it's been awhile oops ^^'
#riolu #pmd

It’s still so jarring to see him online. To see him around. To see friends in the same spaces as him.

This object permanence stuff is rough. I still want him to be happy, it’s just hard seeing it and knowing about
Well
Us

Every generation needs its Galaxy Quest: a movie that, despite every individual element screaming that it can't be good, is actually good

wait holy shit

Some sketches from today! Trying to get into the habit of drawing frequently again 😵‍💫

It’s so hard not to dwell on it when I’m on my own.

I’ve been keeping myself busy. Friends, work, finals, writing, clubs, it’s a lot. I’m tired. I’m worn out.

When I slow down, I start thinking about it again. That’s when it starts hurting again.

I hope he’s doing better than I am.

Is it weird to really want to be friends with someone you've done nothing more than exchange passing words with?

I'm naming names, I don't wanna make this too awkward. Especially if this ends up on their feed.

Still, they're cool, friend of some friends... I guess we're just in different circles.

I wonder if it’d make things worse if I kept track of the time that’s passed.

Hey you should procrastinate more often

(Don’t)

Lucario doodles to procrastinate doing my schoolwork

Pika in dangerous situations gives me life

Am I crazy for still loving him?

Drawing of a riolu and a zorua with matching green scarves. the riolu has a bag with necrozma's symble on it. they're looking confidently at each other. the zorua has white tail and ear tips and an explorer's bag.

Commission of Team Oblivion for @leaderblaze.bsky.social ! <3
PMD commissions -> ko-fi.com/c/9fc3bade0a

drawing of a PMD team, a vulpix and a riolu. they're surrounded by thorny grounds. the vulpix smiles to the unsure riolu and says, "I'll be right by your side!"

commission of Team Melancholy for @galifloofderg.bsky.social ! <3

PMD team comms -> ko-fi.com/c/9fc3bade0a

I feel like a crazy ex. Jesus Christ.

I never realized how hard it would be to see the other person keep going. Like nothing happened.

I think the part that hurts the most about all this is the love.

The love I still have. The love with nowhere to go anymore.

I was born to love. To be affectionate. To be all over someone and dote on them like a big golden retriever.

That’s gone now.

Today was rough, and laying down now, I’m still yearning.

I realized that I don’t know what it’s like for him. To be on the other side of this. I’m mad, I’m upset, I’m despondent, but… I think I’m starting to get it, I guess.

Why he needed to let go.

Maybe I’m wrong.

It’s lonely either way.

Were the stars I looked up at with you fake too?

Am I a freak, am I too attached for wondering how you’re doing? What you’re doing? How you’re handling this?

Is it… wrong of me to not want to see you again, no matter how much I want to go back to what we used to have together?

I can’t help but wonder if I ever meant as much to you as you did to me.

Is that… wrong? Is that selfish?
I don’t know.

I feel like I’m not considering how he felt, in all my grief. It’s weird.

Maybe I felt at arm’s length because he knew he wanted to do this anyway.

…I don’t think that’s true.

It’s hard going through my files and seeing the joy you brought me before.

It’s hard going through old messages and seeing the patterns lining up before you decided to break the news.

It’s hard to know how much I yearned for you, *still* feel that way, and realize I don’t know when you stopped.

I really don’t want to turn this into a vent account or air out too much of this publicly. Please don’t harass my former partner—not that anyone who follows me WOULD, I just

Iunno. I feel like I have to say that.

Either way, it’s… really hard looking back on these past two years now.

I can’t publish this as a book I’ll get dropped by copyright lawyers

How do I tell them I’m writing young adult fanfiction for a 2009 youth-audience video game

I apologize for the lack of progress updates regarding Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers Eternal.

College decided that this would be the week it got busy, and a recent breakup has left me reeling.

Chapter 9 is 70% complete. Please continue to look forward to it.

Riolu hours!

$15?! Splendid . I gotta sort a few things out first but if there’s still spots when I’m done with that lord knows I’ll be getting to it

All I ask is for you to be there
By my side 🎵
#riolu #pmd #mysterydungeon