i wish it was like taking an antidepressant everyday and it builds up in your system and just WORKS

this work dr was on about going on adhd meds and like i’m not anti those medications but I just don’t like the idea of constantly needing to up the dose, add in multiple medications to just get through the day… like what are the other options

15 books read this month 💃🏻

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literally non existent at this point and is for the foreseeable… it sucks… i spent my summers working on articles and doing all of the data for them… my proposal is my own.. i feel like if u do a lecturers pet project u get a PhD scholarship easier which is fucking ridiculous

i think also failing TWICE to get a PhD scholarship has been so disheartening for me and has me questioning myself as a scientist… i genuinely am very passionate about my research and i put a lot of work into my proposal. Ofc every candidate does!! It’s just so disheartening my research career is

it’s literally the least they can do

will have taken 6 weeks medical leave but I needed to for my health. hope to get moved into better role if not will be quitting for sure. will absolutely be taking full advantage of free counselling thru my job while i still work there

when i wake up i’m gonna research some masters & what funding i can get. starting biological coding course and should be back to work in 2 weeks so i’m making positive plans 4 the future

anyways vent is over and imma go sleep 🙈

literally made loads of friends at both uni’s i went to, made friends through my job, research, social media, politics, sport and music

like genuinely throughout secondary school i was friends with this girl and she was a horrible person but I had fuck all friends and figured it was better than having no friends BUT 1 day i had enough of her & i wish younger me knew to get rid & that I made plenty of actual friends no problem at all

this is why i have a handful of friends.. because i want friends who also respect me and my time, the same way i would for them

like is it so difficult to actually just scroll up and have the manners to reply and acknowledge my message?

like the issue is that it’s not a 1 time thing. happens all the time and like if you open ur app and start typing what you wanna say and just go for it, that’s great - not what my issue is, it’s the complete lack of respect for me imho

like I’ve spent the last 4/5 months just feeling low and reading has really helped me just get out of my head and it’s something good to focus on rather than being stuck in my head overthinking and overthinking

so proud of myself i have read 142 books this year so far. last year i read 86. maybe next year aim for 200

i have basically no followers on here so idc I’m venting my 4am thoughts

it’s like do they just need a therapist?? like i just don’t see how it’s a friendship like?

me: sends message
them: yet again constantly just disregarding anything I say
them: proceeds to only talk about themselves
me: closes app

1 thing that actually grates me more than anything is when people just completely disregard everything you say and constantly do it. like there is 2 people in the conversation… sick of 1 way convos where i may as well just not say anything abt me/ anything I want 2 talk about

fuck this i miss baseball

in a constant state of not wanting to do anything and feeling constant worthlessness and loss in life

the saddest thing is I don’t think anyone around me actually realises how bad my mental health is

internet down… ok go outside and touch the grass

what’s happened here is AJ knows his career has not gone to plan, he’s finished. BUT he may as well go get that BAG before he retires. Spark Jake Paul inshallah

one thing u should be doing as an adult is keep reading, it’s so nice to get out of your own head

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