oh that ended up being cancelled bc dude got crazy intense crazy quick

i’m going on a date later w this guy who tried to act like he knew what researchers are and what they do better than i do and got all condescending abt it. but, apologized and said he didn’t intend to mansplain my own fucking job and etc. we’ll see how that goes

i’m tiredddd i wanna go homeeeee but this meeting is taking the full goddamn hour

stop deciding i’m a dom im notttt stop trying to force me to top you i wontttt unless we’re switching

genuinely this is criminal

watching the first season of the pitt. having that autist to autist connection w dr mel

dw his bf is dd and also completely sober. which also raises questions to me- how can a sober person date someone who does this whenever they drink?

ugh. kinda irritated. why tf is my brother, who had maybe the same amount to drink as i did, puking in his bfs car? several times over? dude did not make sure to have water between drinks. irritated bc he’s already gotten a dui. when is he gonna learn how to handle his liquor

lmao you think i was being held at gunpoint during karaoke. i literally signed myself up for this but my voice is cracking im shaking sweating

going out w my older brother tonight, younger brother won’t be in attendance. for some reason i’m anxious about that fact

the piercer i went to yesterday used a butterfly back for my new lobes. breh. i ordered some 20g titanium posts to switch them to myself, im not abt to deal w butterfly back drama

lmfao my moms a real one. i told her im thinking abt going exclusive w someone. “ok but they’re gonna be 2 hours away for 2 months soon…. can’t you wait until after that so you can keep meeting new people?” REALLLLL good question girl!!!!

i’ve not even messaged him but ik if i did he’d be here within the hour. idk why this urge is so hard for me to resist rn i should not have skipped my therapy session earlier

hey guys can y’all reaffirm that i should NOT fuck my ex tonight on our 9 yr anniversary

toph

i fr forget i have all that. if that’s what only two leg days a week does to me imagine if i actually cared abt growing my glutes

i never rlly wear leggings unless im going to the gym but i did today. and when i do wear them out i usually wear em w a pump cover. nope, tiny top tight pants today. just saw my ass in my reflection and said “jesus!” out loud

drove to see my brother, then back near me to get my third lobes done. i’m kinda irritable today, probably from all the driving

jk my poor therapist lost her voice so we rescheduled for next friday

good morningggggg it’s 10 am so i should go to the gym now so as not to miss my 12pm therapy

wait i just realized john and i were fucking for 9 months before he moved out of state. i feel like i could call him an ex

going to sleep when i still have 10 ao3 tabs open:

i’m so thrilled to be back at my 5 days a week schedule, 3 of these days involving some degree of bicep work. i can’t wait to be properly huge, i’m already looking much better than directly post mono

save me, substance abuse and white cheddar cheez its!!

didn’t register as a flirt tho until after i was just mentally like?? i don’t wanna touch ur stuff

yuck some college boys just hit on me (i think) in the gym. they had their shit on a bench, i asked if it was free. they said yes, then didnt get their shit. i said okay cool i just didn’t wanna touch your stuff. one says oh you can touch my stuff all you want. bruh. pls just get ur shit

DONT TALK TO ME WHILE IM PEEING OMFG I CANT DO IT DONT TALK TO ME WHEN IM IN THE BATHROOM HOW IS THAT A NORMAL THING PWOPLE DO??????

dude i’m just so glad that people know it’s not my fault that my PIs for my problem project drag their feet about ACTUALLY DOING ANYTHING. long as they know it’s their doing not mine im fine

a screenshot of a tiktok video, w the comments open. the tiktok is a drawing of zuko and dolls from avatar the last airbender in an awkward embrace, zukos face shown blushing with the word “*BLUSH*” written next to his head

NOOOOO this coworker i have a bit of like a crush on and a lot of admiration for came over to my desk to ask me abt one of the studies we both work on and i only realized after the fact that my phone screen was unlocked w this tiktok paused the whole time. got me looking like a yaoi gooner

i think that esp if i’m even beefier in october w no bra nipple piercings on display would be very slutty (pos)