for it, anymore, not today. it hurts a little too good, i think...
it's actually interesting to me though, how ships and writing with yearning at it's core are like my jam, doomed yuri my bread and butter, and yet Jangst is what hurts just a bit too much to really get over. I think the issue lie in how close yearning and loss are to each other...
uh oh.... do you ever yearn to close to the sun and just end up exploding... it was my fault for trying to consume jangst too soon after eating Kintsugi Cores....
man, i'm so close to being ready to write a short story i think'll be killer, but my heart just yearns to continue writing possession... 🥺
Forcing myself to draw my pain.
The cycle never ends.
(Based off of the J Cycle Animatic)
#SD-Z'sArt #MurderDrones #MurderDronesOCs
omfg i've been LOSING MY ENTIRE MIND over that video recently!!!
Caution: you may explode. I can comfirm, i did in fact explode with yearning after reading this story
Wow, that's hilarious, i love that. Honestly i'm curious how that goes, but its a very fun matchup either way
the, the WHAT?? no WAY. really??