Aww snap! Here we fucking go for the final time. Hey, I said I was going big with my Vortex cosplay for con. Only thing bigger is a fursuit

Commissioned tail and ears

I will still be offline for the day, probably for a good period of time as I try to go through my working life with my injury.

Lesson learned. Never take something as simple as a thumb for granted. It's partially paralyzed due to a severed nerve that could take months, years to heal if it does

☠️Vigilante Shadow🔫 Born to Lose; Living to Win. 1/2 of LGC

As you know, my door is always opened. For now, I'm about to depart. But please, if I could ask for anything, just words of encouragement would be appreciated. With that, I'm linking my Telegram once more. If you wish to help, please come chat with me.

t.me/PupEclipseDiabolus

I started with nothing, just an idea. I had a chain I'd wear as a tail. The story of my wolf who was brutalized for his differences, saved and given to me as a totem. I never thought years later I would see myself asking this question.

But here I am...alone...in doubt.

I feel I have given myself so many chances to be happy, even as I've gotten older, taking of the oyster the world gives all of us to succeed and be happy. So many things I have done, many more I have missed out on. I think back to all the pain I felt getting here, the nights I've cried

Of all the activities, interests, feeling it happily becoming a part of my life, I have always felt however some part of me that just wasn't good enough or feeling like it was only bringing me struggles to smile, to feel like I truly am happy to be furry. I live with years of doubt I wish was gone

Today is a day of reflection. Yesterday saw a day full of failures. I'm not going to sugar coat it. What tries I had weren't good enough. The mindset I had wasn't strong enough or willful enough. And today I'm facing it. I'm going back 15 years to ask myself...

"Do you still want to be a furry?"

I curled up crying in my bed looking at my wound thinking to myself "this is your wake up call". Trying to get the sensation back in my thumb is...yeah.

There's so much I wanted, but now I want them less. The search is over. No more "pack building".

Self...see the truth.

Most I know are just getting up. I'm just going to bed. Been in the ER. 8 stitches on left wrist.

I'm not talking about it. But change? Lifestyle changes. It's time to leave things behind and move on. People, places, things...

It's okay to take time for yourself. It's okay to ask for help. I guaruntee the people who care about you want you to reach out if you're hurting, and I want you to find the courage to reach out if you are. The world is a better place with you in it.

Horsey still believes in you 💜

Hey I'm not sure who might need to hear this, but in this last week I've seen a lot of hardship happening for so many people. So this is a well being checkpoint -

#FursuitFriday 16/52

Too cool for this normal shit

"These bananas taste funny"

Me: "So those are Fun-anas"?

I may be the only one laughing, but at least I thought it was worth a chuckle or two

I made the conscious decision to get back into pinball after a near year long hiatus, still trying for my second billion points. I just have to say, with that return, it has boosted my self confidence pretty dang high today.

Today actually ended up being a pretty good day. Aside from a sudden burden thrown at me, got home and played the excuse of a casino, made about 11 grand in chips then went into pinball. But now I'm just sleepy

This has the looks of being another chill Wednesday. If that's the case, that would be great!

But you know, as long as I've played digital pinball, I'm certain I'll get my second trillion points before I get even close to a million chips. It's luck vs skill.

*goes into MMO late last night and wins 10,000 chips*

Me: Oh...um...thanks, but you're 240,000 short and um...I just scored about 4 billion points in pinball today so um...you can take that pocket change and stick it up your ass.

-It's basically Four Kings Casino vs The Pinball Arcade now

Hot take: I don't know what technically classifies as a "gamer", but as of last night I'm through with that. In both games I played I had an immense struggle, both of which were internal game problems. And I'm pretty pissed off this morning so... I'll slave it off with manual labor

It seemed to be going well today. Then all of a sudden the coffee maker goes haywire and now I'm irked. Failed communication at that but that's been going on all day.

But it's like, the last three or so hours I've just been in a really pissy mood.

After some careful consideration, the cover idea for nickname "Contagion" will be canceled. In this day and age, music and the songs I cover by other artists are primarily done to relieve anger and stress...not potentially create

I'll leave it to lore

Coffee in one hand, bone in the other this morning. That's how it is this Saturday.

Internet connection drops and go back into a lobby that doesn't have said peoples in it

"Fuck this lobby, she just dug her nails in his back...I wanna go back!"

Holy shit all my years of playing the game I'm in, we've got ERPers...

Woof ya'll it getting hot in here and it ain't the weather

It's a "enjoy drink and play MMO" kind of night

It's about to get silly

Since my collecting Three Days Grace is caught up, I was recommended another artist for my library. You might be surprised to know I have nothing from this man, that was, until Easter. You know what that means! You get one, you get em all!

Welcome to The Library, Rob Zombie

Wolf smut books...

I'm full blooded and while I won't dismiss perusing literature as a means for my dick to stand at attention, actions speak louder than words with this one. They say "read the room" but I don't give a fuck if you grope me and start kissing me on the spot.

THAT'S being a wolf.

Friday is overall running smoothly with little to no need to rush, light work but fuck my body hurts. I need to be home with a hot shower.

Bonus #FursuitFriday entry with the beloved @raineredwing.bsky.social last weekend

If you can't be hated, can't be cringe, then are you really living? Killing The Business, The Vigilante and The Mistress. We're LGC.

THIS is where the new narrative starts.

Nitro and Uno posing in front of Uno's green Challenger at the Project F carshow during Vancoufur 2026

I'm always happy to find new pics with @nitroshep.bsky.social . I needed to show the handsome boy some love 💕

📸: @bsky.smitty.photography

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