I love dogs so much dude aaaaaagh I wish I was in a position to have one again. Every dog video or cute picture with a story just...... Aaaauuuuugh dogs are such cool, good dudes. I wanna hang out with a dog and just run around in a field together aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh *dogs*

She just told me that the other two are officially Little Sexy and Dawg Sexy lmfaooo

I love that my sister and I just casually refer to one of her cats as Big Sexy instead of her actual name lmao

Boyfriend has changed in ways that were previously unimaginable. I'm ready to jump into pro-pro wrestling discourse on the side of pro wrestling. I'm ready to fight.

I'm so obsessed with storms and Big Crazy Natural Events right now, they've always made me so anxious but I'm fascinated with them.

Kind of prefer the ones that are big and scary but the narration ends with "and then it vanished in a field and everyone including all the pets are basically okay 👍"

Man I can't remember which one it was, might have been one of the big wedge tornados that hit El Reno in 2011, but one of the storm chasers got a few that showed just a field full of vortices dancing back and forth outside the main rotation surrounded by debris, it looked absolutely apocalyptic.

Dude I keep watching tornado videos, is it fucked up that I kind of really want to ride along with a storm chaser because uh um erm

I also hate that I ended up telling my sister a little about the dream immediately after a conversation about bowel movements. But that's also very *us* I think.

And my GOD the rage, the absolute rage, because I feel like in reality, that's absolutely something my dad would do, and I'll just have to accept it like I have to, but not my sister, and though I haven't had one about her I think, not my mom, either. I really would not be a person without them.

I lost my dad at some point. It was early. I have some shell of a human I talk to now, but he hasn't felt like the man I knew when I was very young, before he became an abusive religious zealot for a while. But I dream about him all the time, and it always hurts. My sister isn't like that.

... when I was like 10, I couldn't say goodbye to either of my grandmothers. My dad literally picked me up from my college dorm to see my maternal grandmother and decided to stop at that big Bass Pro shop for two hours so we couldn't make it in time. And he's one of the ones I dream about the most.

I had an opportunity to say goodbye to all three and wasn't allowed to because they said I was "too sensitive" for it because of my reaction to watching my dog die that had been poisoned with antifreeze by our neighbor. So because I freaked out over watching my dog convulse to death...

... of not being allowed closure for whatever reason. There were three significant relatives in my life (however personally controversial one, if not two of them were) that I wasn't allowed to see before they passed, specifically because my parents refused to tell me it was Finally Happening.

I have a lot of trauma surrounding death. Not in any particularly bizarre or extravagant ways unless you tie in my own assault a few years ago, and even then I only found out he had a gun and actively intended to kill people after it had happened. Most of it is just having multiple experiences...

An hour or so later, took a shower, hanging out with the cats, crying my eyes out over it yet again. It's those intrinsic, instinctual pains, those anxieties, all tied up with past grief. I know exactly why I have dreams like this all the time, and that only makes me feel more wildly angry.

I remember telling her in the dream how much I hated her for doing it this way because I wasn't able to take more time to spend with her. God what an awful dream, I'm still so fucked up about it

Couldn't scream because I woke up choking and crying and was probably trying to scream outside the dream, too. The fact that I have nightmares like this frequently is goddamned nerve-wracking.

I had a dream my sister was going to die soon and everyone told me at what was effectively her living funeral and I started going absolutely crazy with anger and grief, and the worst part was that I was crying so hard in the dream but I couldn't fucking scream, and I wanted to so badly.

*puts my life force into a sock*

Tfw you went to the bathroom and your coworker calls your personal phone and just says "I'm in trouble..." ☹️

She looks like she's trying to give you a high five with her whole body ✋

I need to run around in a field with a dog or two, maybe that would fix me

Crazy MAGA neighbors accused me of busting their tire and called the cops over it, dude I'm so fucking tired of this dumbass town and frankly this entire dumbass region

I think that I'm just bad luck, dude.

Me too little plastic fish bud. Me too.

Godspeed, Remi.

We finally caught/released the resident Deli Rat today, and I ended up playing a pivotal role in spite of rooting for the lil guy (who I think was actually a girl). Was actually hoping for something more like this than them ending up in the traps they had me reset only a couple hours before.

Bryn does this thing where she insists on hanging out with me but MUST do so by crawling inside my shirt, crawling around behind me, and resting against my back in her own personal little Bryn Pouch that she's created, and I love it so much. She's so cute and yet I have to get up and do things 😭

Adrift at sea, adrift at sea...

My phone keeps randomly playing weird synthy music at random intervals and I can't figure out why... Is Now the Time? This is why the technogods can't rely on me...