tldr i think the only measure of if ur winning at life is if ur happy or not

anyway lol all this 2 say "dam im doing pretty good even if i only make like 300 a week"

all this is pretty normal! but without disentangling your ego and self worth from capitalism first youll likely end up miserable bc the source of that drive is very different imo

but furthermore i would be even happier if i got to do work i cared abt so im working towards realizing a dream of loving what i do that working is a joy & i get to do work im proud of. thats my plan for living fully

anyway everything is just what you make of it is how i feel and that mindset has made me a pretty happy person into my late 20s and early 30s. i focus on making myself happy, but sustainably so which does require a job, good finances, etc, but its not abt my ego. i just want treats lol

most likely he was concerned that i should have made more money but he failed to grasp that i was proud of myself for having made the money with my own two hands in the first place. two completely different ways of determining success

but also im reminded that happiness is more of a perspective than anything else. i remember being a teen and making 200 off music comms at the time and i told my dad cuz i was proud of myself and he was just like "thats not a lot" lol .. i mean if ur judging by monetary metrics then yes ig so!

i believe most things boil down to ego in which we desire feeling good about ourselves or we wanna make up for a perceived flaw we have, which is a normal thing that happens, but this easily gets toxic when we forget that the basis of happiness is a good, loving relationship with yourself first

defining ur worth by ur usefulness to society or others is just capitalism ngl. like we all want to be useful to people we care about which usually looks like monetary success but sometimes thats just cope for not having self love

very grateful to be where i am at mentally lol, in a way sucking at school and being a "failure" & a neet for so long forced me to redefine what "success" looks like & now i am free from the capitalist grindset

i keep seeing content online thats basically telling ppl stuff i learned on my own years ago about how having this idealized picture of how your life is supposed to be (and thus idealizing "the grind" and hustle culture) basically makes ppl miserable

i helped my friends make this short game.. its very fun and silly and you can play it free

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really fucking crazy that the literacy level has actually dropped in the US since when i was in school like how lol

it takes too many braincells to understand nuance and unfortunately until education starts focusing on critical thinking skills i dont think its gonna improve

its easier to go after the queer artist that draws weird porn than it is to go after the literal pedos bc theyre our politicians and leaders and in the end only other queer ppl get hurt lol

objecting to fiction bc you dont like what its depicting is fascist shit and always has been

gen z and gen alpha are legitimately getting dumber bc education sucks thanks to funding cuts and i think this has no small role in why you see a lot of them parroting conservative christian values in fandom spaces

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOWOWOWOOOOOOO

digital rendering of a catboy in messy torn leather armor

watercolour painting of an insect-like humanoid prince with a wood crown emerging from a cocoon

notepaper scribble of two racehorses with breasts kissing with tongue in the sky. my sona Kibble hovers beneath them in a hospital bed, zonked out on his top surgery anesthesia

pinup-style digital drawing of a catgirl with silver hair and a couple of hand-axes, and an insectoid silver fairy at her side

it's my birthday! hi im sout and i like drawing weird stuff. i'm a trans man and draw a lot of things pertaining to the fact. and lately i've been into dark fantasy and these pinup-style cat things. but who knows what i will draw next? please consider sharing some of my work that you like today!

maybe its bc im a very picky reader lol like if the prose isnt engaging i just stop reading bc my brain is always like ok i think i write in a more engaging way than this lol

i tried to read a little life bc i heard it was notorious for its content but it was legit so boring i didnt bother reading past the first like 5 pages like sorry i do not understand why people thought the prose was good

i got gayer transer and hotter after highschool which cannot be said for most of the people ive seen since then </3 cishets simply age worse than we do

i saw an old highschool classmate at an art market a few weeks ago and im just remembering like. wow i have zero desire to talk to literally anyone from highschool. also i look way hotter than them sorry

i make art all the time i just dont post a lot of it anymore cuz most of it is kinda abstract & im lazy & i feel like people prefer when i draw anime people & im just like ee e e e i dont wanna draw anime peepo doe

anyway collaging is basically how i keep a diary instead of actually writing bc i often dont have much i want to say but keeping snippets of proof of having done something works just as well