If I can't have a conversation or if there's no action I can take then yeah I know it's like "what am I doing here then?"

I guess it's just always been a thing with me. I get upset watching people get so in their feelings that they *choose* to simply stay upset over at least building bridges

I tend to force myself to look at that stuff because part of me is thinking "it's not great but it's what's happening and you should know and accept it" and while that's kind of true, another part of me knows that there's not much point unless I can get something productive out of it

I was watching a video about twitter earlier and how the new features with putting foreigners on peoples' for you tab has been making a stir and what I saw in that video plus the comments was just everyone hating everyone and that shit is just upsetting for me to look at.

I'll keep trying to find ways through this but damn is it hard. I really need to stop taking outrage content online so serious, knowing how badly it broke my brain even as far back as 2014 lmao

And it's disappointing to me that the solution I'm faced with is that I'll have to just stop really trying to be online for a while. I don't know if anyone else feels the same way, but I'm so exhausted. I can't even bring myself to feel welcome in spaces related to my own hobbies anymore

It's always eaten me up inside to think that the internet is what it is now. Just a toxic space where everybody hates everybody, when much earlier in my life, I had gotten into using it because I wanted to connect with people who were different from me to begin with. Shit just sucks now

I'm keeping that typo there lmao my keyboard keeps doing me dirty

Not sure exactly why it happened. the developers probably didn't envision people going for relics before gems in certain levels

I did end up going back and getting absolutely everything but I swear this was how it happened. I beat Cortex the second time and *then* went back to get Hot Coco's gem

I'm still happy I managed to get all the platinums in this game. If you're wondering why I'm on NTCS-J, it was so I could play a version where the secret level times load correctly.

Also I ran into a bug where I was able to do the second cortex fight when I was still missing one gem

FF9 was so misunderstood and overlooked until relatively recently but I'm really happy it gets its flowers now. People are finally able to see in it what I saw in 2013/14

It's not even my favorite favorite. That title goes to FF9 which is a basic bitcg opinion now but a decade ago it wasn't and 9's been my favorite that whole time

I mean you have a lot of good reasons to not like it. Most of the side content being not great is a big one. And if you really love all the ones that came before it then that's also understandable

But I'll seriously defend the story lmao that's the hill I feel I can die on

FFX overrated? Nahhhhh
Fighting words

Also yes if you truly want to go for that kind of art, it would be nice to see

Any variation of "erotic" just feels the most tasteful so I go for it pretty often

Word depends on the room. I usually just call it porn or "ero"

The thought is sort of based off a myth anyway that people go right when they get older when actually, it's more like people go more rightward when they get wealthier which happens as they age. Most regular people will actually just stay the same

Don't do it, don't give me hope

I saw everyone doing 3x3s of games and I considered doing one too but I can't narrow faves that far down so have a 5x5. I did this a few years ago but this one's changed up a little. I just went for what represents my tastes.

25 games that changed my brain chemistry

I suppose I could, actually

Really I'm thinking about doing it and just showing friends but who knows

It would be nice to share my own story in a creative and entertaining way through doodles. I know for a fact it's very likely that at least twitter would bully me though.

I always wanted to make a sort of journal comic about my problems because it could help my expression and generally be fun but doing so would involve so many deeply personal things for me that sharing it on social media might be dangerous with how hostile audiences can be and that's a shame

I need this but for mobile

It still doesn't feel real

Sometimes it helps to appreciate the life you have and the little things that make it worth living. Whether life is sweet or sour. Those things can make you smile!

And I don't really even think I'm capable of making the kinds of things I want to so I'm just being petty. It's a bad habit