Every time, its all so far out of reach.

Im never getting him back. Plainly, for sure stated to me. Its complete heartbreak and theres nothing I can do to mend it.

Whats worse, this was all destined to happen. Morning I couldve done couldve changed this outcome! My last modicum of hope and happiness were taken from me and theres nothing that couldve prevented it.

You must all really hate me.

In a way, Im more alone than Ive ever been.

And I know for sure because nobody ever bothers to reassure me when I spiral like this. Nobody answers a cry for help. Thats what Ive learned on this stupid website.

Nothing good could ever come from knowing me.

No use in keeping me around.

Im just a waste.

Shouldve tried before I even broke up with the last guy.

Youdve been better off never having met me.

Youd be better off.

Thingsd be better off.

If only I was brave.

If only I had the courage.

I dont want to live like this. I just cant bear it.

Theres no longer a guarantee Ill even see tomorrow.

Theres no point in bothering if you wont love me. Theres no guarantee Ill live that long. Itll just be a waste.

I dont want you to visit me.

I really would have ended it if he didnt show up. Oh Rich... Oh god Rich

All those dreams and plans were all that were keeping me alive

Genuinely Ive got no reasons left to live and Im trying so hard not to do anything about that fact because I said I wouldnt.

I dont what to be here anymore. Im tried of enduring and enduring all to be hurt worse and worse every time.

How much is it was even real?

Ill never be happy.

Strung along by the most perfect partners I could even feasibly dream up.

Theres nothing left.

Its all over.

My life is over.