if ive learned anything since my bout of mental turmoil; its that life finds a way. that, and to just reach out for help if needed.

it scratches that same itch of like, customizing a MyOshi page or something similar lol

i suppose an idea to get me back into it is to do my favorite thing regarding vtubing;

fiddling with OBS lol

hiatus update:
well, it looks like things have gotten significantly better lately. almost overnight. though im not streaming at the moment, i am once again being creative. regarding that though, a spark of desire to return is developing. ill keep you posted.

thank you for sticking with me 🩵

hiatus update:
my mental health is worsening. this isnt anyone's fault. but im finding that returning this month isnt very likely. i dont know when ill be back. no ETA at this time, because it would be too much pressure right now. thank you for sticking along. please take care of yourselves. 🩵

hey everyone!

i seem to be recovering well with my hiatus. im aiming for sometime in april to return to streaming. c:

i'll see you soon!

yeah, i'm going to go on a little stream hiatus. my emotional state just doesnt seem right for rn.
that being said, i'll probably be making art still, since that seems to be what i *can* do at the moment. if you're interested, its over at @ainoumi.space, be please be aware i do weird fetish stuff.

i might go on a small hiatus...

good afternoon. i'm sorry to say that im also cancelling tonight's stream.

i just... don't feel like my heart is in the right place for it right now. i apologize.

hey uh... dont try to get in my pants. im not into you like that. im just a silly vtuber who makes silly koi renders and stuff.

thanks.

yeah im a dummy. i fixed it

also, i think ive been fucking up my timezone this whole time... >_<

however, something about this particular time of the year has left me emotionally unwell. i really wish i could pin point something more specific.
that being said, if i seem a bit off in the coming weeks, i apologize in advance. im trying my best. 3/3

i was diagnosed with BPD back in November of last year, and i have been working on it since; going to DBT therapy sessions and just generally being more aware of my symptoms.
in the grand scheme of it all, i am doing better than before 2/3

if i may be vulnerable a bit...
in addition to this bout of nausea, lately i havent been doing so hot emotionally, either.
i figure its just a matter of changing seasons, but this chronic emptiness i feel is particularly hard to filter out recently.
dont worry too much about it, its just my BPD. 1/3

im so sorry, but i need to call off stream tonight. i woke up from a nap feeling severely nauseous and unwell.

i was kind of unsure about stream in the first place anyway since my heart doesnt seem to be into it today.

try again tomorrow?

tonight!

re: chuck norris

Chuck Norris - Wikipedia

So Chuck Norris Died. I'm seeing a lot of "RIP" and "Pour one out"

But I feel the need to remind you of his extreme far right beliefs.

He opposed Same Sex marriage.

He was a columnist for the far right WorldNetDaily.

He was a "Birther".

He wasn't a good guy.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chuck_N...

i talked with a friend this morning and i feel a lot better about my day in general now :D

you are loved, and we will win

A retro anime screenshot style illustration of the mascot Chiitan, jumping excitedly into the air while holding a Trans flag and a pistol. Chiitan is a light brown otter-like mascot costume with an open-mouth smile looking to the side, a bow and a turtle atop their head. Behind them is a sketchy rainbow drawing with clouds, and hearts and smiles and flowers and stars in the foreground, all drawn like a child's scribbles. There are captions that say: Chiitan says TRANS RIGHTS!

Thank you for your unending support of Trans folk, @chiitan.love! 🏳️‍🌈

I don't care if you raid me with 1 or 1000 people, I just appreciate that you raided me at all. I can't really imagine acting like the size matters. The important thing is that you thought I was cool enough to show off to your audience. My porcelain shines at the goodwill.

hi mabs!

tonight!

good morning. i kinda, woke up on some strange side of the bed today... but im going to try to remain optimistic, and have a good stream tonight.

an eyecatch featuring Umi in the portal 2, rather than portal 1, outfit; holding a portal gun and looking up at the camera rather worried. the portal logo is layered over Umi, while the background features the beginning level of portal 1

// STREAM ANNOUNCEMENT!
TOMORROW NIGHT! we resume Portal! 8 PM EST/UTC-5! :D
📺 www.twitch.tv/ainoumi_ch
#Vtuber #ENVtuber #Vsky #Twitch #Portal

Akajustmerry Mar 31, 2025 hey uh if you have an unemployed person in your life and they haven't volunteered information about how the job hunt is going, it's probably because it's going badly!!!! and asking said unemployed person how it's going will only make them feel Bad because the job hunt is Bad. I guarantee you that when the unemployed person in your life has a substantial employment update they will tell you about it. otherwise don't ask unless you're literally going to offer them a job. thank youuuuu

this is true now more than ever

a fullbody render of megurine luka, umi's interpretation. she has long, pink, flowy hair, blue eyes, and fair skin. shes wearing a rather tight outfit of shiny, brown material with golden and belted accents.

a bust shot of luka, wearing red glasses.

i think i did okay
#koikatsu #vocaloid #megurineluka

"How do you know that porn was created 100% ethically?" I don't know. How do you know the food you eat was harvested 100% ethically? The clothes you wear? The gadgets you use? Why is it only sex work that must meet 100% purity standards? (It's because people are uncomfortable with sex.)