Be my nightengale

Idk I guess I just thought that if someone's trying to get into your pants then that is an ulterior motive and not to be trusted because what if they just leave after they get what they want
(Or I'm just. *Really* ace.)

I was thinking about what bf!Mae wants vs what bf!Mae needs and my go-to was friendship/family for a dependable relationship, because it didn't occur to me that a romantic relationship can also be dependable

I have a bias that is expressing itself in a weird way
I guess I didn't expect it
I'm asexual. I prefer duos and friendships over the more traditional kind of ship

somebody please lie to my face
someone say it's gonna be okay
you know i come here when i need an escape, but
i dont know how long i have to be away

I think they might have deleted their bsky

No matter what I disassociate for two or three hours every night. But if I plan it, at least I go to bed on time. But if I plan it, then I never get anything else done

Oh my God I never posted the finished haunted winter apokuna artwork here

Ballpoint pen sketch of bannerfall apokuna with a slightly different outfit. Some labels explain what color each fabric part is supposed to be (but isn't)

Pencil sketch using a photo reference of apokuna blushing, grinning, and twirling their hair.

Pencil sketch of Apokuna and Cherrifire's observatory/house in bannerfall smp.

Traditional art of Bannerfall apokuna wearing three different prom dresses. The first is traditional princess cut poofy skirt that is midnight blue. The Apo wearing it has a dubious expression on her face looking down at it. The second is a strapless teal mermaid cut, hugging their figure and spreading out in a train at the knees with pearls attached to the train, with a sliver white embroidered design on the front. The Apo in this dress is looking off to the side uncomfortable. The third is an empire cut green dress that has a chiffon layer over top a silk layer. This Apo has fully turned her head to the side with a resigned expression, although her chin is up and her shoulders are back. All the Apos have excellent posture and have their star hair clip.

I've drawn her every two weeks pretty consistently for about three years now... And that's wild to think about. Anyway have a #sketchdump

#bannerfallfanart #traditionalart #art

A screenshot of a tweet that says: Your art will betray you. It will look better in your head than on paper. It will make you feel untalented some days. Love it anyway. Because one day, it will also surprise you, fulfill you, and remind you why you started.

Throwback to something worth repeating.

no one is safe

Creative spirit help me to express this through art because words are scary and people are scary and I need to express this fear but I fear the pain

The pain born of rejection, of dismissal, of contempt, of being alone
Of being alone
Alone

Full body of the artwork. Image is highly saturated traditional art made primarily with markers but also with colored pencils and some iridescent ink.

Image is highly saturated traditional art made primarily with markers but also with colored pencils and some iridescent ink. This photo shows the background sunset ombre done with the materials used lying across the outline of the blank figure in the middle.

A sketch of bf!Apokuna in blue pencil with red eyes. She has jumped in the air and is aiming a spear at the viewer, pulled back to strike in the next instant. They have a somewhat disgusted look on their face.

#bannerfallsmp #bannerfallsmpfanart #apokunafanart I always forget the hashtags smh

Anyway here's some #art process pics for the above artwork

Bf!Apokuna looks directly at the viewer, aiming a spear. Their arm, hair, and cape position show dramatic movement: she is flying through the air. There is a metallic sheen on their armor and spear. Her cloak sparkles. Their pupils are dragon eyes.

POV: you threatened the princess

#BannerfallSMP #apokuna headcanon.

Moon knights are the ones you call in a crisis. The most reliable. The ones you can rely on in your darkest hour. A darkest hour like... Midnight, one could say.

One time I had a dream that everyone could live

Everyone could live

Everyone could live

People talked and decided not to be upset and loved the eachother, truly loved one another.

I fear that dream has died a thousand deaths

...but.
infernal hope springs anew to torture us with living

:/

Ballerina bf!Mae with yellow marker and red green and black ballpoint pen doing an arabesque

Red ballpoint pen portrait of Princess Knight Cherrifire

Closeup of dragonkuna's face. Their expression is alert and slightly amused, focused.

Dragonkuna drawn in red, green, and blue ballpoint pen. This was my prediction for bf!Apo's character before the announcement came out. She's holding a mace and has green scales across her wings and skin, with her long nail-talons painted blue. There's a sneaky eye doodle in the corner.

And more #Bannerfall #fanart yesterday

Closeup pencil sketch of very serious and stoic bf!Apo with blue hair but without her star pin

Closeup of bf!Apo smiling contentedly and blushing.

Colored pencil sketch of bf!Apo looking at bf!Cherri from behind, blushing and smiling. Bf!Cherri has tears in her one visible eye.

Various sketches and also a note to maezes_

#Bannerfall #fanart sketches today

Phone Internet please I'm dying you can't just show me a notif that I can't check

thank you

Responsibility and pain aren't even correlated dumbass stop this

Ok and, hear me out, why do other people's words and actions hurt me if I'm not responsible for them?

Photo portrait of white cat badly taken cat looks uninterested or unamused

Photo portrait of white cat badly taken cat is getting chin scratches and happy about it

Photo portrait of white cat badly taken extreme closeup looking shocked off camera to the right

Photo portrait of white cat badly taken

Ginny appreciation post

Except for Ginny
Ginny makes me feel safe

Nowhere is safe

Drawing of "it's not that bad". Text is negative space surrounded by black ink, arched like a rainbow

Pencil sketch of haunted winter apo smiling and reaching for the viewer. Above her head is written "it's not that bad" and next to their reaching hand is "we'll be together soon." Their face is more rendered than the rest of the artwork, including her bangs. Her mascara is running on one side. They look a little manic.

Color experiment sketch based on a photo posted of twitchcon with (left to right) CherriFire, 4C, and Apokuna. The main color is red, but the sketch also includes teal and brown mixed in, especially in the hair and eyes.

Pencil sketch study of Apokuna on brown paper based on a photo reference. I'm very proud of how this turned out. They're looking at the viewer with a small smile that looks like it's about to bloom into a full smile or laugh. Her eyes are smiling, too. Their hair is mostly wavy with one lock curly enough to become a spiral. Her glasses are included in this sketch.

#Art dump for the past week
We got:
WIPx2
Color test sketch
Apokuna study that came out really well

If I do fan work for vampires smp, it will be yuri

Your turn to do spooky yaoi c:

Just you, holding me so far above the ground that it's not just my head in the clouds but my whole body,
untethered
free floating
wherever you want to go,
I have no say

At least
you're holding me.

Today, creative spirit, you are a dragon
and I am in your grasp, arms pinned to my sides, terrified gaze fixed only down at the terrifying distance I could fall if you just loosen your grip.
No control.
No agency.