I'm 41 today. Fuck.

💜 you so much, Obie xxx

Love you so much.

My instinct is to hide.

BUT. Please, if you want to, share this post far and wide.

People who are going through similar should know they are seen.

I wish I could say there is always hope. I can't. But. To those of us who have connected in this small but important community: you are not alone xxx

To all people who have supported Kissed By Fire, I love you very much.

That podcast has kept me going through thick and thin.

Tomorrow, @bword.bsky.social and I are sorting out next steps to make sure we can keep on truckin'.

We love you all.

It's not just that, though. I am trying to leave my (abusive) marriage. It's fucking hard. It's part of the problem.

So there's a lot going on.

But hiding and pretending isn't doing much for me anymore.

I need to write. I need to reach out.

Feeling alone is shitty.

And yes, I am a food writer. I see the irony. Food is a huge pleasure. Perhaps that's part of my problem: the denial of pleasure?

I keep being told if I don't sort this out I am going to die.

The ambivalence to that is something I am trying to sort through.

It's a resurgence of an ED I had years ago, rearing its ugly head once again.

I'm now in treatment and, honestly, it's a full time fucking job seeing all the people and being monitored all the live long day.

I haven't posted much in a while. But I wanted to show y'all my absolute genius with The Rubik's Cube. It's utterly incredible, I know.

Apologies for my face, I'd been travelling and had almost no sleep and no make-up but my big brain makes up for that, I'm sure.

Halloween.

Please remind me where exactly it was that Khal Drogo died and Danaerys did the funeral pyre? I wants to know.

Absolutely! And it was so good. Amazing band, amazing set, incredible performer.

Chappell Roan tonight was incredible! 🦄🤠

Totally misjudged where I was while distractedly running for a bus. Fell over a low wall I didn’t see and landed right on my old noggin. I have learned many lessons from this! 😂

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Ah. So this is what concussion feels like?

Zero stars.

Would not recommend.

I actually LOVE parallel parking (no cap). But DEAR LORD I wish to ride a dragon 🐉 and burn my enemies.

Just had to verify my age for Bluesky because of law changes in the UK. Did it with a photo of my face. I’m not going to lie, but part of me did wish it would at least take its sweet time to decide I’m definitely over 18 🤦‍♀️😅

Yum

Social Anxiety Pudding

Yeah, I have similar feelings on the quirky-annoying continuum. And yes! Go Emily!

I’m actually with her on this. She and Christopher are great together. Her and Luke? There’s chemistry but if it was going to happen it shouldn’t have taken 7 seasons and a 4 part special.

Having some ASOIAF brain connections… Bran learns to ride Dancer through “rein and voice and touch”. Sounds very much like dragon-riding, no?

Also as Bran is a skin changer could he go into Dancer as his aunt Lyanna probably could too? I mean, she was “half a horse” herself.

Thoughts?

Genuine question:

Should Lorelei have ended up with Max Medina?

Go.

The ten year old asked me to turn up the volume on David Bowie in the car today. He really liked it.

So I guess I’ve completed parenting.

Peace out.

Terrible hand!!!

So that would be which Hand? Otto Hightower for the plotting? Unwin Peake for same reasons? Or Mace Tyrell because he’s lols?

I’ve just had so many thoughts so quickly I’m not sure what I think anymore.

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How does House Dayne audition for a worthy wielder of Dawn?

Is it like a Miss World thing?

What rounds do they have?

Do it. Let’s get @bword.bsky.social where it hurts 😂

CORN! CORN!

Jeor Mormont tells Tyrion at The Wall in AGOT that he’s been seeing dark and weird things in his dreams. Jeor is a dreamer. But how, and why? He’s having what I’m calling “Raven Dreams”. It’s Bloodraven, through his own raven, sending him dreams about the Long Night.

Boom.