I really want to burn everything to the ground tonight. I want to delete all my accounts and just hide. I feel like I'm truly unlovable. I'm too damaged and will never be loved or cared for. I feel like I'll never be okay again. I just want to feel safe and loved. It will never happen.

Lol I have nothing to offer

I dunno. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I completely and totally can never set foot in that bar without having a nervous breakdown over the fear of getting graped and beaten.

Better than the entirety of mania

I just feel like I'll never be able to move past my shit, never be able to make friends locally, never be able to find love like I dream of. I truly feel trapped in my life and like nothing will ever get better. Why should I even try anymore? What's the point of anything?

My therapist suggested that one of the bars local would be friendly to bigger guys. It's also a bar that's pretty friendly to kink and fetish and the idea of putting myself in that environment feels so unsafe to me.

I know, grow the fuck up, right?

Plus I'm finding myself increasingly triggered by the idea of kink. A lot of kink, esp impact play and degradation/humiliation has always felt unsafe to me but I've been able to tolerate there thought of others consensually engaging but lately I even think of that lately.

I've been officially diagnosed with body dysmorphia, as my therapist thinks that I have an unhealthy obsession with how I perceive my body to be so drastically different than other bears and thus extremely undesirable and disgusting. I just see it as being honest. But I guess I'm wrong.

Bruh it didn't help that it kinda sucked but my heart just wasn't in Mania this year. Been fighting my depression hard as of late. This week I was triggered really bad in therapy and can't lie feeling pretty hopeless about my life. But it's whatever. Thread? Thread. ⬇️

Like fuck Brock. Lolol

I love him but CM Punk is 47 years old and he has the opportunity to do the funniest thing right here.

I could never hate my Punky Brewster

I agree. She's really improved even since she went solo from Bianca...

I can see it

Rhea's kinda serving Bosco, am I crazy?

Omg Rhea Ripley looks the best she's looked in a long time. Her hair, her skin, her gear... She should rock different colored eye shadow more often.

It's still off to me. I dunno.

Remember when Trick Williams was relegated to being Carmelo Hayes' hype man? Now he's full on serving Drag Race runway at Mania with a second rate rapper playing Prince Nana for him.

Last night was a disappointment all around. And I know Punk is gonna lose tonight. I think I'm done watching Mania. Wake me up when the first NXT call up happens tomorrow.

I dislike Lesnar. I like Oba.

Bye bitch.

Sorry to hear about your friend.

I didn't actually watch Drag Race this season. Kinda sad about that but it just doesn't thrill me anymore. Maybe if I had friends to watch. And maybe wrestling too. Sigh lol

Omg omg omg omg omg

I'm tempted!

Guess I'll just take FCF photos to post on my alt tomorrow instead 🥴

Uh oh, once again I'm having the urge to quit my job and cash out my retirement, break my lease and you'll never see me again...

Also I'm really feeling skin hungry this morning. Ugh cuddles plz

That thing where you want to wear a certain shirt but spent all day ironing your shirts yesterday and want to just keep them pristine for one goddamn day 😅

Aww 😅😊😘😘