ha no he wouldn't be disappointed. if he was ever disappointed in me, i didn't know and don't want to know. no, he'd just laugh at me crying and call me Milhouse

he'd laugh at me for crying even after the fact. get it together, em.

i feel like i should cry every time i talk about him. he'd laugh at me for that! so it's ok that i can mention him and his death to people who didn't know him and be stoic about it

anyway. My Dad Died. two years ago and i feel extremely strange about it. i hate that i can talk about Dad's Cancer without crying now?

the one time i lost it at work was when O asked me "where's your daddy?" and i said something to get away from the question. and he said "is he at work?" and i just excused myself and had to take 5 minutes in the office #dadupdates

sometimes the kids at work ask about my daddy, and i say "my dad's not with us any more" to avoid death talk with preschoolers.

once a kid went "did he DIED?"
and i said "yes, he died"
and the kid went "oh" with the funniest 🫤 face

two years ago!! what the fuck! i don't even know how to handle it.

i remember freaking out bc the cat hadn't had his summer vaccinations, so couldn't go in the cattery from May, so if It Happened in the summer we might not be able to put him in for the funeral etc

again, thanks dad. nailed it.

he died on a tuesday, which honestly i massively appreciated, bc i got the whole week off work. he absolutely timed it just for me. thanks dad!

two years ago on thursday, my dad died.

that's not real to me. what do you mean, 2 years? it was last year surely?

good news: a familial history of pancreatic cancer isn't likely to affect my mortgage, and my broker was appropriately sympathetic. he also told me of his family health issues and how he has no trust in the NHS. i couldn't get a word in edgeways but he can quite frankly go fuck himself

the mortgage broker is trying to sell us insurance so is quizzing about our health details. i'm so deeply ignoring it that when he asks if i have a close family history of cancer i said "no. wait. yes, sorry, i'm not sure why i said no"

ferdie loves those too but he will not eat them off the stick, i have to break them into bits for him

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do you know what? I'm genuinely hurt that this happened. not by the group but by the management. they've only ever performed El Dorado live once before and for some reason it was chosen to be performed live now. however, watch DO and Suho nail some difficult lines.
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i have no idea but it's gotta be years. bestie~

b...bestie?

she called me bestie 🥰

you are extremely beautiful, as a person. and, like, facially, your face is beautiful.

you posted photos of yourself? years ago? oh, i didn't notice, i was talking about vibes. your beautiful vibes. just because i think you're beautiful and cute. never mind, im not replying to an old post. nvm

@mrgeop.bsky.social no cursed zillow here i'm afraid, except for it being grey with "live laugh love" on the walls. 😬

if you wanna see pics of the house, dm me - it's still not set in stone buuuut fairly close imo

searches and surveys are next; i don't wanna get my hopes up but you're all invited to the housewarming if we pull this off

gonna say it here: i think we may possibly be about to buy a fucking house.

it's all moving a bit faster than i expected so really: i'm probably going to be a Homeowner soon

indoor cats fit anywhere! even though we're about to buy a whole-ass house Ferdie will still be an Indoor Cat. it rules bc they make you go and see when they've pooped, because they think you like to take it away and eat it or something

you know, i just remembered videos (?) of a cat and assumed you kept it. guess not! i'd suggest getting a cat if i wasn't so uncommonly angry at mine. usually he's My Beloved Son, and will be again tomorrow probably

i'm never going to kill the baby.

it's definitely time for Ferdie to go to the groomers, bc the kids at work are worried about me. "what's that scratch" "who hurt you" "why are you bleeding"

just the cat. the horrible horrible cat.

also i think i did know that you guys had a cat but you never Post about the cat!

hah! from ferdie experience, they have much more control over the front (sharper) feet than the back. so a back foot mouth scratch = accident. front foot mouth scratch = intentional, throw out of the window forever