gotta love chasers...

Which to be clear, none of this is healthy of me. I definitely don't let myself get enough sleep

Ever since I hit my 30s, I've stopped being able to nap or oversleep. I look at it as "waisting" time. This makes "sleepovers" sometimes difficult but the worst part of it has been my surgery recoveries. I ignore the order to rest and only let myself sleep 6 hours a night.

Chasers out here being more integrated into my own community than I am...

Too bad my abuser fucked me up so bad that I'll probably never be able to advocate for my needs/wants or tell someone my feelings.

daily costar- "tell them what you want" "Stop dropping hints. The words are stuck in your throat, making you irritable and restless. Nobody can read your mind. Speak plainly about what you need, without apology or manipulation. The conversation won't kill you."

daily costar- "everyone wants to belong to someone" "Stop hanging back at the edges of conversations, relationships, life. The warmth you've been waiting for exists, but you must step forward to claim it. Your fear of rejection is smaller than the emptiness of hiding."

"human relationships are a luxury good" "The person trying to get closer to you isn't asking for your money or your brilliant insights. They want something you're afraid to give: your unguarded self. Stop making them beg for scraps."

"you need something gentle and tender right now" "The hole left by their absence feels cavernous. But walls echo. Find one person who won't try to fix you. Let them sit beside you. Accept a cup of tea. Small comforts aren't betrayals-they're how we survive the unsurvivable."

My costar has been on some shit this past week

drunk history khitomer accords

it looks like a loading circle with a lot of gray lines coming out of it . ALT: it looks like a loading circle with a lot of gray lines coming out of it .

Young me used to be downloading and installing mods for Jedi Academy, now if its not an easy drop from Nexxus I just do this until I give up-

Can someone remote control my desktop and do everything so I can have the Bloodborne 60fps PC emulator? I'm starting to realize my tech savviness has declined and looking at all this is overwhelming

I don't mean to brag or anything but when it comes to getting in the way of my own happiness, I'm S-Rank

I'm seeing what Estradiol Enanthate is doing for others and need to harness it's power. Valerate just doesn't cut it anymore

I'm learning that my mental health gets 100x worse when I'm recovering from surgery and I really hate it

If this is who I think its about, Idk why people are still following them. Its their whole shtick

Progress isn't linear is what I'm told

Today was an insanely bad, bad brain day. I did at least message my therapist for a last minute appointment so like, One step forward and Fifty back.

I mean, I'd call myself a realist but I'm pretty sure thats just pessimism dressed up

Sorry for crashing out on social media, it will happen again

A photo of sofie from the nose down. she's naked and sitting on a pink gaming chair. her long, dirty blonde hair rests on her breasts. her legs are slightly raised and spread open to show off her pretty pussy.

The Last Supper (Before Armageddon)

I need someone to hold me and tell me the lie that "everything is going to be alright"

I kept on loving and supporting you after months of abuse and manipulation. Even after I found out that you ****** your brothers when they were kids. I wanted to believe you weren't pure evil, because everyone deserves love. You hated me even more for that.

I'm disgusted with myself and feel dirty

The Unholy Trinity of Posers-

People who wear fake tattoos, people who wear fake piercings and people who wear glasses when they don't need to.

*Immediately sees an example of amazing breast aug and backpedals*

Golly, I wonder what Kira Nerys or Cassian Andor's response to AI data centers or 🧊 facilities would be...

yeahhh, no more surgeries after FFS. this shit sucks

My iron and some other stuff came back low and I also might have hyperthyroidism so this has been a fun visit 😬

Ah fuck, can someone top me off with some blood?

Call me weird but I love getting bloodwork done and then going through all my results on MyChart. I feel like a kid on xmas eve while I wait to get them

I think I would have had a shot at loving myself if I never met you