It's been a really shit day but I've spent the last half hour watching a large pod of gray whales and three friendly dogs just harassed me for pets and scritches so it's all good now.

It was actually Mark Lanegan, who regularly got mistaken for Will Ferrell on account of his appearance. He was doing the spirit cookout thing or whatever in between killing Kurt Cobain and writing insanely good memoirs.

a good person and good community member had an awful thing happen. y'all know how i feel about fire safety and fire suppression, so it's particularly painful when those systems are not in place and someone loses so much.

spreading the word here for them. 💚

So I guess I can't even file the application for estate transfer on my dad's trailer until 30 days after his death, and then there's a 4 month period after that for any creditors to file liens. So half of the reason for this trip is a dead letter. What a nightmarish hassle.

Genki Takabayashi, this guy:

One time I went liquor shopping with a Rinzai Zen monk. He bought two bottles of everything he wanted and introduced me to Suntory whiskey that evening.

I've started the packing, am about to start on transfer documents and need to be nose to the grindstone. But I'm gonna need to take some moments to appreciate the better things in this area just to maintain my mental health.

My work leave was approved which means I'll be paid out my vacation time while out here. Downside is that this is my vacation this year, doing the loneliest thing I've ever done. I value solitude but this is just loneliness.

Also the film is incredible, check it out.

I've been kicking myself for not grabbing a tape recorder and getting some of my Dad's life stories(if you have elders you are on good terms with, do something like this- memory is everything) but packing his books I discovered he already wrote them down. Multiple notebooks.

I like that U2 song about the guy who cums on barbed wire fences

Scenes from the beach at night

OMG UR JUS asBAD ASS MAGA

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Folks in my Dad's park should do this. If you're in Missoula be sure to make the Tenants Union/FNB benefit at the ZACC on Saturday.

Boosting my venmo again, still gotta cover lot rent plus at least one month's utility bills and Dad's Subaru is gonna need some work if I'm gonna get it home without fingers crossed the whole way.

A message to Sickos abandoning All-American Alcohol for the Latest Fad “420 Day”:

Just because you CANnabis doesn't mean you SHOULDabis.

@theonion.com

The other day I learned that a church in the next town is hosting a fundraiser for Israel. Yesterday I saw three people sleeping on the ground in the parking lot of the drug store that went out of business. "WWJD" or something.

The IDF boast & joke about smashing an idol of a white man, and it warrants widespread outrage, and official disavowals. The IDF boast & joke about smashing actual human beings in Gaza into bloody pulp and it warrants... nothing. Nothing but accusations of antisemitism against those who do complain.

It will if it solidly hits the body, not just grazes an extremity.

I forgot how many bats are on the beach at night. This is awesome.

the history of the U.S.-the blood-soaked, urine-steeped essence of its being; the wreckage and demise of its human character under the wheels of a two-hundred-year-old headlong flight with heedless, frightened animals at the controls of a machine that has mastered them-allows for no appeal on a strictly ideological level. George Wallace or Adolf Hitler would fare better at the polls of an honest election than Huey Newton and Tom Hayden. But again, what is an honest election after the fact of monopoly capital? -george jackson

here it is. i never finished the book it's from but this quote has always struck me very deeply

Or crabs.

"It has eight legs and a hard shell. They can pinch you but are delicious"

"Oh so like crawdads"

"Yes but also no".

Some of the similar bird life on the coast has me wondering if these cranes and osprey have close relatives in Montana. Wonder if they ever visit and try to explain whales and sea lions.

It's been a week now and I'm sitting here looking at his spot on the couch, where his tobacco and papers are like he might shuffle in and ask if it's time for a game of crib.

My sister headed home to eastern Oregon this morning so now it's just me here in an otherwise empty trailer. Odd feeling really. Squared away some of the stuff Dad left out in a hurry but I don't have much motivation past that. May be time to go sit by the ocean for a while, collect my thoughts.

I often say this line while driving when the person ahead of me won't hurry up and make the turn/do the thing/get out of the way.

o7

This is quite a place. But it isn't the same without Dad.