i still used the same hair treatment and still occassionally showered with hot water before i took my new meds.... seems like it was caused by stress all along

i think my new meds repaired my hair-fall??? helloooo???

im just tired. everytime i want to change my fate, theres always something in my way preventing me from achieving my goals

there sure are progress and achievements in the past 2 years, but it's a v slow progress and not some big life-changing events

not to be a doomer but i dont wanna set my expectation too high for 2025 or say stuff like "this is gonna be my year" etc etc
i'll do my best as much as i can but im not gonna expect too much

vtuber drama from other company (and social media drama in general)

reading news about my county only makes me angry
my irl situation also makes me angry
i dont know if i can still be hopeful next year...

twitter's blue checkmark users makes the app unbearable to use now please i dont want to move yet

i dont understand these people's obsession with protecting the image of the company...

i dont even like 🌈 that much (since long time ago before 🏆's termination) but why would you drag them on this when it's the company's own problem

4 talents left with similar reasons only in a year? really?

despite everything, i will stay kind. eventho i know that my kindness will be taken advantage of by the wrong people someday, at least i know my boundaries now

sometimes i hate myself everytime i remember how nice i was to people who dont even give af about me

how couldnt i go insane when ive always tried to be understanding, gave people second chances, put aside my feelings, only to be treated like a doormat by the same people

true. they cant stay relying on the fans hype bc after all, we still have less power than the company

i cant say much bc got into stars only after tmps debuted, but already know the existence of jp boys since 2020. i do feel like the boys arent advertised/promoted enough since then. i only discovered them from yt fan clips

"its bc the girls dont support and interacted with the boys enough"

"its bc the boys arent as popular as male vtubers from other company"

sighs....

my dreams in the past week are weird and i dont know why

even if one day they all no longer streaming anymore, their story still can be continued in other form of media. manga, drama cd, animation, voice acting opportunity if they get to keep their ip without graduation

but again, its all just a wishful thinking

if not voicepack, audio drama would be cool too.... sobs uhdhdj

- brand collabs
- irasutoya collab
- holostars hologra.....
- not content but i wish the boys will get the opportunity to be voice actors for games or animations someday

wishfully thinking, what official content do i want from tempus boys if budget and perms werent the problems?

- more manga chapters pls WHO IS THE MISSING PERSON IN ALTARES PHOTO
- lore voicepack about going in an adventure with the boys. doesnt need to have romance vibe in it
- english song cover

nooooooo....

bro i thought bsky was free from b0t accounts?? lol

i clearly am not the right female audience to speak about this though. i dont have specific niche i like. i love both masculine and feminine stuff. i dont really care if something is marketed for men or women as long as it brings me joy and give me hyperfixation

as a tomboy woman, i personally love the unisex appeal of holostars boys. but it's management's job to decide if they want to balance the appeals for all genders, or if they want easier and quicker success, they gotta to choose if they prefer male or female audience more

and after all, these boys are supposed to be idols, but there are so many successful male idols out there. holostars boys have multiple appeals in them. its really sad that they dont get enough support from whoever handling them

my most favorite manga is a seinen manga, sbfp was the only youtubers i watched when i was younger, which i think thats why i was interested to tempus. these boys gives me those similar feelings. those two things are/were succesful in their own way, but can the boys achieve the same success?

i dont know much about marketing but holostars to me feels like a seinen animanga which also loved by a big number of female audience. but the thing is, is it even possible to learn how to gain that number of female audience from a completely different kind of media?

just wanna be a chill gal in a chill world. no yap just vibe. maybe i do inherited my dad's lawyer blood after all. i hate how much we have in common no matter how hard i try to deny it