You shouldn't make decisions on behalf of people without their consent. My abusers never had my consent. We don't have the same values and principles. You shouldn't hide their range of options neither. You shouldn't assume you know what they would choose or options they would make for themselves.
Peace, y'all. I forgive all. I live for the greater good. I see reality as the Garden of God & I want us all to bloom.
@popeleoxivoffical.bsky.social @sanders.senate.gov Dr. Gabor Mate (not on BlueSky), please help me out of this.
I also ask on the spirits of my late mother, grandmother, & Goenka.
I'm getting help. I ask people to please tell me the truth or treat me with kindness. People treating me like they don't know what's going on isn't working. Remember, my abusers would do the same to you. They would do worse to me if they can get away with it. It hurts but I love God, life, & myself.
This is my hell & it's real. Which only means my heaven is real--my version of heaven includes everyone.
I've brutally questioned my religion, became an atheist who still believed in living for the greater good, have never denied science, don't judge others nor force my religion--my faith is real.
I will factory reset my laptop and donate it. My phone is already lost but I will factory reset it from my laptop. I have to give up everything. It's the only answer left. I've tried everything else. People give me pinpricks of malice at work/volunteer projects/errands/etc. or enable my abusers.
My abusers hate my religion but want to dictate to me how to live it. My abusers want me to be like them but accuse me of copying them when I happen to share the same habit/style/preference/words/etc. They make up any excuse to be anything but honest, kind, helpful, and effective to me. Why hate me?
My abusers have experienced less hardship than I have yet they want me to suffer more. They aren't teaching me anything it they can't explain anything. Teaching isn't passive aggressive. They aren't punishing me if I haven't done anything wrong. They aren't helping me if I'm worse off. Why do this?
It is Satanic and unholy to diminish another's quantity and/or quality of life, and affect their free will (lie to them, omit info that affects their decision making, try to "manifest" or "puppeteer" them, lie about them/affect opps, offer false/limited choices, affect their state of mind, etc.).
My imagination is vast. I think about the improbable, like, what if my abusers are something like Oprah and Trump? They have a huge cult following that enables them to do whatever they want, the greater good be damned.
There will always be a great evil in the world working in the shadows. The only thing we can do is reject their lies that being a good person is bad for you. They aim to move the status quo to allow more cruelty so they can more easily accumulate power and pleasure. They detest peace and truth.
The Bari Weiss Newsmaxification of @CBSNews is a sight to behold, and marg brennan seems content to go right along with it
I'm getting help. I can't do anything without truth, attunement, balance of power, direct communication, healing and closure.
Epstein survivors just dropped a powerful message for Congress, and it hits like a warning: no more waiting, the truth is coming, ready or not.
Watch till the end
@housedemocrats.bsky.social
@houserepublicans.bsky.social
Their all scumbags........
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Forgot to mention the other one was chronically unemployed & was living w/his girlfriend's parents when he decided to pimp me online. A big man making money off of disrespecting women, being enabled by his little sister & her best friend who proclaim to be about "girl power" & "independent women."
If they can't win fairly that means they knew they weren't strong enough to win in the first place. If they can't say what they did it means they know they're wrong.
I don't want anything or anyone that deals with them. I'll be celibate forever since they want to control my sexuality. Creeps.
P.S. my abusers are liars, cheaters, & thieves. At least one of them is an impulsive liar. They think they're better than me because I'm too "scared & dumb" to do anything to get what I want. I used to be able to say I worked for everything in my life but I know they patronize me now.
Also, for the record, I've been on reddit since 2008--mostly as a lurker. I showed my ex-husband the site. I came over from digg.com
I wonder what other lies are being said about me.
I've considered my abusers are under pressure from higher-ups who are also making money off of me. Corporate mobsters? I don't know. If that's true then I hope people can learn from their foolishness & greed.
The world will become better when we calibrate our baseline to kindness & holistic health.
What did I do to deserve this punishment? If this is meant to be gift, it's actually made me worse off in a way that can't be fixed.
If it's a test, then it's flawed & the results don't matter. I can't lead people who can't see how fucked up this is. I can only help by sticking to my principles.
For the past 7 years my actions, words, thoughts, feelings haven't mattered. I've never felt so alone & so unloved. People don't care about how I feel, they only care about how I make them feel. So they lie to themselves that my trauma is worth it, the ends justify the means.
I am impaired.
I grew up psychologically, sexually, physically, emotionally, and verbally abused. I have CPTSD. I don't sleep well because that's when most of my sexual abuse occurred. I forgive and made peace with my childhood abusers. My adulthood abusers won't even admit to their abuse nor talk to me.
If they claim they like to address the hard issues, well they haven't done it with me. They know I can beat them in an argument/debate/conversation. That's why they avoid talking to me face-to-face. It's why they avoid context.
I haven't seen them in years but they affect everything about my life.
People love them because they agree with them: power is about increasing your pleasures in life & minimizing your pain. They find peace boring & seek to cause drama for others & "cutesy" drama for themselves. They micro-dose on sadism and cover it with humor.
I aim for active peace, joy, & truth.
I don't want their help, their "love," their financial assistance, their protection, their "wisdom," or anything else.
If they left me alone years ago I would be better off now. They want to act like I need them. My life is worse because of them. They never help me enough to get real traction.
I can feel their ugly energy and how they deceive others about me. They claim to support me but limit me from being my best and "manifest" things about me that they don't voice in public.
They're selfish and made a deal with the devil to get their dreams to come true. They hate my spirituality.
They took advantage of me at my most vulnerable point in my life. They never helped me before. They never even invited me to their parties* or vacations or their mom's wedding. We were not close. On God, I swear this is true.
The one time I asked for help (spend the night) they said no; on God.
My abusers who love me so much that they want to control my life but they can't suffer any discomfort in giving me any kind of healing truth? They never hugged or comforted me or let me cry with them. They don't love me.
But I'm supposed to suffer much for whatever "prize" they want to give me? No.
My sexuality is sacred to me. If someone recorded me without my consent, I would want to know regardless of how bad it is. Nobody has told me anything but everyone treats me differently.
My abusers played mind games about it with me. Did they encourage others to record me too?
