I'm not deleting accounts but I'm logging out of them and turning off notifications later this week for at least a month or two. If we are friends and you want to stay in touch but don't have another way to contact me, send me a DM in the next couple days.
However, being in these online spaces is hurting more than helping right now and I can't keep putting myself through this for the sake of "not being forgotten about" or whatever.
I've tried to stay somewhat active and engaged in the community throughout this stuff because the gainerverse is, for better or worse, the only queer community I have found that I can feel fully genuine and myself within.
Clothing has become a functional covering that I put on without a mirror so I don't have to see how ill-fitting everything has become. I've started dissociating in the shower so I don't have to think about my deflating body as I touch it.
Numbers on a scale don't mean nearly as much to me as what I'm feeling in my body but that hasn't been any better, unfortunately. I've been avoiding looking at my body in the mirror more and more.
I've been avoiding the scale for my mental health the last couple years (food/housing/job insecurity) but I get worried about accidentally misleading people with an outdated weight in my bio so I pulled the scale out today and discovered that I'm now 282lbs, roughly 70lbs lost since 2023.
I kinda lost count of how many times I've let this loop... 🙈
NerdAlert's stiff cock and soft belly
NerdAlert naked and sitting in bed. Their cock is flopping to the right and their thigh rolls look soft
Some visible nonbinary belly and cock for your Transgender Day of Visibility
Everybody loves Pete! new commission to share.
I'm okay and not looking for pity 🐷✌️ just being a depressed slut who's far from thriving but still participating in the fat slut engagement economy.
NerdAlert, seated and filled with Taco Bell while wearing a tiny black strapped thong that goes up over their shoulders.
NerdAlert, standing and filled with Taco Bell while wearing a tiny black strapped thong that goes up over their shoulders.
I've been sick for a week, I've lost a lot of weight, my body is clearly under a lot of stress, and I had a bit of a depressive deep dive about it last night after trying this on. I felt a little better after filling my belly with a bunch of Taco Bell (pictured below) but it is a struggle over here.
Oh thank fuck you did 🥵
It's 100% a dominance/humiliation thing that he gets off on. I'm just reporting the news at this point.
Nude JP kneeling between nude RC's legs and gripping his thick thighs, from RC's perspective
RC sucking JP's cock, from JP's perspective
RC lifting up his belly to reveal his cum-covered underbelly and fatpad
RC laying nude on the bed, underbelly and fatpad covered in cum
For this very special Tummy Tuesday, have some quick shots from the fun @rangecub.bsky.social and I got up to when he visited this past weekend.
I fucked his belly and came in his overhang and it was unbelievably hot 🥵
I have never, in my life, seen a hairy person and thought, "They are too hairy."
I doubt I ever will! Try me!
Seriously... Try me.
🥺👉👈
Snow Day has me wanting cuddles, belly rubs, and a good feeding ❄️
NerdAlert sitting back on a grey couch in a similarly grey 8XL shirt. Their belly is noticeable but there is plenty of space in the shirt for more.
NerdAlert in the same position but with the 8XL shirt, pulled up to expose their soft, round belly and chest.
Hanging out in my aspirational 8XL shirt as the blizzard rolls in ❄️
🙋 I'll have the strain they're having!
Y'all are real good at getting me worked up in the morning 🥵
this one
JP's exposed lower belly and fatpad
A friend wanted to know how big my fatpad is these days. Figured y'all might want to know too
NerdAlert wearing black boxer briefs and a red sweater covered in paisley and black hearts with unicorns. They are making a heart hand-sign.
NerdAlert in black boxer briefs, now pulling the red sweater up to expose their belly and chest.
🫰 fatten me like you really mean it
Happy birthday!!!
🙋
Anyone ever called you Rubber Duckie? Because you look like you'd make bath time SO much fun 🥴
Got that taken care of... Along with a bag of cheese and half a thing of Fritos with more cheese.
NerdAlert on the couch, lifting an orange shirt to expose their belly and chest. A 1.5Q carton of ice cream sits on their thigh with a spoon in the top.
Oops, I bought this ice cream but there's no room in the freezer for it... Guess I'll have to eat it all tonight 🤷
