dealing with back to back murder & child sex cases at work, the news is always shit, been feeling distinctly sad & low-confidence about my hobby that I use as an outlet. stressed myself out so bad I got sick. making an effort to turn this around but it’s hard, man
Getting woobly thinking about how every time I call them they look at me with their big blown out pupils and scraggly fur, get up and happily come over to me anyway. think pets should just not have to age actually
16 years is old for a cat and they’ve been pretty healthy up to this point, which I do feel ok about. Just starting to see the end of the line on the horizon is. Man.
Trying not to let it get to me too much rn but I took my cats to the vet last night and. I mean, yeah, they’re super elderly and are really starting to show signs of it. Both of them have thyroid issues now. Getting some blood work done to see whats going on behind the scenes. Just sucks man
the disorder is disordering i guess, been so stupid sad and scared this past week to the point of paralysis. backslid. feel like i can't do anything right
Fucked up that it would be so much money though!
Seriously contemplating going back to school so I can get a JD and go into immigration law. Because jfc
Feel like I’m about to explode but at least I brought my treadmill to work so I can be a human hamster on a wheel
Really weird brainworm thing that comes up a lot when I send any message via text: Actually what you typed there is completely incoherent gibberish and it makes no sense. you should undertake a vow of silence
was trying to parse out why I was feeling freaked out this morning. Everyone’s Mad At Me dream, bro. come on
“erm ackshually her wings are a different color than that” the ref was traditional and a little hard to parse. it’s free. and also what if I shoved you into a locker
”draw the person above you” game that I liked doing to make funny art for kids suddenly becoming a lot less fun now that mods are docking people for not following design elements to a T. aight
ahh man, vet confirmed that Freya doesn’t have much longer. trachea is near collapsed and the heart failure is late stage. really hoped we‘d get more time with her
well holy shit: we won the preliminary hearing! still have a way to go but I get to keep my job 🎉
hrrhg as I was leaving today one of the attorneys stopped me and told me to hit him up as a reference if I have to start looking for a new job. makes it feel a little better
job Hearing starts in 5 minutes. Let’s hope for the best
GRRGR GARR GRAR GRR. I like her:)
anndddd freya has heart failure. why can’t it just be one thing at a time
Anyways. Ate a dog treat today. peer pressured into it. Not good
Particular sort of nasty where I feel like putting my head in a blender
CROSSING MY FINGERS BUT ITS NOT LOOKING GOOD. hoping i know for certain by next week. Its this damn lawsuit, whole firm might be cooked
looking increasingly like i might be getting laid off hahah fuckkkkk
still going. i feel annoooooying. goddamn
Receiving curse of 1,000 paper cuts of the brain. @ 🧠 whats your roblem
getting wind that I could be losing my job depending on how the next hearing for this lawsuit goes. h
inexplicable “is everyone mad at me” sort of day. Sets my brain ablaze
Grisly crime scene photos finally Hitting just as I’m about to fall asleep. which I shouldve anticipated but eeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Keep kinda teetering on the brink here. Usually the bleak shit (jobful) doesn’t get to me this bad but I think not having anywhere to put it is driving me up the wall a little. Then feel guilty about it because there’s folks dealing with so much worse
Mood kinda obliterated bro. Fuck. lays down
rapidly flopping between feeling like I’m Too Much but then also that I simply don’t do enough. @ the skull sponge can you Pick a struggle please