A different nurse that did take my weight also put me a cm taller, no one has measured me at 168cm before it's always been 167cm so I probably can't actually claim the extra height

Thank youu 💕 it's the gas more than anything, they pumped my torso full of Co2 n thats whats gonna kill me off more than anything goodnessss

Smashed it 💪

I am alive!!

(I assume it went okay I never actually met my doctor while conscious so I assume if I was cleared to go home it was fine lol I'll find out in a few weeks at the follow up)

As I was going in to theatre the nurse decided I needed the smallest blood pressure cuff and asked me how much I weighed n it was lowkey validating as fuck

I am ALIVE & I am HOME

Finally spoke to someone, I'm 3rd on the list for surgery today they reckon I'll be in before 12 - why do they make you come in so early only to have you sit in a waiting room by yourself for hours and hours and hours

You have such beautiful eyes omg like a deer

I'm about to set off to the hospital for my surgery everyone wish me a merry goodluck being cut open

I was shining my phone torch right in my eyes and they still react to light it's just they go back big after

I've just checked and it's not that bad, fasting from midnight the morning of. No clear fluids after 6am, check in at 7am, then the surgery can be any time between 8am and 11pm. That's really not that bad all things considered

I don't eeven know when I'm supposed to start fasting for it lol

Surgery is in 2 days and I have not prepared in the slightest I am in full blown avoidence mode

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This is all I need to know to know this would be us irl

Mine stops as soon as I'm awake like there's no leftover panic at all it's so weird

I already sleep w so much comfort stuff 😅 maybe this is my sign to buy ANOTHER weighted blanket

I used to have the wildest dreams about these vultures as a kid that would threaten to kill everyone I cared about if I didn't do what they said n I was so scared of sleeping omg. I literally had to hide or I couldn't fall asleep it was so scaryyyy

Clocked ✌️ yes ahaha, I got the AuDHD CPTSD (&friends) turbo ultra combo deal

But I'm still asleep

Like in my dream I'll start having a panic attack or a meltdown and in real life I'll start hyperventilating and crying out

Does anyone else have panic attacks while they sleep? I've been getting them loads lately 🥴

I'm literally a big poo away from my first gw but I can't be excited about it cause I wasn't supposed to lose any more before my surgery

You have to have treats, even if you only manage every few months you are always deserving of a treat 🫶 life is hard, eat the treat & let yourself have that moment 🥺💕

She's right, it's gorgeous!! & so are you!!

Like yeah they are becoming unaffordable to shovat which is a joke but why is the solution predatory financial practices instead of finding ways to make it so people can afford them eugh

Living in a deprived area is wild cause what do you mean the local charity shops are offering payment plans now

I managed a small trip outside tofay

I love I love I love

It's complicated cause I have undiagnosed GI problems my dr keeps fobbing off & it's actually really difficult to eat normal amounts of food. I was forcing my way through the pain for ages & ages but then I relapsed & I don't want to give up the relief at all :( even 800 sets me off a lil

I'm genuinely trying so hard like I was super low res before and I've doubled my intake which is a huge deal already but the idea of having to basically double it again is just so much