what is art if not expression, and what is expression if not art? there can be no art without a human behind it, infusing it with all their salt and grit and sand.

to fill a ditch in a desert with salt water does not make a beach, even if winds and waves created the sand there long ago.

I guess this is the last personal, introspectiony type thing I'll ever share because I'm tired of that shit too.

may you be blessed with a long life. may you know what I cannot know.

may nothing but happiness come through your door.

grass is grass and I've always been more of a fungus. a decomposer, which explains my failings with my art.

so I guess I'm just kind of tired.
tired of constantly asking for help only to get none. tired of trying to fit in when I'm a totally different phyla.

just generally tired.

being surrounded by brilliance has left me very paled, and in that I found the one thing I was good at - ego death. but the thing about that is, it requires an ego worth killing.

always scared of being the short grass, I tried hanging with the tall grass but never really fit in. there is a reason.

I'm kind of just tired.

three and a half decades into this kinesthetic nightmare and my knuckles are bleeding so badly that I can barely grip a pencil. I'm not a writer, too clumsy with word and wit to make that work, and I'm not much of anything else given I could never make anything of my brain.

always remember we live in an era of charlatanism and snake oil, where absolute buffoons who often don't even know they're actually legitimately moronic can just yap as if they're authorities on the subject they're talking about.

you see it all the time, don't believe them and don't be like them.

people who act like "the civil rights movement" was a one off thing that happened in the 60s are either actual genuine scum or deeply misinformed on the reality of the situation.

the US has had like four or five distinct civil rights movements since the 60s.

also very funny to act as if segregation wasn't heavily religiously motivated and that reactionaries only became religious after segregation.

or that the american experience is universal despite leftism being a heavily internationalist series of ideological belief patterns.

"after segregation" and "got abortion overturned" acting as a subsequent points in a timeline is very funny because there is like fifty years between those two points with a lot of shit happening that's being glossed over, but importantly the massive concessions of liberals to corporatism.

tfw you think you're a super genius who is seeing the source code of the matrix but you're actually a below average intelligence confidently talking ahistoricity like you have a clue what the fuck you're on about all to justify why it should be okay to "abandon leftist morals" for "strategy".

"killing nazis isn't woke"

now that's the dumbest bait I've ever seen in my life.

and of course, a huge indictment of this website on every possible level.

imagine being this ridiculously tech illiterate and yet somehow also being in charge of a website in any capacity.

this is one of the most embarrassing things I've ever seen someone admit.

you could not invent a form of torture to get this sort of admission out of me.

only in the sense that the guy who stands in front of the giant animal is gonna have a rough time. which they always do. I'm assuming a fantasy world would probably work out a way to deal with the fire.

they might not have breathed fire but I feel like it would have been equally hard to take down a mammoth with a flint spear.

hell we had to invent a completely new type of gun to take down elephants they're so god damn tough.

like think about it. dragons are very big and would use a lot of energy doing basically anything. they'd be giant flying crocodiles that can melt steel beams.

those bitches aren't taking down an army we were basically dealing with the equivalent in the paleolithic era.

all warfare is just positioning and endurance, that's why I don't think dragons would actually be that big of a deal.

humans are endurance hunters, it's kind of our whole deal.

heat dissipates by equalizing between two bodies or systems, so vacuum (which lacks a medium through which heat can be equalized into) doesn't dissipate heat but insulates it.

this makes it a very good insulator because there is nothing to equalize into.

personally I think we all started going wrong when we stopped worshiping the sun as our god.

we can always go back though, she is a forgiving mistress.

back in my AFA days I'd have to go places where reactionaries are to learn about their latest conspiracies so I could combat them. but now I just look at what any mainstream social media is talking about and it's more or less all there in the open.

gee, I wonder why we have a fascism problem.

you don't even need to listen to reactionaries because liberals will repeat their words verbatim and uncensored (save for the n-word) and then act smug about how good a person they are for broadcasting the radical fringe's propaganda into mainstream spaces.

that's how I learned of qanon.

liberals love doing the whole "oh my god, look at this outrageous thing a fascist said. no really look at it, I'm shoving it directly in your face so you have to see it. I'm literally going to scream at you about it. anyway, I don't agree with it just so you know" and then think they're geniuses.

also I cannot really emphasise enough that it is concerning that the writer's first thought about a character was "oh no, what if capcom makes the child sexy?"

that's a self-report my guy, you're fucking telling on yourself. you're also really not helping the perception you went looking for this.

running around and screaming pedophile at nazis will never not be accurate, yet in doing so you're still bringing attention to nazis which they will turn around and use to try and normalise their pedophilia.

so you really do need to do it in a measured way rather than just for metrics.

"I need everyone to start being normal about that thing I brought to everyone's attention and stoked controversy about to get clicks on my shitty pseudo-journalistic website"

I'm so glad that 'lesbians only exist for the titillation of men'* because for a moment there I was worried something wouldn't revolve around men for once.

and we can't have that.

(*according to lesbophobic idiots on social media)

no I would never insinuate you enjoy the green yuri, heaven forbid you like something "main stream". better you just stick to "moon on a rainy night" and other indie darlings.

lesbian sex in manga is written exclusively for men? sure, sure, whatever you say. it's for all dozen himedanshi, yeah.

oh you like "bloom into you" huh? how original. let me guess you've also read the very obscure and underrated "sasakoi" huh?

oh yes no, of course you only refer to them by the japanese titles, you're so into the culture and don't have any miso-lesbophobic beliefs at all.

redditor: "not enough people talk about <insert incredibly popular yuri manga/manhwa/manhua>, it's so underrated"

same redditor: "it's so hard to find yuri made for women these days, there's too much sex"

oh I get it, they're a tourist.

oh we can’t de-vichy france because all the little nazis are needed to keep the country running (acab)

and so it goes

probably why the police murdered 300 Algerians or so in Paris in 1961
just tossing their bodies in the Seine