Small doodle- got laid off from my job, I’ll be ok for a bit, taking a month off to re-sort my brain after like 9 years being at the same place. Feels like a messy break up!

damn, that first image is a blast from the past!

I dont post much but here’s a cool staff I modeled and textured in maya/substance painter!

I haven’t modeled much in maya or any 3D software, and did this for a hackathon project in a few hours, pretty proud of the result, all that said!

Right now I’m holding on to my decisions, my ideals to the best of my ability.

I’m tired and feeling very stressed.

The last 3 years have been incredibly hard for me, and I’m sure the people around me.

I wish I could have one normal dream with closure… I feel like all I’ve gotten is fragments and it isn’t fair. I’m glad you got that with your mom, though ❤️

And he said “I don’t know, also my family jumped the gun”, and I was like, “you think???”… I started asking him what happened, he couldn’t answer, he didn’t know. My brain didn’t know. I started pulling myself out of the cruel dream. I can’t believe my subconscious did that to me.

I miss him every day. I had a dream about him where he was miraculously alive and I called him and we talked and he sounded confused. I was like “you died”, he said “no I didn’t, I was in a coma”, and I was like “then why did your obituary get posted? Why did your boss say you were cremated?”

Back on bluesky - deleted my twitter for good, I can’t be on a platform owned by a bigot.

Oh hey first bluesky post. I like that I can hide retweets, quotes and replies???