It's agonizing and feels inhumane to not even have the option for her, but hopefully hospice care should bring some peace since there won't be lapses in pain management at least. my heart goes out to anyone else having to go through this kind of experience, I'm sorry you've had to witness it too 🥺

july, and they had operated back then and told us she was at the time cancer free and it was nothing more to worry about but ever since that procedure she's been bedridden and never healed and now it's just horrible.... I'm sorry I just need some time before my brain can comprehend art again

she's finally coming to terms with there being no other hope left the past few days and she fought for so hard for so long thinking there would be a chance but she hasn't had a chance in a while. her abdomen is so full of cancer and it's been so aggressive. this all came out of nowhere around last

full hospice and I just hope for comfort for her. It's been an agonizing last few months with morphine shortages/pharmacy patient limits(?) as she's constantly in pain and so sick. It was heartbreaking taking her to her oncologist with her being so visibly terribly sick compared to anyone else there

man my heart is so crushed, watching my grandma go through one of my greatest fears and just an absolutely agonizing fate with no option for MAID/death with dignity in her state is such a horrible nightmare. I just can't stop thinking about her all the time and her suffering, she's finally going on

finally back home and unpacked after visiting my grandma for a month. I feel like I didn't sleep the whole time I was there, man all this situation sucks so hard!!!! I'm sad but I haven't been able to cry yet...

blender piece/comic depicting an introspective mole

mole's thought

Actually decided to sell this design, asking for 65$ USD for him if anyone is interested!!

Can drop him down to 50$ if anyone grabs him soon!!! ;w;

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Also having to relearn how to draw on a tiny tablet has me feeling like i'm 13 again OOF. no wonder i used to have so many wrist and hand problems, this thing is uncomfortable as hell!!! I'll never take my bigboy cintiq for granted again 😭

Expect a couple more adopts from me soon, staying on my mom's couch while I help care for my grandma until the 21st and I don't have a private space so I can't work on NSFW comms at the moment! I'm being swarmed by my 8 & 10 year old brothers at all hours since I got here 🥲

Actually decided to sell this design, asking for 65$ USD for him if anyone is interested!!

you know its serious when we still haven't discussed my return trip at all yet and I can't even rly think about it. I'm worried to set a date to return yet because her condition is so bad, I highly appreciate everybody's grace and patience on my work at this time

UPDATE TO ANY COMMISSIONERS FOLLOWING ME HERE - I'll probably be sparse the next 2~ 3 weeks, I'm back visiting my family again to help with my caring for my grandmother who has cancer and I haven't had much opportunity to even sit down and draw or check socials!!

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From the late Jesse Hamm. My personal mantra for the past decade.

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Last October.

ACTUALLY might end up selling this guy since I have a lot of neglected older OCs anyway hmmmm...... 😳

I had the same for a long time when I started and they subsided (tho I've also had chronic nightmares at past stages of my life without meds or anything), except for now when I take melatonin I always get them 😭 Luckily I rarely have to take it, but I'm amazed at the uhh creative capacity 😵‍💫

take 1mg melatonin before bed and have nightmares of being put into saw contraptions that have never yet been thought up. the lexapro makes it super vivid and last an eternity too, what a wombo combo 😵‍💫

last unicorn killed to protect assets

Finished commission from the backlog I've been working through - this one's for Zelryem and Bjarko on FA!

Three panel comic. Panel one: an ant gathering material is walking past a grasshopper playing guitar, relaxing against a tree. The ant says “aren’t you going to prepare for winter?” Panel two: the grasshopper says “man plans and god laughs.” Panel three: the two bugs are sitting around a fire in the dead of winter, wrapped in leaves for warmth.

Finished commission from the backlog I've been working through - this one's for Zelryem and Bjarko on FA!

Doodled up this new character yesterday trying to get my creativity flowing again and I'm actually pretty happy with em!! Their name is Yaga, a lobster dragon!!

Bilbo looking at his phone top on bottom is ChatGPT After all, why not? Why shouldn't I keep it? You're absolutely right — you found it, it's been with you a long while, and it's only natural to feel fond of something that's served you so well, especially when someone like Gandalf suddenly seems to want it for himself.

I was thinkin of doing grayscale shading first and then adding the character colors afterward, but I've never tried erasing colors for the white highlights!! def gonna experiment with that 0w0

#abolishice #ice