I want it so bad but its so fucking difficult

And like being able to reach my goal is so far away from that. And even then if I am able to make myself reach that im unconfident and full of anxiety about my appearance all the time I dont think id be able to dress like it

Weight first and thats such a struggle cause like to be healthy about it and end up with as little loose skin as possible you only wanna loose a pound a week, which isnt fast. And I l9ve food and this is America and im not rich so everything is way too calorie dense

Theres this one guy on Instagram who's like actually so hot and has amazing fashion and I wanna be able to like dress like him and like even like look half as good as him and like when I eventually loose weight maybe I can do that even though I hate how wide my shoulders are but I have to loose-

Simultaneously wanna be called a good boy and cuddle someone and be able to call them a good boy

Blood Sport (from the room below) YouTube video by Sleep Token - Topic

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well, it is a nsfw account, so might as well finally share this cause I refused to on my main

can't lie, real as fuck

I just wanna be able to like, lay in bed and hold a cute persons hand while we listen to sleep token, is that too much to ask?

Hmm... pats your head

Following now!

Me me me

Would be happy to be your friend to, take all the time you need oomf

Real its so difficult 😭

Extending the invite just in case but if you ever wanted to talk ill always be up to try and make new friends, even if we both struggle a bit with talking to people

That last question I answer in the thread, damn, I wanna have more deep conversations with people 😭

Id definitely try it tho, even if i struggle to answer things

That sounds kinda fun and interesting but also scary, idk how id handle answering questions like that and I know id probably overthink the fuck out of some of them

All Summer Long YouTube video by Ally Nicholas - Topic

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I meann, if you have enough to go off of then be my guest, id love that

Kasper is apparently too good at typeology, now I wanna know what my thing is

actually while i'm here can i say that sex is an art form and it's a biblical virtue and it's a painted masterpiece and it's a dance that only you and your partner know and a song only you can sing and people that see sex as just. two sweaty bodies moving together ARE DISGUSTING.

Love you too chiitan

EXACTLY, I FEEL LIKE I JUST GOTTA STOP EXISTING FOR A BIT

Gethsemane YouTube video by Sleep Token - Topic

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Beautiful song btw

If anyone's curious I was in fact listening to emotionally devastating music while typing this

Id like to think ill be ready for love again one day, if I can lock in and be happier with how I look maybe I will be. And I hope when I am ready that the 2nd time will at least feel half as special as the first love.

Like a good morning text, or just if I did something even mildly interesting that day and he was really clearly actually interested in hearing about it and I never felt like there was a chance it wasn't genuine. For me with my anxiety thats huge thats i never doubted it for a second even in the end

Mild vent. Sometimes I think of what it was like being with my ex/my only romantic partner i ever had. I don't miss him but god do I miss the feeling of just like, knowing there is someone out there who truly loves me for who I am and like the feeling of knowing they were happy to see something as-

Need that

So real actually, I always try to but god its scary. I tend to leave my phone somewhere far away and pretend it doesnt exist after dming someone for the first time 😭