And some organs

Did more drawing

Drew this instead of doing my PhD work

Accidentally saying "im working like a dog to get this finished" in the vc and getting rinsed about it for 3 solid hours

So the guy from my department missed an important phd meeting for me last week- and then i slept through the follow up today.Truly representing my department lol

Very happy that the transphobic person in my department left

You can tell i like degredation because im doing a postgrad, no normal person would subject themselves to this shit

Yeah this unfortunately is why I immediately stop doing anything when someone else enters the kitchen or a room I'm in it's great to assume anyone entering a space to quietly do something is like actually incandescently angry with you

This policy is weak, if elected i plan to reduce the quantity of bones to an even 10- the plan was you could count them all on your fingers- we did not think this through

ah friday shifts the fucking worst also- the eve of the weekend makes any fucking customer where i work become some kind of actual monster

like idk i used to at least be interestingly non-functional, but im just progressively more effort for people i care about and it just keeps getting worse and i can't keep needing help without being able to offer literally anything in return and i can tell im starting to grate on them and its shit.

im 25 how am i still shit at everything

shits awful i just sort of sit an try to do work on my PHD and work my dumbass fucking job and nothing works and its shit and i did this to myself so i can't even be sad about it-i just can't fucking stop thinking all the time and i make rules and follow them and bad stuff still happens and its shit

I keep on trying to gain weight because idk one day i don't want to be cold all the fucking time but its like actually fucking impossible and like I'm flat broke how the fuck can people afford to eat three meals in a day shit is fucked how am i bad at doing a thing you need to do to live

Truly the only bad thing she does the whole time, honest- believe me

Truly running with bruises i don't remember getting in the unlikeliest of locations like I'm a video game npc that gets generated pre-wounded

idk i just keep getting like progressively more agoraphobic- the just starting transitioning didn't like help but it sucks because i don't mean to isolate myself and shit but it kind of just feels like im getting progressively worse at being a person and incapable of fixing it

i get this at work all the time to the point where "Has Mo bled on shift yet" is a recurring joke- like idk why but its like my blood doesn't want to stay in my body

I should probably go back on anxiety medication, but i keep getting to anxious to speak to a doctor about it- which if you think about it is actually quite funny

Honestly being tall and the most wretchedly submissive bottom is the funniest shit ever because once again someone walked up to my 6'5 self and assumed simply by that metric that i:

A) Top

and

B) Would fold them like a deck chair

Like trust me, all the height and yet I'm much better on my knees.

Huge congratulations- best decision i ever made

House viewing happened today with no prior warning so they saw a harness, 12 empty pouches of tobacco, and so many empty monster energy cans lol

Do love how the second I started using she/her as well as just they/them I started to get constantly he/him'd by like 90 percent of my friendship groups.

Like I got angry about it and got told to calm down and like fuuuck

I'm actually managing to eat properly for the first time in like a year or three and people did not tell me how much food you have to eat a day, like fuck it's so fucking much

Over here being Schroedinger's transgender philosophy loser

So I'm doing a PhD right and I'm planning on doing a conference talk at my uni about like epistemic violence and trans shit.

Is it funnier to preface that with hey I'm trans, or never actually confirm it and instead make some cis academics play the guessing game?

post voice over ^^

always open to feedback! <3

You have such a nice voice btw

NGL it's nice to have an emptier void to scream into

Told someone at work I'm trans and at the end of the shift said verbatim "Good luck with the whole transgender thing"